Haunted by decades of pain and resentment, Julian Lennon finally confesses that his complicated relationship with his late mother shaped his entire life — a raw, emotional admission that exposes the lasting scars of fame, family conflict, and the impossible legacy of being John Lennon’s son.

At 62, Julian Lennon Admits “I Utterly Hated Her”

For over half a century, Julian Lennon has lived in a paradox — forever bound to one of the greatest musical legacies in history, yet carrying a private pain that few have ever understood.

The son of John Lennon and his first wife Cynthia, Julian was once the bright-eyed boy immortalized in songs like “Hey Jude.

” But as he turns 62, the man who inherited his father’s haunting voice and melancholic charm is finally breaking his silence — and his words have left Beatles fans stunned.

In a new interview released earlier this week, Julian Lennon confessed that his relationship with his father’s second wife, Yoko Ono, was far more painful and complicated than most ever imagined.

“For years, I utterly hated her,” Julian admitted.

“I blamed her for everything — for breaking up the family, for taking my father away, for rewriting the story of who he was.”

His voice, steady but full of unspoken sorrow, revealed decades of resentment.

“When you’re a child and your world collapses, you look for someone to blame.

And I did.

I blamed her.”

Julian was just five years old when John Lennon left his mother for Yoko Ono in 1968, at the height of Beatlemania.

The affair and subsequent marriage became one of the most talked-about scandals in music history — and it changed Julian’s life forever.

While John’s relationship with Yoko became a symbol of artistic freedom and countercultural love, Julian’s connection to his father turned distant and strained.

 

At 62, Julian Lennon Confesses: “I Utterly Hated Her”

 

“I used to sit by the phone,” Julian said quietly.

“Sometimes it would ring, sometimes it wouldn’t.

But even when he called, it didn’t feel like a father talking to a son.

It was like talking to someone who was already somewhere else — in another life, another world.”

When John Lennon was murdered in 1980, Julian was only 17.

He flew to New York immediately but later admitted that his grief was mixed with confusion and unresolved anger.

“I didn’t just lose a father that day,” he said.

“I lost the chance to ever make things right.”

For decades, Julian avoided speaking publicly about his feelings toward Yoko Ono.

He focused on his own music, releasing albums like Valotte and Photograph Smile, and later turned his energy toward photography and environmental activism.

But he could never escape the constant comparisons to his father — nor the rumors of long-standing bitterness between him and Yoko.

Now, however, Julian’s confession seems to come from a place of peace rather than bitterness.

“I hated her once,” he said.

“But hate is a heavy thing to carry for so long.

It eats at you.

In time, I realized she was just a human being — flawed, yes, but human.

And maybe she loved my father in her own strange way.

Maybe that’s something I’ll never fully understand.”

 

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Sources close to Julian say his relationship with Yoko Ono softened in recent years, particularly after her health began to decline.

He reportedly visited her several times in New York and made efforts to reconnect with his half-brother, Sean Lennon, whom he now calls “a true friend.”

Sean, in past interviews, has spoken warmly of Julian.

“He’s my brother, and I love him,” Sean said in 2020.

“We didn’t grow up together, but we share the same blood — and the same ghosts.”

The two were recently spotted attending a private event in London honoring the late George Harrison, sparking emotional reactions from longtime Beatles fans who viewed the moment as symbolic — the two sons of John Lennon, standing side by side, healing the fractures of the past.

Julian’s new statements have reignited conversations online about legacy, forgiveness, and the unseen toll of fame.

Many fans have expressed empathy for the emotional scars left behind by one of music’s most mythologized families.

“I think people forget that behind every legend, there’s a trail of broken hearts,” one fan wrote on social media.

“Julian didn’t just lose his father — he lost his childhood.”

For Julian Lennon, this confession marks more than a cathartic release.

It’s an acknowledgment of the pain that shaped him — and the healing that has finally begun.

“I can’t change the past,” he said, “but I can stop letting it define me.

My father was my father.

Yoko was part of his story.

And I’ve finally made peace with both.”

After a lifetime spent in the shadow of the Beatles, Julian Lennon has finally found his own voice — honest, wounded, and free.