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I was born in Riyad, inside a palace that never slept.

Its corridors echoed with soft footsteps and whispered commands.

Marble floors stretched endlessly beneath chandeliers imported from Europe.

But no matter how bright the rooms were, there was always a shadow following me.

From my earliest memory, I understood one truth.

I did not belong to myself.

At 5 years old, I was taught how to lower my eyes.

At seven, how to walk without making sound.

At nine, how to recite verses I did not understand.

Praising a god I was told never to question.

My days were structured with military precision.

Dawn prayers before sunrise.

Quran memorization under strict supervision.

Lessons in modesty, silence, and obedience.

My tutors praised me not for curiosity or intelligence, but for discipline.

They said I was pure.

What they meant was compliant.

My father ruled our household like a sovereign state.

His word was final.

His gaze was feared.

Even my mother, a woman who once had dreams of her own, spoke only when permitted.

Affection did not exist in our family.

Only approval.

I believed that this was love.

That fear was respect.

That submission was holiness.

And because I believed it, I tried harder than anyone else.

I memorized scripture faster.

I obeyed more precisely.

I disappeared more completely.

But something inside me never went silent.

Sometimes late at night, I would press my face against the window of my room and stare into the desert beyond the palace walls.

The sand stretched endlessly, untouched and free.

I didn’t know why, but it called to me.

By the time I reached adolescence, the rules changed.

Suddenly, my body was no longer mine.

My voice became dangerous.

My presence itself was considered a provocation.

I was no longer allowed outside without permission.

No longer allowed to speak freely, even to female relatives.

Every movement was monitored.

The rules multiplied, but no one ever explained them.

If I asked why, I was told because Allah commands it.

If I asked where, I was told, do not question what is sacred, but obedience has limits and mine were tested.

I was caught once reading a forbidden book, a foreign novel left behind by a visiting diplomat’s wife.

It was not religious.

It spoke of love, choice, and freedom.

That single act changed everything.

My father did not shout.

He did not strike me.

He simply looked at me and said, “You have forgotten your place.

” From that moment, I was no longer a daughter.

I was a problem.

My movements were restricted further.

Servants were instructed to report on me.

My education was reduced to obedience training.

And then came the warnings.

In our world, disobedient women disappear quietly, sent away, married off, or worse.

I thought I would be corrected, disciplined, forgiven.

I did not know I was being prepared for sale.

The decision was made without my presence.

One evening I was summoned to my father’s private chamber.

His voice was calm, measured, final.

You have shamed this family, he said, and shame must be corrected.

He explained it like a business arrangement.

A wealthy man, no family name worth protecting.

A man who dealt in labor, transport, and silence.

I would be transferred, disowned, erased, not as punishment, but as purification.

My dowy was not gold or land.

It was my obedience.

I remember my knees giving way beneath me, the room spinning, my voice breaking as I begged him to reconsider.

He did not look at me.

You chose this, he said.

Two days later, I was escorted out of the palace at night.

No ceremony, no farewell, only the desert.

They told me I was being relocated, given a chance to repent through service.

But when the vehicle stopped, there was no house, no city, only sand, wind, and darkness.

I was handed over like cargo, and as the car drove away, leaving me behind, I realized something I had never understood before.

My faith had never protected me.

My family had never loved me, and I was completely alone.

The first thing I noticed was the quiet.

Not the peaceful kind of quiet that comes after a long day in a safe home.

This was a silence with teeth, a silence that watched you.

The wind moved across the sand like a living thing, dragging grains against my abaya, whispering into my ears, filling my mouth with dust whenever I tried to breathe too deeply.

The men who took me did not speak to me.

They did not need to.

They handed me to a driver who never looked me in the eye.

He drove for hours without music, without conversation, without stopping.

As if my existence was an inconvenience he wanted to finish quickly.

When we finally arrived, there was no city, no lights, no road signs, only a small compound of low buildings, half swallowed by the horizon, and a fence that looked more symbolic than protective.

A woman met me at the entrance, older, hard-faced.

Her eyes were the eyes of someone who had learned to survive by becoming stone.

She did not ask my name.

She did not care that I was royal.

She looked at me once and said, “Work.

” That was the beginning.

My life became a sequence of tasks that never ended.

Before sunrise, water.

After sunrise, cleaning.

Midday cooking.

Night more cleaning.

I was given a thin mattress on the floor in a room with two other women.

Neither of them spoke to me, not because they were cruel, but because speaking was dangerous.

In places like that, words can become evidence, and evidence can become punishment.

Days blurred together until I stopped counting them.

I would sit outside for a moment when the guards were distracted, staring at the vast open sand beyond the compound, and it would hit me in waves.

The desert did not care who my father was.

It did not care what name I carried.

Out there, power meant nothing.

In the palace, I had lived in a golden prison.

Here, I lived in a cage made of heat, hunger, and fear.

At night, when the air cooled, memories would attack me.

I would hear my father’s voice in my head as if he was standing over me.

You chose this.

You made this happen.

You deserve this.

And then the worst thought would come.

Creeping in like a snake.

Maybe he was right.

Maybe Allah was punishing me.

I tried to pray like I always had.

I pressed my forehead to the ground.

I recited verses until my throat hurt.

I begged for mercy.

But the words felt like stones in my mouth.

It was not that I stopped believing.

It was that the belief stopped giving me air.

One night I went outside and stood alone behind the building where the shadows were thick and the stars were sharp.

The sky was endless, so wide it made my chest ache.

I whispered into the dark, not to anyone in particular.

Is anyone there? No answer, only silence.

Hunger changes the way you think.

At first, I tried to stay strong by forcing structure onto the chaos.

I told myself I would pray at the exact times I used to.

I told myself I would recite the same verses, the same supplications, the same rehearsed lines that had guided me since childhood.

But the desert did not respect routines.

Some days I was worked past midnight.

Some days I was denied water as punishment for moving too slowly.

Some days the heat was so heavy it felt like an invisible hand pressing my head down toward the ground.

I began to lose track of time.

And when you lose track of time, you lose the comfort of certainty.

The prayers became shorter.

Not because I cared less, but because I was too exhausted to stand.

Then something worse happened.

I began to feel nothing.

I would lift my hands to pray and feel like I was speaking into a sealed room.

As if every word hit a wall and fell at my feet.

I told myself the problem was me, that I was impure, that my heart had become corrupted.

So I tried harder.

I fasted when I had nothing left to give.

I whispered apologies into the floor until my lips cracked.

I begged Allah to make me obedient again to fix whatever had gone wrong inside me.

But the more I begged, the emptier I felt.

One night I collapsed beside my mattress and couldn’t stop shaking.

Not from cold, from something deeper.

Fear, grief, and humiliation twisted together until they became one sensation.

A thought rose in me that felt forbidden.

What if God is not what I was taught? What if God is not listening? The moment that thought entered my mind, I panicked.

I tried to chase it away with recitation, but it returned stronger.

What kind of mercy sells a daughter? What kind of justice turns a father into a judge and executioner? I had been taught that questioning was sin.

And yet in the dark the questions became the only honest thing in me.

I started speaking to the sky again quietly when no one was near.

I did everything right.

I whispered.

I obeyed.

I memorized.

The stars did not respond.

The wind did not soften.

But then I said something I had never dared to say in my life.

If you are real, if you are truly merciful, then show me.

The words scared me because I wasn’t sure who I was talking to anymore.

That night, I slept with my face turned toward the wall, trying to hide from my own thoughts.

And that’s when the dream began.

I did not dream of palaces.

I did not dream of my father.

I did not dream of the compound or the guards or the endless tasks.

I dreamed of light, not the harsh light of the Saudi sun that burns your skin until you hate your own body.

This was different, soft, warm, alive.

I found myself standing on sand that looked like the desert, but it felt clean, untouched.

The air was calm.

The sky above me was not black or blue, but something brighter, like dawn stretched into eternity.

And then I saw him.

At first, I thought it was a mirage, a figure in the distance, dressed in white, walking toward me as if the desert belonged to him.

But as he came closer, my breath caught.

The whiteness of his clothing was not fabric alone.

It seemed to hold light inside it, like it carried a fire that didn’t burn.

His face was both gentle and unshakable, not soft in the way weakness is soft, soft in the way truth is soft.

I wanted to run.

Not away from him, but away from the intensity of being seen, because that was the first thing I felt.

He saw me.

Not my family name, not my shame, not the label my father had stamped onto me.

Me.

I tried to speak but couldn’t.

My throat felt locked.

Tears welled up in my eyes before I even understood why.

He stopped a few steps away, and the silence around him was not empty.

It was full.

Then he spoke.

And he spoke in Arabic, but not like any man I had ever heard.

His words were pure, clear, not demanding, not accusing, da.

I froze.

No one in that place called me by my name anymore.

They called me servant.

They called me girl.

They called me nothing at all.

But he said my name as if it meant something.

I shook my head, trying to back away.

And the sand beneath my feet didn’t shift.

It held me steady.

You are not abandoned, he said.

I wanted to argue.

I wanted to scream.

I wanted to point to the scars I couldn’t show.

To the fear I carried like an organ in my chest.

But all that came out was a broken whisper.

Why? His eyes did not harden.

He did not explain it like a lesson.

He took one step closer, and I felt warmth move through me, not like heat, but like safety.

I came to find you, he said.

I came because you cried out.

I didn’t know what to do with that.

My entire life, God had felt distant.

A law, a command, a scoreboard.

But this presence felt personal, real.

And then I said the sentence that changed everything.

Who are you? He looked at me, and for a moment, the light around him seemed to grow brighter, as if the world itself was leaning in.

I am Jesus, he said.

and you are mine.

” I woke up gasping, my hands clenched into the blanket.

The room was dark.

The compound was still the compound, but something had changed.

The silence no longer felt empty.

It felt like a doorway.

For 2 days after the dream, I tried to convince myself it was nothing.

A mind under pressure creates stories.

A starving body invents comfort.

A desperate soul reaches for anything that feels like air.

That is what I told myself.

But the memory of his voice would not fade.

It stayed with me while I scrubbed floors until my fingers bled.

It stayed with me while I carried water under a sun that felt like punishment.

It stayed with me when I lay down at night, surrounded by other women who slept with the shallow breaths of people who expected tomorrow to hurt.

Dunia, you are not abandoned.

I began to repeat those words in my mind the way I used to recite scripture.

Not loudly, not with confidence, just quietly, like a match held in trembling hands.

And then the first sign came, not dramatic, not theatrical, just impossible.

It happened in the late afternoon.

When the heat finally softened, and the guards grew lazy, I was sent outside to shake dust from old rugs.

The sand was thick in the air, the sky a washed out blue.

The kind of day that makes you feel like the world is made of fire and dryness.

I stepped behind the building away from view because I needed a moment to breathe without being watched.

That is when I saw it.

A footprint, one single footprint pressed into the sand.

It was fresh.

The edges were sharp, not softened by wind.

It looked like someone had just stepped there, but there were no other tracks leading to it.

No trail, no marks behind it or beyond it.

Just one footprint as if a man had appeared from nothing.

Stood there, then vanished into air.

I stared at it, frozen.

My first thought was fear.

The kind of fear you feel when reality shifts and you do not know what rules still apply.

I looked around.

No one.

The compound was quiet.

Only distant voices, faint metal clinks, the slow hum of a generator.

I crouched down, my hands shaking.

The sand was cool under the surface, as if it had been protected from the sun.

My chest tightened.

I remembered the dream.

The desert that felt clean.

The air that felt alive.

The way his robe held light inside it.

I swallowed hard and whispered, barely moving my lips.

Jesus.

The moment I said the name, the wind shifted.

It was not a storm, not a dramatic burst.

It was gentle and it carried a scent that did not belong in that place.

Not perfume, not smoke, something like rain.

It lasted only a breath, like a memory passing through the air.

But it was enough to make tears swell in my eyes because the desert does not smell like rain.

Not there, not ever.

My knees weakened, and I pressed my hand to my mouth to stop myself from making a sound.

I wanted to laugh.

I wanted to sob.

I wanted to run.

Instead, I stayed there, staring at the footprint like it was a message written in a language my soul understood, but my mind could not explain.

That night, I could not sleep.

I waited for the dream to return, and when it did, it was different.

The second dream was not gentle.

It was not soft light and calm air.

It began in darkness.

I was walking through the desert again, but this time the sky was heavy, as if a storm was building without thunder.

The sand under my feet felt cold.

Each step sounded louder than it should, like the desert was listening.

I felt watched, not by gods, not by men, by something older, something unseen.

Fear rose in me so fast that I could barely breathe.

Then ahead of me, a small flame appeared.

just one.

A light that should not exist in open sand with no fuel, no windbreak, no shelter.

I moved toward it.

Pulled by a force I could not name.

As I got closer, I saw him.

Jesus.

He stood beside the flame like it belonged to him, like it recognized him.

His face was calm.

But there was something in his eyes that made me understand this was not a comforting visit.

This was a warning.

Duna,” he said.

Hearing my name again made me feel both safe and exposed, like the truth of me had been uncovered.

I tried to speak, but my voice cracked.

They will not let me go, I whispered.

He did not argue with me.

He did not tell me it would be easy.

He said, “You must decide who you belong to.

” The words struck me like a blade because I knew what the world expected me to say.

I belong to my father.

I belong to my family.

I belong to their rules.

I had been trained to answer like that since childhood.

But when I looked at Jesus, I felt something in me rise up that I had never been allowed to feel.

A self, a soul that did not want to die quietly.

Tears streamed down my face.

I do not know how, I admitted.

Jesus stepped closer, and the darkness around him seemed to retreat without argument.

He held out his hand, not as a demand, as an invitation.

“You do not need strength.

You do not have,” he said.

“You need truth.

” I stared at his hand, shaking.

My heart fought itself because reaching for him meant betrayal of everything I had been taught.

“It meant danger.

It meant the possibility of losing what little protection I still had.

But not reaching meant something worse.

It meant accepting that I was only property.

” I lifted my hand slowly, and the moment my fingers touched his, the fear in my chest broke apart like glass.

I felt warmth flood through me, not like emotion, but like life returning to a limb that had been numb for years.

Then he leaned toward me and he spoke the words that changed the shape of my future.

“When it is time,” he said, “you will leave, and you will not leave alone.

” I woke up crying.

My pillow damp, my chest heaving.

The women in the room turned slightly, annoyed, half asleep.

I covered my face and swallowed every sound.

In that place, tears were weakness.

Weakness was punished.

But inside, something was happening.

A secret name had become my secret prayer.

Not the rehearsed prayers of my childhood.

Not the words meant to impress men.

Just one name whispered into darkness.

Jesus.

I started whispering it during the day.

In my mind while I worked under my breath when no one could hear and with each whisper something tightened in the invisible world around me like a door was beginning to unlock.

Then on the fourth night after the first dream, the door opened.

Not in my mind.

In the real world, it started with a mistake.

That is what they believed.

A god left a gate unlatched.

A driver arrived early.

A radio message came through at the wrong moment.

Small things, the kind of details men use to blame each other when something goes wrong.

But I knew what it was because the air felt different that day.

The morning began like every other work, heat, silence.

Then near midday, the compound shifted into agitation.

I could hear voices sharper than usual, footsteps faster.

A vehicle engine started and stopped.

Started and stopped again.

Someone was nervous.

The older woman in charge of us stormed into our room and barked orders.

Move outside.

Now we filed out quickly, heads down, hands close to our bodies.

Outside, I saw two men arguing near the main gate.

One was pointing at a paper, the other shaking his head, his hand pressed to the side of his face as if he had a headache.

A third man stood behind them, quiet, he wore a plain th insignia, no weapon visible, but something about him made the hair on my arms lift.

He was not from there.

He didn’t look at the women the way the others did.

The others looked at us like objects, like work animals.

This man looked at us like people.

His gaze swept over the group and paused on me just for a breath.

Then he looked away.

My heart pounded.

I wanted to look down, but something held my eyes up.

The man took a step toward the arguing guards and spoke quietly.

I could not hear the words.

The guards went silent instantly as if they recognized authority that didn’t need volume.

One of them nodded tense.

The man turned toward us and he said in Arabic calm and clear, “You, Dunia,” my blood turned cold.

No one here had ever used my name.

I felt the women around me tense.

The older woman’s eyes narrowed.

“Who are you?” she snapped.

The man did not answer her.

He looked at me again, and his voice dropped lower.

“Do you want to live?” he asked.

The question hit me like a wave.

Because the real answer was not simple.

Living meant running.

Running meant being hunted.

Being hunted meant death if caught.

But staying meant a slower death, a death of soul than body.

My mouth went dry, and in my mind I heard the words from the dream.

You will leave, and you will not leave alone.

I swallowed and nodded once.

That was all.

The man turned and walked toward a smaller side gate near the storage area, a gate I had never seen opened.

The guard nearest it hesitated, then unlocked it as if compelled.

The older woman stepped forward, furious.

“You cannot take her,” she said.

The man finally met her eyes, and in his expression was something that made her stop.

“Not rage, not threat, certainty.

He spoke one sentence.

Not today.

” Then he motioned sharp and quick.

Now my body moved before my mind could argue.

I stepped out of the line.

The women stared.

Some of them looked away as if seeing hope was too painful.

I followed him through the side gate and what waited on the other side was impossible.

A vehicle engine running positioned perfectly behind the building, hidden from the main compound.

A second man in the driver’s seat, his eyes forward, hands steady.

Ready.

The first man opened the back door.

“Get in,” he said.

I hesitated for one heartbeat.

Then I whispered the name that had become my oxygen.

Jesus, and I climbed inside.

The door shut.

The vehicle moved.

The compound disappeared behind us.

And for the first time since the palace, I felt something I had never truly known.

motion without permission, freedom beginning.

But the desert was still ahead, and I did not yet understand what it would cost.

We drove without speaking.

The vehicle bounced over uneven sand and hard-packed dirt, leaving the compound behind like a bad dream that refused to dissolve.

I kept looking back through the rear window, expecting headlights to appear at any moment.

In my world, nothing that valuable ever vanished without pursuit.

The man beside me sat rigid, his hands resting on his knees.

He did not touch me.

He did not stare.

He didn’t speak in the commanding tone I associated with Saudi men.

That alone felt unreal.

After what felt like an hour, the driver turned onto a narrow service road that ran between low, rocky hills.

The landscape changed.

The sand became darker.

The heat softened as if the earth itself was making room for the night.

Only then did the first man speak again.

You must understand, he said quietly.

They will search, my throat tightened.

I nodded, unable to form words.

He glanced at me once, not with pity, but with seriousness.

Your father’s signature is power, he continued.

If he sold you, he will not accept losing the transaction.

Not because of love, because of control.

Control.

That word was the most honest description of my childhood.

The driver checked the mirror, then adjusted his speed.

I noticed how often he watched the horizon, the way his shoulders held tension, as if he expected the sky to betray us.

It wasn’t long before the proof came.

A faint sound far behind us, like a distant insect.

The driver’s jaw clenched.

Two vehicles, he muttered.

The man beside me leaned forward, eyes narrowing.

The calm in his face remained, but it was the calm of someone who had prepared for this moment.

He turned to me.

Listen carefully.

Run alone.

Those words struck something in me.

They echoed the dream without repeating it.

The sound behind us grew louder.

The outline of headlights shimmerred in the distance, barely visible in the haze.

They were coming.

My hands began to shake.

My body went cold.

Even though the air around me was still warm, I thought of what would happen if they caught me.

It would not be a return.

It would be a lesson.

In Saudi Arabia, the punishment is never only for the person who disobys.

It is also for everyone who watches, so no one else dares to imitate.

I pressed my palms together, trying to hold myself in place.

In my mind, I whispered the name again.

Jesus.

The man beside me reached into his pocket and pulled out a small device like a radio.

He spoke briefly into it.

The driver took a sharp turn off the service road and onto rough ground.

The vehicle jolted so hard my teeth clicked.

The headlights behind us shifted too, adjusting.

They see us, I whispered.

The man beside me nodded.

Yes, he said it like he was confirming the weather.

The driver pushed faster, the engine straining.

We bounced over rock and sand until my bones achd.

Dust rose behind us in a thick cloud, but the pursuers kept coming.

Then ahead the road ended, not in a wall, but open desert, scattered rocks, and a shallow basin.

The driver slowed, then stopped behind a ridge that hid us from the main line of sight.

“Out,” the man beside me said, my heart slammed.

“What?” I breathed.

He opened the door and stepped out.

The driver did too.

Both men moved quickly with practiced precision, not chaos.

The man looked back at me and extended his hand.

Now I took it.

The sand swallowed my feet as I stepped out.

The night air cooler against my skin.

We crouched behind the ridge as the headlights swept past in the distance, searching, scanning.

My breath came in short bursts.

I wanted to cry.

I wanted to scream.

Instead, I watched.

And in that moment, I understood.

This was not an accident.

This escape was a war.

A war against the people who believed they owned me.

The man’s voice dropped to a whisper.

They think you are property, he said.

Tonight, they learn you are not.

We moved on foot.

The driver stayed with the vehicle hidden under a tarp that matched the sand.

The other man guided me away from the ridge, keeping low, using the shape of the land like a shield.

I expected him to speak in commands, but he spoke in short directions that felt almost respectful.

Step where I step.

Keep your head down.

Don’t look back.

At first, all I could hear was my own breathing and the pulse in my ears.

Every sound felt louder in the desert at night.

A shifting stone sounded like a gunshot.

A gust of wind sounded like a whisper of accusation.

Then the world quieted, not empty quiet, a different kind.

Above us, the sky opened into a spread of stars, so dense it looked unreal.

In the palace, the lights had stolen the heavens.

Here, there was no stealing possible.

The stars were sharp, ancient, and indifferent to human cruelty.

The man lifted his head and studied them as if he recognized faces.

“Well wait,” he said.

Wait.

That word felt unbearable, but I obeyed.

We crouched behind a formation of rocks that looked like broken teeth rising from the sand.

I hugged my arms close, feeling the chill in the air.

I stared at the stars, and something strange happened.

The fear in my chest didn’t disappear, but it stopped dominating everything.

The sheer size of the sky made my father feel smaller.

It made the compound feel smaller.

It made my shame feel like a lie that could be unlearned.

The man took out something from his pocket.

A small folded paper.

He held it close, shielding it from the wind.

And for a moment, I thought it might be identification papers or some secret plan.

But when he unfolded it, I saw writing, not Arabic script like the one I had memorized all my life, different.

I didn’t understand the letters, but I recognized the shape of the page, the feel of it.

a page from a book.

He saw my expression and hesitated.

Then he said, “It’s from the Injil, the Gospel.

That word made my stomach flip.

In my childhood, Christians were spoken about with caution, foreigners, people who misunderstood God, people who were close enough to truth to be dangerous.

And yet Jesus had spoken my name.

” The man’s voice lowered.

“I was not always like this,” he said.

“I was born into the same kind of fear you were.

Then I learned that God does not traffic his daughters.

I stared at him, unsure if I should believe.

In the distance, a faint sound carried across the sand.

Engines.

The search was still happening.

The man folded the paper again and tucked it away.

They’ll circle, he said.

They’ll assume you cannot survive out here.

They’ll assume you will come back.

My lips trembled.

And if I can’t, he looked at me then.

And the seriousness in his eyes was not cold.

It was protective.

You can, he said, not because you are strong.

Because you are being guided.

Guided.

The word landed like something sacred.

He tilted his head to the sky.

Use the stars, he said.

They don’t lie.

They don’t change for kings.

I followed his gaze.

He pointed to a cluster, then another.

He wasn’t just admiring the sky.

He was reading it.

A map written in light.

And as we waited for the wind to shift, I realized this night was doing something to me.

It was undoing my belief that I was trapped.

It was teaching my eyes to look forward.

We moved again just after midnight.

The wind had changed direction, blowing from us toward the area the pursuers were searching.

I didn’t know if that was true, but I knew he spoke with confidence that did not feel arrogant.

It felt like someone following a plan larger than himself.

We walked for hours.

Sometimes we climbed rocky slopes.

Sometimes we crossed open sand where every step felt exposed.

I kept expecting a spotlight to slice through the darkness, to pin me down the way my father’s gaze used to do.

But the night stayed dark.

The stars stayed steady, and the wind kept moving like an invisible escort around us.

At some point, my legs began to fail.

Pain climbed into my knees, then my hips.

My throat felt raw from thirst.

I bit down on the inside of my cheek to keep from making noise that would slow us.

The man noticed anyway.

He stopped behind a small dune and pulled a bottle from his bag.

He handed it to me.

Water? Not much, but enough.

I drank carefully, trying not to choke on desperation.

Then I handed it back.

He nodded once like I had passed a test he never announced.

We continued.

Then the strangest moment came.

We reached a stretch of sand so flat and open it made me want to turn around.

There was no cover, no rocks, no ridges, only the faint silhouette of distant hills.

I hesitated.

The man looked at me.

We have to cross, he said.

My breath shook.

They’ll see us, I whispered.

They might, he answered.

But we’re not alone.

That sentence hit me so hard I stopped walking.

Not alone.

He didn’t say it like a metaphor.

He said it like a fact.

Before I could ask what he meant, the wind rose suddenly, not a storm, a wall of moving air that swept across the sand in a long, low surge.

It was as if the desert itself had taken a breath.

The wind kicked up dust, soft, but thick enough to blur the horizon.

The stars dimmed behind a veil of sand.

Visibility dropped.

The man’s eyes sharpened.

Now, he said, “We moved fast.

My feet sank into the sand.

The dust stung my eyes.

My lungs protested, but something in me pushed forward anyway.

Halfway across, I stumbled.

My knee buckled and I nearly fell.

The man grabbed my arm and kept me upright.

Then through the wind, I heard it.

A voice, not his, not the drivers, not the distant men searching.

A voice that felt like it came from inside the wind itself.

It was not loud.

It was close, and it spoke my name, Dunia.

My entire body froze.

The man looked at me, alarmed for a heartbeat.

Then he saw my expression and his face changed.

He understood.

I couldn’t explain it.

But I knew the voice.

It wasn’t imagination.

It wasn’t fear.

It was the same presence from the dreams, the same calm authority, the same tenderness.

I turned slightly, not to look for a person, but to listen, and the voice came again as if it was guiding my feet.

Keep moving, I did.

Tears streamed from my eyes, mixing with dust.

Because for the first time in my life, I felt something I had never felt from religion.

Not rules, not threats, not punishment, presence.

We reached the far side of the open sand just as the wind began to soften.

The man pulled me behind a low rock formation.

We crouched, breathing hard.

In the distance, I saw headlights sweep the area we had just crossed.

Late? Too late.

The man exhaled slowly, then looked at me.

You heard it, he said quietly.

I nodded, trembling.

He lowered his eyes for a moment.

Almost like prayer.

He is with us, he whispered.

And in that moment, I believed it not as a doctrine, as reality.

We reached it just before dawn.

At first, I thought it was another illusion.

The desert had a way of making you see shapes that weren’t real.

But as we came closer, I noticed the details that miages never get right.

A faint line of smoke rising from behind a ridge.

A low structure built from stone and corrugated metal.

A small generator humming softly, buried under tarp and sandbags to hide its sound.

No lights, no signs.

no road, a place that did not want to be found.

The man guided me down into a shallow dip where the house sat like a secret.

From a distance it looked abandoned, almost forgotten, but up close, I could see it was cared for in the careful way survival demands.

He knocked three times on the metal door, not hard, not timid, a rhythm.

The door opened a crack.

A woman appeared, older than me, but not old.

Her face was lined with sun and worry, and her eyes were sharp like a knife.

She scanned us.

Then her gaze landed on me and softened by a fraction.

“Inside,” she said.

The moment I stepped in, the air changed.

The smell of dust and sun gave way to something warm and human.

Tea, bread, a faint trace of soap.

The room was small, but it felt like a different world because it felt chosen.

The floor was swept clean.

Blankets were stacked neatly.

A basin of water sat ready, not as a luxury, but as an act of mercy.

The woman closed the door and slid a thick bar into place.

Only then did I allow my shoulders to drop.

My body started to shake violently as if it had been holding itself together on borrowed force.

The woman caught my arm and guided me to a mat near the wall.

“Sit,” she said.

I sat, my throat tightened, and then my tears came fast, silent, uncontrollable, I hid my face in my hands, embarrassed by how weak I looked.

But the woman didn’t scold me.

She didn’t call me dramatic.

She didn’t tell me to be grateful.

She brought a cup of water and placed it into my hands without making a show of it.

The man spoke quietly with her in the corner.

I couldn’t hear every word, but I caught pieces.

search vehicles, family power.

Hours, not days.

Hours.

My stomach dropped.

So the pursuit was closer than I wanted to believe.

When the man returned, his voice was low and urgent.

This is a temporary place, he said.

We rest only briefly, then we move again.

I stared at him, exhausted.

Where? I whispered.

He hesitated as if naming the destination carried risk to a route that can take you out.

Out.

The word felt too large to touch.

Out of the desert, out of their reach, out of the story my father wrote for me.

The woman returned with a piece of bread and tea.

I ate slowly, chewing like a person who did not trust food to stay.

My hands trembled so badly I spilled tea onto my lap.

She didn’t react with anger.

She simply handed me a cloth.

Her kindness hurt more than cruelty ever did, because kindness reminded me how little of it I had known.

When the first hint of sunrise began to pale the air outside, the woman pulled something from a drawer.

A simple scarf, faded, but clean.

“Cover your hair,” she said.

“Not for them, for travel.

You must look ordinary.

” “Ordinary?” I almost laughed.

Nothing about me was ordinary.

Not my name, not my father, not the price he would pay to drag me back.

But I took the scarf and wrapped it around my head.

I watched my hands move and realized I was obeying again.

But this obedience felt different.

It was not forced.

It was chosen.

I looked up at the woman.

Why are you helping me? I asked.

She held my gaze.

Because you are a daughter, she said.

Not property.

Then she added, barely above a whisper.

And because Jesus does not leave daughters in the sand, the first proof came through the radio.

The safe house had a small receiver, old and unreliable, but it could catch local security chatter if the wind behaved.

The man adjusted the dial carefully, listening for patterns.

I sat on the mat, trying to slow my breathing, trying to make my body believe it was safe.

It wasn’t.

The desert doesn’t forgive quickly.

The radio crackled, static, then a voice, sharp, official, angry.

I didn’t understand every word.

But I understood enough.

They were looking for a woman.

They described clothing, height, features, then the word that made my blood turned cold.

Princess.

My name wasn’t spoken, but the title was.

The man’s face hardened.

They’re expanding the search.

He said it’s not just the compound.

It’s family security now.

Family security meant something different than police.

It meant men paid to solve problems quietly.

Men who did not need paperwork, men who did not need witnesses.

The woman poured more tea with steady hands.

She moved as if fear was a luxury she could not afford.

They will offer money, she said.

And they will offer threats.

I swallowed.

How much? I whispered.

The man didn’t answer immediately.

He looked at me like he was deciding how much truth I could hold without breaking.

Then he said, “Enough to make strangers brave.

” A knock came at the door.

Three taps, the same rhythm as before.

The woman moved instantly, silent, controlled.

A different man stood outside.

Younger, dusty, nervous.

He slipped inside, then spoke quickly.

They’ve posted it, he said.

Posted what? The woman asked.

He pulled a folded paper from his pocket and handed it over.

It was not printed like official government notice.

It was typed, copied, distributed in the way underground messages moved through small towns and checkpoints.

A description, a reward, a warning.

It framed me as stolen property, as if I were an object that had been taken, not a person who had escaped.

The number on the paper made my stomach twist.

It wasn’t just money.

It was a signal.

My father was not asking for help.

He was buying obedience.

The man beside me read the paper, jaw tight.

Then he folded it once and burned it over a small metal dish until the words curled into ash.

They want to make this public enough to scare you, he said.

I stared at the ash as if my life had become dust.

They will kill whoever helps me.

The woman’s eyes did not flinch.

They might, she said.

That is why we don’t hesitate.

The younger messenger leaned closer.

They’re using checkpoints, he added.

And they’ve told local men to watch roads.

They think she won’t survive off road for long.

The man beside me nodded slowly.

That’s why we won’t use roads.

I looked up.

Confused.

He crouched near me, lowering his voice.

We move before full daylight.

We go deeper into places they won’t search.

Then we reach a handoff.

After that, you become someone else.

Someone else.

I felt my chest tighten with grief I didn’t expect.

Princess Duna was all I had ever been, even when it felt like a cage.

My name carried history, family, identity, but it also carried chains.

The man’s voice softened.

This is the moment they don’t expect, he said.

The moment you stop being a symbol and become a person.

I closed my eyes, holding back tears.

I don’t know how to be a person, I confessed.

The woman came closer and placed her hand gently on my shoulder.

You will learn, she said.

Freedom is a language.

At first it feels unnatural.

Then it becomes your voice.

Outside the sky brightened.

Time was running out.

The man stood.

We leave in 10 minutes, he said.

Pack nothing you can’t carry.

And listen, Dunia, he waited until I met his eyes.

They can put a price on you, he said.

But they cannot buy you back from Jesus.

10 minutes later, I stood at the safe house doorway with a small cloth bag in my hands.

It contained almost nothing.

A piece of bread, a bottle of water, a spare scarf, a tiny silver ring I had hidden inside my clothing since the palace, not because it was valuable, but because it reminded me that I had once been someone with a name.

The woman adjusted my scarf, pulling it forward to shadow my forehead.

Do not lift your head at checkpoints, she said.

Do not answer questions.

You are sick.

You are quiet.

I nodded.

Even though my heart was pounding so hard I could feel it in my throat.

The man beside me handed me something folded.

A small piece of paper.

On it were words written in Arabic carefully, clearly.

Not Quran, another kind of scripture.

I didn’t recognize every line, but I recognized the feeling.

The same feeling from the dreams, the same warmth and certainty.

What is it?” I asked.

“A promise,” he said.

I tucked it into my bag like it was fire.

We left the safe house just as the sun began to rise.

The desert transformed.

Every grain of sand catching light, every rock throwing a shadow.

Daytime was dangerous.

Daytime exposed.

We walked quickly, keeping low behind ridges and rock formations.

The younger messenger led us for a while, then peeled off without goodbye, disappearing into the landscape as if he had never existed.

Hours passed like a test.

My feet achd, my mouth dried.

My body wanted to collapse, but the thought of being caught kept my spine upright.

Near late morning, we reached a shallow valley where two vehicles waited under camouflage netting.

A different set of people stood there, faces partially covered, eyes alert.

This was the handoff.

My stomach tightened.

New people meant new risks.

The man who had guided me through the night spoke with them briefly, then turned back to me.

This is where you decide, he said.

I stared at him.

Confused.

I already decided, I whispered.

He shook his head gently.

You decided to run, he said.

Now you decide who you are.

I didn’t understand.

He reached into his pocket and pulled out a small ID card, blank except for a photo frame and a nameline.

It looked unfinished.

“They will search for Princess Dunia,” he said.

“They will search for your father’s daughter.

They will search for a symbol,” he held the blank card out.

“But they cannot search for a person they do not know.

” My hands trembled.

He continued, voice steady.

“If you go forward, you will not be Dunia anymore.

Not publicly, not on paper, not in the world that hunts you.

The words hit me like grief.

My identity had been stolen from me my whole life.

But this felt like I was laying it down myself.

I looked toward the open desert behind us.

Somewhere beyond it was Riyad, the palace, the chandeliers, the marble, my mother’s silence, my father’s cold eyes, a life that never belonged to me.

Then I looked forward.

The vehicles, the masked faces, the unknown future.

A life that might finally be mine.

The man’s voice softened.

In the dreams, he said.

What did he call you? I swallowed.

He called me Dunia.

He called me by name.

My throat tightened.

He called me his.

The man nodded once.

That is the only identity they cannot take.

I closed my eyes.

Inside my mind, I heard the voice again, not in wind this time, but in the quiet center of my chest.

You are not abandoned.

I opened my eyes and looked at the blank card.

Then I did something I had never done before.

I chose.

I will go, I said.

The man placed the card into my hands.

What name? He asked.

My lips parted, trembling.

And the first name that rose in me was not royal.

It was not inherited.

It was not forest.

It was given in light.

Sarah, I whispered.

The man nodded.

Then Sarah, he said, “Welcome to your life, Pia.

” I looked down at the paper in my bag.

The promise.

Princess Duna was ending.

Not with death, with freedom.

The first time I heard my new name spoken out loud, it didn’t feel like mine.

We drove for hours in silence, changing vehicles twice, taking routes that didn’t feel like roads at all.

The men guiding me spoke in short bursts, always scanning the horizon, always listening for engines that weren’t ours.

Every time we stopped, I expected the world to end in headlights and gunmetal voices.

But each time, the desert stayed quiet.

By late afternoon, the air grew heavier.

The landscape changed.

More scattered brush, harder ground, the kind of terrain that felt like it was shared by more than one authority, where borders existed even if they weren’t marked in paint.

We reached a checkpoint that didn’t look official, but carried the same pressure, a makeshift barrier, a small shack.

Two armed men who watched every vehicle the way predators watch water.

My heart slammed against my ribs.

One of the men leaned in through the window of the vehicle I sat in.

His eyes flicked over me in a single practiced scan.

“What is she?” he asked.

The driver didn’t hesitate.

“My sister,” he said.

“She is ill.

We are taking her to family.

” The man’s gaze narrowed.

“What is her name?” My throat went dry.

For a moment, my mind screamed, “Dunia, like a reflex, like an instinct burned into my blood.

Then I remembered what that name would trigger.

Princess reward property.

The driver turned his head slightly, not looking at me directly.

A quiet warning.

Now I forced my lips to move.

Sarah, I said, the word came out weak, almost broken.

The guard stared at me, suspicious.

Speak, he demanded.

Where are you from? My hands clenched in my lap.

I didn’t know the right answer.

I didn’t know what my new story was supposed to be.

The driver spoke smoothly.

She doesn’t talk, he said.

She’s been sick for days.

Fever, fear.

She just needs treatment.

The guard watched me longer than I could bear.

I kept my eyes down the way I’d been trained.

But this time, it wasn’t submission.

It was survival.

Finally, the guard stepped back and waved us through.

When the vehicle moved again, I didn’t breathe until the checkpoint disappeared behind us.

My body trembled with delayed terror.

The driver’s voice was calm.

“You did well,” he said.

I stared out the window at the passing dust.

“Did well?” It was a phrase I had heard from tutors when I recited scripture correctly, from women when I learned to pour tea without spilling, from my father when I was useful.

But this time, it meant something else.

It meant I was still free.

That night, we stopped in a shallow ravine where the vehicles could be hidden from any distant scanning lights.

The air was cold.

The sky was clear again.

A woman approached from another vehicle and handed me a blanket.

Her face was covered, but her eyes were kind.

She didn’t ask for my story.

She didn’t ask for proof.

She simply said, “You are safe for tonight.

” “Safe?” The word felt dangerous to believe.

I wrapped the blanket around my shoulders and looked up at the stars.

This time I didn’t ask if anyone was there.

I whispered, “Thank you.

” And inside me, quiet as breath, I felt a presence that didn’t demand anything, only stayed.

We arrived before sunrise.

The last stretch of travel happened in silence.

But the tension in the vehicle eased in small ways I could feel.

The driver’s shoulders loosened.

The men stopped checking the mirror every minute.

The fear wasn’t gone, but it had shifted from immediate danger to something longer and deeper when we finally stopped.

I expected another hidden shack in the desert.

Instead, it was a plain house on the edge of a small town, no palace walls, no guards in ceremonial uniforms, no signs of wealth, just a building that looked ordinary enough to be invisible.

That was the point.

A woman opened the door almost immediately, as if she had been watching for us.

She wore simple clothing, her hair partially covered, and her eyes held the steady confidence of someone who had carried other people’s fear before.

She looked at me gently.

“Come in,” she said.

“You don’t have to whisper here.

” The sentence hit me like a wave.

I stepped inside, and the first thing I noticed was sound.

Not shouting, not commands, normal sound, a kettle boiling, a soft radio, footsteps that weren’t trying to intimidate anyone.

These dono gays and fou and then I heard something I had almost forgotten existed.

Women laughing.

It was faint from another room, but real, unrestricted.

Not the nervous giggle of servants trying to please.

Not the careful laughter women use behind closed doors when they’re afraid of being overheard.

This laughter sounded like safety.

The woman led me into a small room with a couch and a table.

Another woman was already there pouring tea.

She looked up and smiled at me like I was expected.

A third woman entered carrying a bowl of food.

She sat it down in front of me, then sat across from me without lowering her eyes.

The first woman spoke.

We won’t use your old name here, she said quietly.

Not because we disrespect it.

Because we respect your life.

I nodded.

The woman across from me leaned forward.

Sarah, she said carefully, testing the word like she was making sure it didn’t hurt me.

Hearing it from another woman’s mouth felt different than hearing it at the checkpoint.

It sounded warmer, less like a disguise, and more like an opening.

“Yes,” I whispered.

The woman smiled again.

Welcome, sisters.

My chest tightened.

In my old life, women were rarely sisters.

They were watchers, enforcers, competitors for approval in a system that starved us all.

Here, the women moved like they trusted one another.

They spoke freely.

They disagreed without fear.

One of them teased another about burning the bread, and the other laughed and threw a towel at her.

It was so normal.

It felt unreal.

I ate slowly, my hands still trembling.

The food was simple but tasted like life.

With every bite, my body seemed to realize it wasn’t about to be punished for existing.

After a while, the first woman sat beside me.

You don’t have to tell your whole story, she said.

But you should know this.

Your family will not stop.

I swallowed hard.

I know.

I whispered.

She nodded once.

We have ways, she said.

Roots, papers, contacts, but the hardest part isn’t travel.

She waited until I looked at her.

The hardest part is believing you deserve freedom, she said.

My eyes burned.

I didn’t answer because I didn’t know how.

The woman across from me spoke softly.

We’ve helped others, she said.

Not because we are heroes.

Because we know what it means to be trapped.

I looked at her and for the first time I allowed myself to ask the question that had been choking me for days.

Why? I whispered.

Why risk this? The woman’s expression didn’t change.

Because God hears women, she said.

And Jesus doesn’t ask permission from kings.

That night, they gave me a room with a door that locked from the inside.

It sounds small, but I had never truly known that kind of privacy.

In the palace, I had rooms, yes, but none of them belonged to me.

Everything could be entered.

Everything could be watched.

Everything could be taken.

Here, I closed the door and felt something I didn’t know how to handle.

Safety.

The room was simple.

A bed, a small lamp, a folded blanket at the foot, a bowl of water on a stool, and on the table beside the bed, a book.

not hidden, not wrapped, not treated like contraband, a Bible.

My heart pounded like I had been caught doing something forbidden.

Even though no one was accusing me, that reflex was still inside me.

Fear that didn’t need a guard to exist.

I sat on the edge of the bed and stared at the book for a long time.

Then I reached out and touched it.

The cover was worn like it had been held by many hands, like it had traveled.

I opened it carefully, not knowing where to begin.

The words were in Arabic, but different from the Quran in the way they felt.

The sentences didn’t sound like law.

They sounded like a voice speaking to a person.

I didn’t know what I was allowed to believe.

I didn’t know what counted as betrayal.

I didn’t know what would happen to my soul if I stepped fully into this.

But I knew one thing.

When I said his name, something answered.

I placed the Bible down and stared at the floor.

In my old life, prayer was performance, a ritual measured by correctness, by posture, by precision, by fear.

I didn’t want that anymore.

I didn’t want a God who could be pleased only if I disappeared.

So, I prayed differently.

Not standing, not reciting, just sitting.

My hands open in my lap like a child who didn’t know the right words.

My throat tightened.

Then I whispered, barely audible.

Jesus.

I don’t know how to do this.

Silence filled the room, but it wasn’t empty silence.

It felt like someone sitting beside me.

I swallowed and continued, the words stumbling out like they were learning to walk.

I was taught that I am wrong for wanting freedom.

I whispered.

I was taught that pain is what I deserve.

I was taught that obedience is the only form of love.

Tears came fast, warm against my cheeks.

I don’t know who I am, I admitted.

I don’t know how to live without fear.

I pressed my palms together, then opened them again.

Please, if you are real, stay with me.

And then, in the quietest way, something shifted.

Not outside.

Inside, the tight fist around my chest loosened.

The constant buzzing dread.

The feeling that punishment was always two breaths away softened.

It didn’t vanish like magic.

It simply stopped ruling me.

I breathed in slowly.

And for the first time in my life, prayer felt like speaking to someone who loved me without conditions.

I didn’t see a vision.

I didn’t hear an audible voice, but I felt something steady, gentle, unmovable.

A presence that didn’t demand I earn it.

A love that didn’t negotiate with my father’s power.

I wiped my face and looked toward the small window.

The night outside was dark, but not threatening, just night.

I whispered one last sentence before I climbed into bed.

I’m here.

And deep in my chest, I felt the answer without words.

So am I.

The next morning, the house changed pace.

It wasn’t frantic.

It wasn’t loud.

It became precise.

The women moved like people who had done this before.

One of them cleared the table and laid out a small stack of documents.

Another brought a pen, a stamp kit, and a worn notebook filled with handwritten names and dates.

The leader, the woman with the steady eyes, locked the front door and pulled the curtains closed.

“We work quickly,” she said.

“Not because we panic, because time is expensive.

” I sat on the couch with my hands folded in my lap trying to understand how a life could be rebuilt out of paper.

They asked me questions in a calm voice like nurses taking symptoms.

What year were you born? What city? What languages? What distinguishing marks? Each question felt like a knife and a bandage at the same time.

To answer honestly meant revealing the princess they were hunting.

To answer differently meant stepping deeper into my new identity.

When they asked my name, my throat tightened.

“Sarah,” I said.

The woman nodded as if she was confirming a door had locked behind me.

“Good,” she replied.

They gave me a plain outfit that made me look like anyone, loose clothing, no royal fabric, no identifying jewelry, nothing that would catch a second glance.

They even changed the way my scarf sat, lowering it slightly, altering the silhouette of my face.

It’s not about hiding beauty, one woman explained softly.

It’s about avoiding recognition.

Recognition is the weapon.

Then they moved to the papers.

I watched them create a version of me that could pass through checkpoints.

A name, a birth date, a place of residence that would not raise suspicion, a reason for travel that sounded boring enough to be true.

The leader slid a card across the table.

My photo was not printed yet.

The slot was blank, waiting for the last step.

You will practice, she said.

Practice what? I asked.

Your life? She answered.

She looked directly at me.

If a guard asks who you are, you cannot hesitate.

Hesitation tells them you are lying.

Even if you are telling truth, you will answer like you have answered a thousand times.

I nodded, but I could feel my heartbeat climbing again.

She ran a drill with me, quietly, kindly, without humiliation.

What is your name? Sarah, where are you going? To family.

Why are you traveling? I am sick.

I need treatment.

Over and over until the words no longer felt foreign in my mouth.

Then came the hardest part.

She opened a small notebook and wrote something at the top of a page.

She turned it toward me.

A phone number.

This is the next contact, she said.

If something happens, you call.

If you cannot call, you run to a public place.

Women, cameras, noise.

I swallowed hard.

What if they find you? I asked, voice small.

The room went still for a beat.

The woman held my gaze.

They may, she said.

But understand this.

You are no longer a prisoner waiting for permission.

You are a person moving with purpose, and we will not hand you back.

” I stared down at the papers again.

They looked ordinary, cheap even, and yet they carried something heavier than gold.

They carried movement.

They carried a future.

Later, when the women stepped away to prepare food and pack supplies, I sat alone with the documents on my lap.

I traced the letters of my new name with my finger, like a child learning to write.

Sarah, a person, not a possession.

I whispered the name of Jesus under my breath, not as a test, as gratitude.

And inside that quiet presence remained steady, like a hand on my back guiding me forward.

Vorbeld, too.

It happened in the afternoon.

The house had been calm for hours.

The women worked in quiet rhythm.

One prepared food for travel.

Another checked and rechecked the bag, making sure nothing identifiable remained.

The leader made short calls from a phone that wasn’t hers, speaking encoded phrases that sounded like ordinary conversation.

Then the landline rang, a sound that didn’t belong.

Everyone froze.

The leader turned her head slowly toward the hallway where the phone sat on a small table as if the sound had claws.

No one moved.

No one breathed loudly.

Even the kettle on the stove seemed to hush.

The phone rang again.

The leader stepped forward, picked it up, and listened without speaking.

Her face didn’t change, but her eyes sharpened.

She held the receiver away and covered it with her palm.

They found this number, she whispered.

My blood turned cold.

One of the women cursed quietly under her breath, not in panic, but in anger.

Someone had made a mistake, or someone had been followed.

The leader lifted the receiver again.

“Yes,” she said, voice neutral.

A man’s voice crackled through the line, loud enough that I could hear a few words, even from the couch.

He was polite in the way powerful men are polite when they are offering violence as a courtesy.

He asked about a girl.

He asked if they had seen anyone unfamiliar.

He said there would be compensation for cooperation.

Compensation, a reward, my father’s language.

The leader responded calmly as if she was confused.

“No,” she said.

“You have the wrong house.

” The voice on the line changed.

The politeness thinned.

He mentioned a family name.

Not mine directly, but close enough that my stomach dropped.

He was fishing.

The leader didn’t flinch.

“I don’t know what you are talking about,” she replied.

“Do not call again.

” She hung up.

For a moment, the room stayed silent in a way that felt dangerous, like the house itself was holding its breath.

Then she turned to me.

“We leave earlier,” she said.

One of the women looked toward the window.

“What if they come?” The leader’s voice stayed level.

“Then we are not here when they arrive.

” The house shifted into motion, “Not chaotic.

” They moved like a practice team.

Curtains opened briefly, then closed.

Bags lifted, checked, and tightened.

The back door unlatched, and inspected.

One woman pressed her ear to the wall, listening for vehicles.

I stood, legs weak, my mind flashed images.

I didn’t want men entering the house.

Women punished for helping me.

My father’s satisfaction when he reasserted control.

My hands shook.

I’m sorry, I whispered.

The words slipped out before I could stop them.

The leader looked at me sharply.

Don’t, she said.

This is not your shame.

This is theirs.

Then she softened just slightly.

This is what predators do, she continued.

They try to make you believe your escape is the danger.

The danger was always the cage.

I swallowed.

But they’ll hurt you, I said.

One woman tightened the strap on her bag and spoke without looking up.

Let them try, she said.

We’ve been hurt before.

We’re still here.

The leader handed me my papers.

“Sarah,” she said firmly.

“Listen to me.

When the time comes, you do not freeze.

You do not apologize.

You move.

” I nodded, tears burning behind my eyes.

I felt the old reflex rising, the need to submit, to ask permission, to be small.

Instead, I did something new.

I whispered, “Jesus.

” not to be dramatic, to steady myself, and the fear didn’t disappear, but it stopped owning me.

Outside, a distant engine sound drifted through the neighborhood.

The leader’s expression hardened.

“Now,” she said, and we moved.

We didn’t drive straight to safety.

We drove like people who expected to be followed.

The route twisted through side streets and small roads, changing direction without explanation, stopping briefly behind buildings, then moving again.

The woman driving kept her eyes forward, her posture calm, but her hands held the wheel like it was a lifeline.

I sat in the back, papers pressed against my stomach, as if I could keep them safe by sheer will.

Every time a vehicle came too close behind us, my heart jumped.

Every time we passed a man standing near a corner store, I wondered if he was watching for me.

Every time we slowed near an intersection, I felt exposed.

But the women didn’t treat my fear like weakness.

They treated it like information.

The leader spoke quietly.

“They want you to rush,” she said.

“Rushing creates mistakes.

We do not rush.

” Eventually, we reached a larger city.

The air changed.

More traffic, more noise, more normal life.

which felt unreal after the desert.

People walked sidewalks carrying groceries.

Children ran ahead of their parents.

A man argued on a phone, annoyed about something small and harmless.

The ordinary world felt like another universe.

We parked in a crowded area near a bus terminal.

The leader turned to me.

From this moment, she said, “You are a sick relative traveling for treatment.

You do not speak unless necessary.

If someone speaks to you, you keep it simple.

I nodded.

My mouth was dry.

They led me through the crowd, not clinging to me, not dragging me, but staying close enough that I could feel their protection without it looking suspicious.

At the terminal, they bought a ticket in someone else’s name.

Then, we sat in a waiting area where cameras watched everything and no one cared because in a public place, suffering becomes background noise.

The bus arrived.

We boarded.

I expected the moment to feel triumphant.

It didn’t.

It felt like stepping off a cliff.

As the bus pulled away, I watched the city slide past the window.

Each street light, each shop, each passer by felt like something I had never fully been allowed to belong to.

The leader sat beside me for part of the ride, then leaned close and spoke with the gentleness of someone who understood how fragile this moment was.

You will feel guilt, she said.

You will feel fear.

You will feel like you are doing something wrong.

That is because you were trained to associate freedom with sin.

I stared ahead, blinking back tears.

What if I’m wrong? I whispered.

The leader didn’t argue theology.

She didn’t pressure me.

She asked a simpler question.

In the desert, she said, “When you whispered his name, did you feel abandoned or found?” found.

The word rose in me instantly, I swallowed.

Found, I admitted, she nodded.

Then keep walking, she said.

Hours later, we reached another handoff point, a small airport, not a grand international terminal, something quieter, less attention.

The leader handed my papers to a man who looked like an ordinary traveler.

He checked them quickly, then nodded.

He didn’t smile.

He didn’t reassure me with empty words.

He simply said, “This way.

” As we approached the security line.

My body went rigid.

The last time men in uniform had looked at me, my life had been decided without my consent.

The leader squeezed my hand once.

One breath, she whispered.

I breathed.

I stepped forward.

The guard glanced at my documents, then at my face.

My heart hammered.

He waved me through.

Just like that, I walked toward the gate with legs that felt both weak and weightless.

When the plane engine started, a low vibration moved through the cabin like thunder held back.

I stared out the window at the runway lights and felt a strange grief swell in my chest.

Not grief for the palace, grief for the girl who had never been allowed to choose.

As the plane lifted into the sky, the ground fell away beneath us.

The city lights became a scattered constellation.

The desert became a shadow.

I closed my eyes.

And in the quiet of my mind, I whispered a promise I didn’t fully understand yet.

Jesus, I’m still here.

And the presence that had followed me through sand and fear felt as steady as breath.

Fear does not disappear all at once.

That was the first thing I learned when the plane touched down and the door opened to a world that did not know my father’s name.

Freedom didn’t arrive like a trumpet blast or a sudden miracle.

It arrived quietly in fragments, like light seeping into a room that had been dark for too long.

I stepped onto foreign ground with borrowed papers, borrowed clothing, and a borrowed name.

But the fear I carried was entirely my own.

At first, it followed me everywhere.

When a man raised his voice in public, my body tensed.

When someone knocked unexpectedly, my heart raced.

When I heard Arabic spoken nearby, my breath caught in my throat.

Fear had been my companion for so long that my nervous system did not know how to live without it.

It had kept me alive.

It had taught me when to be silent, when to disappear, when to endure.

But it was no longer my master.

I stayed in places designed to be temporary, apartments that weren’t mine, rooms with no decoration, lives that were waiting to be rebuilt.

The women who helped me did not push me to forget my past.

They let it surface slowly when it was ready.

Like a wound learning how to breathe.

One evening, weeks after my escape, I sat alone by a window, watching traffic pass below.

Cars moved freely.

People crossed streets without permission.

Women laughed into phones without lowering their voices.

The world felt unreal in its normaly.

That was when the fear rose again.

Sharp and sudden.

What if they find me? What if this ends? What if I am dragged back? My hands began to shake.

And then, without planning it, without rehearsing, I did something new.

I spoke not to the sky, not to the rules of my childhood, not to the fear itself.

I spoke to Jesus.

Are you still here? I whispered.

The answer didn’t come as words.

It came as memory.

The desert wind.

The footprint in the sand.

The voice that told me to keep moving.

The way doors had opened at the exact moment I was ready to collapse.

I realized something then.

Jesus had never promised me safety in the way I once understood safety.

He had promised presence, and presence had carried me farther than protection ever could.

I closed my eyes and breathed slowly.

The fear didn’t vanish, but it loosened.

For the first time, I understood that fear could exist without controlling me.

That courage was not the absence of fear, but the decision to move anyway.

That night, I slept without scanning the shadows.

That night, I stopped rehearsing what I would say if I were caught.

That night, I stopped being afraid of my own breath because fear feeds on ownership and I no longer belong to it.

My name is still dun.

Not because the world knows it.

Not because it appears on documents or records or titles, but because Jesus spoke it.

He spoke it in the desert when I had nothing.

He spoke it when my father erased me.

He spoke it when the world treated me like property.

And he did not give me freedom by destroying my past.

He gave me freedom by walking me out of it.

I did not escape because I was brave.

I escaped because I was found.

I did not survive because I was strong.

I survived because I was not alone.

If you are listening to this and you feel trapped by family, culture, fear or expectation.

I need you to understand something clearly.

You are not invisible.

You are not property.

You are not beyond rescue.

Jesus does not need permission from your oppressors.

He does not negotiate with fear.

He does not wait for you to become perfect.

He comes into deserts.

He speaks names.

He walks people out.

I was sold.

I was abandoned.

I was hunted.

And I was saved.

Not by power.

Not by politics.

Not by escape routes alone, but by a presence that never left me.

My name is Duna.

And this is how Jesus came to find