Right now, Saudi Arabia is the birthplace of Islam, home to Mecca and Medina, the two holiest sites in the Muslim world.

It is a place where owning a Bible is illegal, where there are zero church buildings, where converting from Islam carries the death penalty, and where the religious police enforce Sharia law with absolute authority.

On paper, in a place like this, Christianity should be impossible.

It should not exist at all.

Yet I am a living proof that it does.

My name is Fisal bin Abdullah al- Rashid.

They called me crown prince, the adopted son of the Saudi king, raised in palaces with wealth beyond measure.

But I was dying inside, empty despite Islam’s endless rituals.

Then on February 14th, 2024, at 2:30 p.m., Jesus Christ walked into my private garden in Riyad in broad daylight, showed me the scars in his hands and feet, and said, “I am the one you’ve been searching for.

I gave him my life, lived as a secret Christian in the royal family for 18 months, was discovered.

When they found my hidden Bible and was given 72 hours to deny Christ or lose everything, I chose Christ.

Now I’m in exile and I’m telling the world what the Saudi government desperately once hidden.

Jesus is appearing across the kingdom right now to thousands building his church in the one nation everyone said was impossible to reach.

This is my testimony from the palaces of Riyad to exile for the King of Kings.

I was born on a road between Mecca and Tyif in the summer of 1993, though I did not know that for most of my life.

My birth parents died in a car accident when I was only 3 months old.

Their vehicle went off a mountain road during a storm and they were killed instantly.

I survived, found in the wreckage by emergency workers crying but unharmed.

No one knew who my parents were.

They had no identification on them.

The car was destroyed beyond recognition.

The authorities tried to find relatives, but no one came forward.

I was an orphan with no name, no family, no with no history.

I was placed in a government facility in Taif, a place for abandoned children.

And I might have spent my entire childhood there if not for what happened next.

The king of Saudi Arabia at that time, King Abdullah and his wife, Queen Hesa, were visiting Tif for the summer.

They had been married for 8 years and had no children.

The queen had suffered multiple miscarriages, and doctors had told her she might never carry a child to term.

This caused her great sadness, and the king loved her deeply and shared her grief.

During their visit to Taif, the queen asked to tour the orphanage as part of her charitable work.

She walked through the facility, meeting children, offering kind words and donations, and then she saw me.

I was not even a year old, lying in a crib, staring up at her with wide eyes.

She later told me that when she looked at me, she felt something she had never felt before.

She felt like I was meant to be hers.

She picked me up, held me, and I did not cry.

I just looked at her and reached for her face.

She started to cry.

She turned to the king and said, “This is our son.

This is the child God has given us.

” The king was a traditional man, and adoption was not common in royal families, especially not for a child with no known lineage.

But he loved his wife and he saw the joy in her eyes when she held me.

So he made a decision that shocked the kingdom.

He adopted me legally, officially, publicly.

He gave me a name, Faizal bin Abdullah al- Rashid, and he declared me his son.

The announcement was made on national television.

I was brought to the palace in Riyad and I became a prince.

For the first seven years of my life, I was the only child of the king and queen.

I was treated as the heir.

I was called crown prince by the advisors, by the servants, by the tribal leaders who came to pay respects.

I was dressed in the finest clothes, given the best education, surrounded by tutors and caregivers.

I had everything a child could want.

And I had parents who loved me deeply, especially my mother, Queen Hessa, who poured all her unfulfilled longing for a child into raising me.

But when I was 7 years old, everything changed.

Queen Hessa became pregnant.

After years of believing it was impossible, she conceived.

The palace erupted in celebration.

9 months later, she gave birth to a son, a biological son of the king.

They named him Sultan.

I remember the day he was born.

I was brought to the hospital to meet my new brother.

I looked at this tiny baby and I felt something strange, something I was too young to name.

I felt like I had just been replaced.

And over the years, that feeling only grew stronger.

Two years later, another son was born, then another, then daughters.

The king and queen eventually had six biological children.

And with each birth, my position in the family shifted.

I was no longer the only son.

I was no longer the heir.

I was the adopted one, the one with no royal blood, the one who did not truly belong.

The advisers stopped calling me crown prince.

They began to focus their attention on Sultan, the firstborn biological son.

the true heir to the throne.

My tutors were reassigned to teach my younger brothers.

I was still a prince, still part of the royal family, still living in luxury, but I was no longer at the center.

I was moved to the edges.

And though my mother, Queen Hessa, still loved me and treated me as her son, I could see the reality.

I was not the same as her other children.

I did not carry the king’s blood.

I would never rule.

I would never inherit the throne.

Some of the older tribal leaders and advisors out of respect for the early years still referred to me as crown prince when we met in private.

It was a courtesy, a recognition of what might have been if the king had never had biological children.

But it was also a reminder of what I had lost.

A title that meant nothing.

an identity that was more shadow than substance.

And I grew up in the palaces of Riyad in a world most people will never see.

The Aliyama Palace where the king conducted official business was a sprawling complex of marble halls, golden fixtures and courtyards filled with fountains and gardens.

I had my own wing of the palace, my own staff, my own schedule.

I was educated by the best teachers trained in Islamic studies, Arabic literature, history, politics, and business.

I memorized the Quran by the time I was 12.

I could recite long passages perfectly, impressing religious scholars who visited the palace.

I attended prayers five times a day.

I fasted during Ramadan.

I performed Umrah, the minor pilgrimage to Mecca, multiple times.

I was the model of a pious Muslim prince.

I spoke at charity events.

I represented the royal family at cultural gatherings.

I smiled for photographs.

I shook hands with diplomats.

I played the role I was given.

But inside I was empty.

I had everything a person could want in terms of material wealth.

I had access to private jets, luxury cars, palaces in multiple cities, bank accounts I could never spend in a lifetime.

I traveled the world, staying in five-star hotels, meeting presidents and princes and business tycoons.

I could buy anything, go anywhere, do almost anything.

But none of it filled the emptiness.

I felt like I was living someone else’s life, playing a part in a script I did not write.

I was a prince with no purpose, a son with no true family, a man with no identity.

I did not belong in the royal family because I was not truly one of them.

But I also did not belong anywhere else because I had been raised so far removed from normal life that I had no idea who I was outside the palace walls.

When I was in my 20ies, the emptiness became unbearable.

I started experiencing what I later learned was depression.

I would wake up in my massive bedroom, look around at the luxury, and feel nothing but a crushing weight on my chest.

I would go through the motions of my day, attending meetings, fulfilling obligations, but I felt like I was watching myself from a distance.

I smiled when expected, spoke when required, but inside I was screaming.

I went to see therapist, western trained psychologist who worked privately with members of the royal family.

This was done in secret because mental health struggles carried stigma, especially for someone in my position.

The therapists tried to help.

They asked about my childhood, my relationships, my sense of purpose.

They prescribed medications.

They suggested lifestyle changes.

But nothing worked because the problem was not chemical.

It was spiritual.

I was searching for something that no amount of money, status, or therapy could provide.

I was searching for meaning, for belonging, for love that was not conditional on my performance or position.

I threw myself into religious devotion, thinking that perhaps if I became more faithful, more disciplined, more committed to Islam, I would find peace.

I increased my prayers.

I spent hours reading the Quran.

I gave large sums to charity, funding mosques and Islamic schools.

I attended lectures by famous imams and scholars.

I fasted not just during Ramadan but throughout the year.

I performed Umrah again and again standing before the Cabba in Mecca praying desperately for Allah to give me peace to show me my purpose to fill the void inside me.

But the void remained.

I felt nothing when I prayed.

The words were empty.

The rituals were mechanical.

I bowed and prostrated and recited, but my heart was far away.

I began to wonder if something was wrong with me.

Why could everyone else seem to find satisfaction in Islam, but I could not? Why did I feel like I was performing for a distant unknowable God who did not see me, did not care about me, did not love me.

Then 3 years ago, something happened that planted a seed I could not uproot.

I was in Dubai for a business meeting.

The royal family had investments in various companies and part of my ceremonial role was to represent the family.

At these meetings, I was sitting in a conference room with um executives and investors discussing a new development project.

One of the investors was a Lebanese man named Samir.

He was in his 50s, well-dressed, articulate, successful.

But there was something different about him.

He had a calmness, a peace in his eyes that I had never seen in anyone before.

During a break in the meeting, I found myself standing next to him near the coffee table.

We made small talk.

He asked what I did and I gave him a vague answer, not revealing that I was Saudi royalty.

He talked about his business, his family, his life.

And then almost casually, he said something that stopped me in my tracks.

He said, “I used to be a very different person.

I was angry, driven, never satisfied.

I had success but no peace.

Then about 10 years ago, I met someone who changed everything.

I met Jesus and my whole life turned around.

I stared at him, not knowing what to say.

He smiled gently and continued.

I know that might sound strange.

I was raised Muslim like you probably were.

But I started reading about Jesus and I realized he was not just a prophet.

He was God in flesh.

He died for my sins and rose again.

And when I gave my life to him, I found the peace I had been searching for my entire life.

I did not respond.

I just nodded politely and walked away.

But his words echoed in my mind for days, for weeks, for months.

I could not forget the look in his eyes when he talked about Jesus.

I could not forget the peace he radiated.

And I could not stop wondering, what if he was right? What if there was something more than Islam? What if Jesus was not just a prophet, but something greater? That question terrified me because if I allowed myself to seriously consider it, everything in my life would be called into question.

My faith, my family, my country, my identity.

So, I buried it.

I tried to forget.

I I increased my Islamic devotion again, hoping to drown out the doubt.

But the seed had been planted and deep down in the quietest part of my heart, I knew I would never be able to ignore it forever.

I returned to Riyad and went back to my routine, but everything felt different.

I looked at the mosques differently.

I listened to the imams differently.

I read the Quran differently.

And for the first time in my life, I allowed myself to ask a question.

I had never dared to ask before.

What if Islam is not the truth? What if there is something else, something more? Someone who actually sees me, knows me, loves me.

I did not know where that question would lead me.

But I knew I could not stop asking it.

I was standing at the edge of a cliff and I had a choice.

step back into the safety of everything I had always known or step forward into the unknown and see where it would take me.

The question I had buried after meeting Samir in Dubai refused to stay buried.

It kept surfacing at the strangest times.

During family dinners when we discussed politics and religion, I would find myself mentally comparing what my brother said about Islam with what I remembered Samir saying about Jesus.

During prayers at the mosque, when the imam would speak about the greatness of Allah and the final prophet Muhammad, I would wonder why I felt nothing, why the words seemed to bounce off the surface of my heart without penetrating.

During my private prayers in my room, when I bowed toward Mecca and recited the same phrases I had recited thousands of view of times before, I would pause and think, is anyone actually listening? Does God actually care or am I just talking to empty air? These thoughts made me feel guilty.

I was a prince.

I was supposed to be an example of Islamic faith.

I was supposed to be certain, committed, unwavering, but I was none of those things.

I was confused, doubtful, and desperately searching for something real.

I decided I needed to understand what Samir had been talking about, but I could not ask anyone in Saudi Arabia.

Questioning Islam, especially for someone in my position, was unthinkable.

If anyone in the royal family or the religious establishment knew I was having doubts, it would be a scandal.

I could be forced to undergo religious re-education.

I could lose what little respect and position I still had.

So, I decided to investigate quietly, privately, using resources no one would trace back to me.

I started by hiring a private investigator in Europe, someone with no connection to Saudi Arabia.

And I gave him a simple task.

Find out everything you can about Samir, the Lebanese businessman I met in Dubai.

I wanted to know if his story was real.

Was he actually a former Muslim? Had he really converted to Christianity? And if so, what had happened to him? had his life actually improved or was he just lying to himself? The investigator came back with a detailed report two weeks later.

Everything Samir had told me was true.

He had been raised in a Muslim family in Beirut, Lebanon.

He had been a successful businessman, but by all accounts, he had also been miserable, angry, and controlling.

His first marriage had ended in divorce.

His children barely spoke to him.

He had health problems from stress.

Then about 10 years ago, he had attended a business conference in London where he met a Christian colleague who invited him to a church service.

Samir went out of curiosity, not expecting anything.

But during that service, something happened.

He heard the gospel message, the teaching that Jesus was not just a prophet, but God in human form who came to earth, died on a cross for the sins of humanity, and rose from the dead to offer eternal life to anyone who believed in him.

Samir said later that when he heard those words, it was like a light turned on in a dark room.

He realized he had been trying to earn God’s favor his entire life through Islamic works, but he had never felt accepted.

Christianity offered something completely different.

It offered grace, forgiveness, and acceptance as a gift, not something to be earned.

The report said that Samir converted to Christianity shortly after that conference.

He was baptized in a church in London.

He started reading the Bible daily.

He joined a Christian community and his life transformed.

He reconciled with his his ex-wife and children.

His business continued to thrive, but he no longer measured his worth by success.

He started a charity that helped refugees.

He became known for his kindness, generosity, and peace.

People who knew him said he was a completely different person.

The investigator included testimonies from Samir’s colleagues and friends.

All of them saying the same thing.

Whatever happened to him was real.

He was not faking it.

He had found something that changed him from the inside out.

I sat in my office in Riyad reading that report over and over and I felt something I had not felt in years.

I felt hope.

If Samir could find peace, if his life could change so dramatically, maybe there was hope for me, too.

Maybe this Jesus was real.

Maybe he could do for me what Islam had never done.

But I was still terrified.

The idea of exploring Christianity felt like treason.

In Saudi Arabia, converting from Islam to any other religion was apostasy, punishable by death.

Even questioning Islam too openly could result in imprisonment, public flogging, or forced repentance.

And for someone in the royal family, the consequences would be even worse.

It would not just be my life at risk.

It would bring shame on the entire family.

My adoptive father, the king, would be humiliated.

My brothers would see it as betrayal.

The religious authorities would condemn me.

I could lose everything, but the emptiness inside me was so deep, the hunger for truth so strong that I decided to take the risk.

I would investigate Christianity, but I would do it in absolute secrecy.

I would approach it academically, intellectually, as a researcher studying a subject, not as someone considering conversion.

That way if anyone ever found out I could say I was simply trying to understand the beliefs of other religions to be a better diplomat or representative of Saudi Arabia.

I started ordering books.

I could not order them directly to Saudi Arabia because Christian materials were banned.

So I had them shipped to a private office I maintained in London for business purposes.

My assistant there, a British man who had no idea who I really was, would receive the packages and then send me digital scans of the pages through encrypted email.

I started with academic works, books written by historians and scholars about the origins of Christianity, the life of Jesus, and the development of Christian theology.

I read books by CS Lewis, a British writer who had been an atheist before converting to Christianity and who wrote about his intellectual journey toward faith.

I read Mere Christianity, where he laid out logical arguments for the existence of God and the truth of Jesus’s claims.

I read the case for Christ by Lee Stroel, an investigative journalist who had set out to disprove Christianity and ended up converting because the evidence convinced him it was true.

I read works by Entright, a New Testament scholar who wrote about the historical evidence for the resurrection of Jesus.

The more I read, the more I realized that Christianity was not the irrational western corrupted religion I had been taught it was.

The arguments were strong, the evidence was compelling, the logic was sound.

I had always been told that uh the Bible was full of contradictions, that it had been changed and corrupted over centuries, that it could not be trusted.

But when I read the actual scholarship, I found that the New Testament manuscripts were incredibly well preserved, that there were thousands of early copies that all said the same thing, and that the core message about Jesus had remained consistent from the very beginning.

I had been taught that Jesus was just a prophet, a good man who taught good things but was not divine.

But when I read the the gospels, the accounts of Jesus’ life written by his earliest followers, I saw that Jesus himself claimed to be God.

He said things like, “I and the father are one.

” And before Abraham was I am using the same name for himself that God used when he appeared to Moses in the burning bush, Jesus accepted worship.

He forgave sins.

He said he had the authority to judge all humanity.

These were not the claims of a mere prophet.

They were the claims of someone who believed he was God in human form.

I also started comparing what the Quran said about Jesus with what the Bible said.

The differences were huge.

The Quran said Jesus called Issa in Arabic was a prophet born of a virgin who performed miracles but who did not die on the cross.

It said that Allah made it appear that Jesus was crucified but actually he was taken up to heaven before he could be killed.

The Quran denied that Jesus was the son of God and condemn the idea of the trinity as sherk the unforgivable sin of associating partners with Allah.

But the Bible especially the New Testament was centered entirely on the death and resurrection of Jesus.

It said that Jesus came specifically to die, that his death was not a tragedy, but the purpose of his mission, that he took the punishment for humanity’s sins on the cross, and that he rose from the dead 3 days later, proving he had power over death and offering eternal life to all who believed in him.

These two accounts could not both be true.

Either the Quran was right and the Bible was wrong or the Bible was right and the Quran was wrong.

I decided I needed to read the Bible for myself, not summaries or commentaries but the actual text.

I reached out to Samir the Lebanese businessman.

using a secure messaging app.

I told him I had been thinking about our conversation in Dubai and that I wanted to learn more about Christianity.

I asked if he could send me a Bible.

He was surprised but cautious.

He asked me several questions to make sure I was serious and not trying to trap him.

When he was satisfied, he agreed to help.

He arranged for an Arabic Bible to be sent to a private address I had in Bahrain, a country I visited occasionally for business.

I flew to Bahrain, picked up the package personally, and brought it back to Saudi Arabia, hidden inside a hollowedout business portfolio.

It was a risky, but I was careful.

I knew that if customs officials searched my luggage and found a Bible, I would be questioned, possibly detained.

But I made it through without incident.

I kept the Bible hidden in my villa in the diplomatic quarter of Riyad, a secure area where many foreign diplomats and wealthy Saudis lived.

I placed it inside a locked drawer in my private study, a room that only I had access to.

And late at night, when everyone in the house was asleep, I would pull it out and read.

I started with the Gospel of John because I had read that it was the most theological of the four gospels, the one that most directly addressed the identity of Jesus.

The very first verse shook me.

It said in the beginning was the word and the word was with God and the word was God.

It went on to say that this word became flesh and lived among us referring to Jesus.

This was a direct claim that Jesus was divine, that he existed before creation, that he was God himself.

I had never read anything like this in the Quran.

It was shocking, offensive to everything I had been taught, but also strangely compelling.

I kept reading.

I read about Jesus turning water into wine, healing the sick, giving sight to the blind, raising the dead.

I read about him teaching with authority, challenging the religious leaders of his time, welcoming sinners and outcasts.

I read about him claiming to be the bread of life, the light of the world, the good shepherd, the resurrection and the life.

And then I came to the sermon on the mount in the Gospel of Matthew and I read words that pierced my heart.

Jesus said, “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.

I read those words and I felt like Jesus was speaking directly to me.

I was poor in spirit.

I was mourning.

I was hungry for righteousness, for something real, for a relationship with God that was not based on uh performance and fear.

And Jesus was saying that people like me were blessed, that we would be filled, that we would find what we were searching for.

I spent weeks reading the Bible in secret, devouring the Gospels, then moving on to the letters of Paul and the other apostles.

I read about grace, the undeserved favor of God given freely to those who believe in Jesus.

I read about justification by faith, the idea that we are declared righteous not because of our works but because of Jesus’s work on the cross.

I read about adoption that those who believe in Jesus are adopted into God’s family and become his children loved unconditionally accepted completely.

Every page challenged what I had been taught.

Every verse offered something Islam had never offered me.

certainty, peace, love, a relationship with God that was not based on fear and duty, but on grace and trust.

I found myself crying as I read, not out of sadness, but out of longing.

I wanted what these pages described.

I wanted to know this Jesus.

I wanted to be loved by this God who did not wait for me to clean myself up, but who pursued me, who died for me, who offered me everything as a gift.

But I was still not ready to believe.

The intellectual arguments were strong, but my heart was still resisting.

I was afraid.

Afraid of what it would mean, afraid of the cost, afraid that I was being deceived.

So one night alone in my study after finishing the gospel of John I decided to pray not the ritual Islamic prayers I had prayed my entire life but a real honest desperate prayer.

I closed the Bible looked up at the ceiling and I spoke out loud.

I said God I do not know who you are.

I have been taught you are Allah but I am reading about Jesus and he claims to be you.

I do not know what is true anymore, but I need to know.

I am tired of emptiness.

I am tired of performing.

I am tired of pretending.

If Jesus is real, if he is who he claims to be, I need you to show me.

I need certainty.

Please show me the truth.

I sat there in silence, waiting, not knowing what I expected.

And nothing happened.

No voice from heaven, no vision, no dramatic sign, just silence.

I felt foolish.

I closed the study, locked the Bible away and went to bed.

But I had prayed and I had asked for truth and I did not know it then.

But that prayer was about to be answered in a way I could never have imagined.

3 days after I prayed that desperate prayer in my study, I woke up feeling restless.

It was a Thursday afternoon and I had no official duties scheduled.

The weather in Riyad was hot as always, but the sky was clear and bright.

I decided to spend some time in my private garden, a space I had designed myself at the back of my villa in the diplomatic quarter.

It was my refuge, a place where I could be alone, away from the constant protocol and performance that defined my public life.

The garden was enclosed by high walls covered in climbing plants with palm trees providing shade, a small fountain in the center, and stone paths winding through carefully maintained flower beds.

I had given my gardeners the day off, telling them I wanted privacy.

I walked out into the garden around 2:30 in the afternoon, carrying nothing but my phone, planning to sit and think, maybe read more of the Bible on a reading app I had downloaded with heavy encryption.

I sat down on a stone bench under the shade of a large palm tree.

The sound of the fountain trickling in the background, the heat of the day pressing down even in the shade.

I opened the Bible app on my phone and continued reading at where I had left off in the Gospel of John chapter 14.

I read the words of Jesus speaking to his disciples, telling them he was going to prepare a place for them, that he was the way, the truth, and the life, and that no one comes to the father except through him.

I read those words slowly, letting them sink in, feeling the weight of the claim.

Jesus was not offering one path among many.

He was claiming to be the only path that was offensive, exclusive, radical.

But it was also clear.

There was no ambiguity.

Either he was telling the truth or he was deluded or lying.

There was no middle ground.

I stared at the words on my phone screen.

My mind wrestling with the implications, my heart pounding with a mixture of fear and longing.

Then I felt it.

A sudden change in the atmosphere.

The air became still heavy, charged with something I could not name.

The sound of the fountain seemed to fade into the background.

The heat seemed to lift.

I looked up from my phone and my breath caught in my throat.

There was someone standing on the garden path about 10 m away from me.

a man.

I had not heard him approach.

I had not heard the gate open.

I had locked it myself.

The walls were too high to climb.

There was no way anyone could have entered without me knowing.

But there he was, standing in the middle of my private garden in broad daylight, looking directly at me.

My first reaction was fear.

Had security been breached? Was I in danger? I stood up quickly, my heart racing, and I called out in Arabic, “Who are you? How did you get in here?” The man did not move.

He just stood there, calm, still watching me.

He was wearing a simple white thala dress, but it looked different somehow, cleaner, brighter, almost like it was reflecting the sunlight in a way that fabric should not.

He appeared to be in his early 30s with middle eastern features, dark hair, a short beard, and eyes that were kind but also piercing as if they could see straight through me.

I felt a strange combination of terror and peace.

Terror because this should not be possible.

Peace because despite the impossibility, I did not feel threatened.

I felt seen, known.

I took a step back and asked again, louder this time, “Who are you? What do you want? How did you get past the security?” The man smiled gently and then he spoke.

His voice was calm, clear, and carried a weight of authority that I had never heard in any human voice before.

He spoke in perfect classical Arabic, the kind used in ancient poetry and religious texts, beautiful and precise, he said.

Faizal, I am the one you have been searching for.

I stared at him, my mind spinning.

How did he know my name? Who was this? I demanded.

I asked you a question.

Who are you? What are you doing in my garden? The man took a step closer and I noticed something strange.

His feet made no sound on the stone path.

He moved with a grace that seemed almost unnatural, like he was gliding rather than walking.

He stopped a few meters from me and said, “You have been reading about me.

You have been asking God to show you the truth.

I am here to answer your prayer.

I am Isa Mariam.

I am the word of God made flesh.

I am the way, the truth, and the life.

” My legs almost gave out.

I felt dizzy like the ground was shifting beneath me.

Isa ibariam Jesus son of Mary the prophet but he was calling himself the word of God made flesh.

That was not what Islam taught.

That was what the Bible taught.

That was the claim of Christianity that Jesus was God incarnate.

I shook my head backing away my voice rising.

No.

No.

This is not possible.

You are a prophet.

You are not God.

This is shik.

This is forbidden.

If you are really Issa, you would never say such a thing.

You cannot be God.

Allah has no son.

Allah has no partners.

This is a trick.

This is a test or you are a gin trying to deceive me.

The man, this figure claiming to be Jesus did not look offended or angry.

He looked at me with such compassion that it almost broke me.

He said, “Faisal, you have read my words in the book you keep hidden in your study.

Did I claim to be merely a prophet? Did I not say I and the father are one? Did I not say before Abraham was I am?” Did I not accept worship? Did I not forgive sins? Did I not claim authority over heaven and earth? You know what I claimed.

You have read it.

Now you must decide.

Is what I said true or was I a liar and a blasphemer? There is no middle ground.

I felt tears starting to form in my eyes.

My whole body was shaking.

I said, “If you are really Isa, if you are really Jesus, then prove it.

Show me something.

Give me a sign.

” The man extended his hands toward me, palms up, and I saw them.

scars, circular scars in the center of each palm, the kind that would be left by something piercing straight through.

My breath stopped.

I stared at those scars and then he lifted the edge of his so slightly showing his feet, the same scars.

And then he touched his side just below his ribs, and I saw another scar, long and healed, but unmistakable.

The wounds of crucifixion, the wounds that Islam said never happened.

The wounds that the Bible said proved everything.

He said, “These are real.

” Fisel, I did not appear to die.

I died truly, physically, painfully.

I was nailed to a Roman cross.

I was pierced with a spear.

I bled.

I suffocated.

I died.

And three days later, I rose.

This body you see now is the same body that hung on that cross.

Resurrection is not a metaphor.

It is a fact.

I am alive.

I conquered death.

And I offer that same life to you.

I fell to my knees on the stone path.

My hands covering my face, sobbing uncontrollably.

Everything I had been taught, everything I had believed for 31 years was crashing down around me.

But at the same time, everything I had been searching for was standing right in front of me.

I looked up at him through my tears and I said, “But I do not understand why.

Why did you have to die? Why did God allow his prophet or his son to be killed like a criminal? Why not just forgive without all the suffering? Jesus knelt down in front of me close enough that I could see the details of his face, the kindness in his eyes, the scars on his hands.

He said, “Because sin is not a small thing.

Faal, it is rebellion against the holy God who created you.

And holiness demands justice.

The penalty for sin is death.

Someone had to pay that penalty.

I chose to pay it.

I took your place.

I took the punishment you deserved so that you could receive the forgiveness you could never earn.

This is not about religious performance.

This is about substitution.

I died so you could live.

I was rejected so you could be accepted.

I bore the wrath of God so you could receive the love of God.

This is grace.

I could barely speak.

I whispered, “But what about my family? What about my country? What about uh everything I am? If I believe in you, I lose everything.

Jesus did not look away.

He did not minimize the cost.

He said, “Yes, you will lose much.

” I told my followers that I did not come to bring easy peace, but a sword that following me would divide families, that the world would hate them because it hated me first.

I am not offering you comfort.

I am offering you truth.

I am offering you life.

Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me.

Whoever loves his own life more than me will lose it.

But whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

The question is not what you will lose fa.

The question is do you believe I am who I say I am? Do you believe I am worth it? I looked into his eyes and I knew.

I knew with every fiber of my being that this was real.

This was not a dream.

This was not a hallucination.

This was not a trick of my mind.

Jesus Christ, the son of God, the word made flesh, was kneeling in front of me in my garden in Riyad in broad daylight.

And he was asking me to follow him.

I had spent my entire life searching for something real, something solid, something that could fill the emptiness inside me.

And here he was.

Not a religion, not a system, not a set of rules, a person, a living, breathing, scarred, resurrected person who loved me enough to die for me and who was now calling me to follow him.

I took a shaky breath and I said, “I believe.

I believe you are who you say you are.

I believe you are the son of God.

I believe you died for me.

I believe you rose again.

Forgive me.

Forgive me for everything I have done wrong.

Forgive me for all the years I rejected you.

Forgive me for my pride, my sin, my emptiness.

I give you my life, all of it.

I do not know what that means or where it leads, but I am yours.

Save me.

The moment I said those words, something happened inside me.

It was like a damn breaking.

I felt a rush of warmth flood through my chest, spreading through my whole body.

The weight that had been sitting on my heart for as long as I could remember.

The crushing emptiness, the loneliness, the fear.

It lifted.

Just lifted.

Gone.

And in its place came a peace so deep, so pure, so overwhelming that I could not contain it.

I started laughing and crying at the same time.

My face still in my hands, my body shaking, but not from fear anymore, from joy, from relief, from the most profound sense of being loved that I had ever experienced in my life.

I felt clean.

I felt new.

I felt like I had been dead and was suddenly alive.

Jesus reached out and placed his hand on my shoulder and the warmth intensified.

He said, “You are forgiven, Fisal completely.

Every sin, every failure, every moment of rebellion, it is all washed away by my blood.

You are no longer a slave to fear.

You are no longer an orphan searching for belonging.

You are my brother.

You are a son of the living God.

You are adopted into my family and nothing can ever take that away from you.

I looked up at him.

Tears streaming down my face and I said, “What do I do now? What happens next?” Jesus stood and I stood with him.

He said, “You follow me.

You read my word.

You pray.

You trust and when the time comes, you tell others what you have seen.

You will lose much.

Your family will reject you.

Your country will cast you out.

You will be called a traitor and a fool, but you will gain me and I am enough.

I will never leave you.

I will never forsake you.

I am with you always, even to the end of the age.

Do not be afraid.

I have overcome the world.

And so because I live, you will live also.

He smiled at me and it was the most beautiful smile I had ever seen.

Then he turned and began walking down the garden path away from me toward the far wall.

I called out, “Wait, where are you going? When will I see you again?” He did not turn around, but I heard his voice clearly as if he were still standing next to me.

“You will see me again, Fisal.

But until then, I am with you.

Read my word.

I am there.

Pray to me.

I am listening.

Walk in faith.

I am guiding you and do not fear.

I have already won the victory.

He reached the wall, the solid stone wall that enclosed my garden and he did not stop.

He walked straight through it like it was not even there.

And then he was gone.

I stood there in the middle of my garden alone.

The sun still shining, the fountain still trickling, the birds still singing.

Everything looked exactly the same.

But I was not the same.

I was born again.

I was a new creation.

I was a follower of Jesus Christ.

I walked back to the bench and sat down.

My whole body trembling, my mind trying to process what had just happened.

I looked down at my phone, still open to the Gospel of John.

The words on the screen seem to glow.

I am the way, the truth, and the life.

No one comes to the Father except through me.

I had read those words a hundred times, but now I knew them.

Now I had met the one who spoke them.

I sat there for a long time, maybe an hour, just praying, thanking Jesus, weeping with gratitude, feeling his presence even though I could not see him.

And I knew that my life had just changed forever.

There was no going back.

I belonged to Jesus now.

and whatever came next, whatever the cost, I would follow him.

After Jesus left my garden that afternoon, I went back inside my villa and locked myself in my bedroom.

I did not know what to do.

I did not know how to process what had just happened.

I had met Jesus face to face in broad daylight in my own garden in Riyad.

He had shown me his scars.

He had spoken to me.

He had called me his brother.

And I had given my life to him.

I was a Christian now, a follower of Jesus Christ in Saudi Arabia, in the heart of the Islamic world, in the royal family.

The reality of that hit me like a wave.

And I felt panic rising in my chest.

What had I done? This was not just a change of opinion or a private belief I could keep to myself.

This was apostasy.

This was the one unforgivable crime in Saudi culture.

Leaving Islam was punishable by death.

And I was not just any Saudi.

I was a prince.

If anyone found out, it would not just destroy me.

It would bring unbearable shame on the entire royal family.

My father, the king, would be humiliated.

My brothers would see me as a traitor.

The religious authorities would demand my execution as an example.

But even as fear tried to grip me, I felt something stronger.

Peace.

The same peace I had felt when Jesus touched my shoulder in the garden.

It was still there, steady and unshakable, like a foundation beneath my feet that nothing could move.

I was terrified of what might happen.

But I was not terrified of Jesus.

I trusted him.

I did not know how or why, but I did.

He had said he would never leave me and I believed him.

So I made a decision.

I would follow him.

But I would have to be incredibly careful.

I could not tell anyone yet.

I could not let anyone suspect.

I would have to live a double life appearing as a faithful Muslim prince on the outside while secretly learning to follow Jesus on the inside.

It was the only way to survive, at least for now.

I did not know how long I could keep this secret, but I knew I had to try.

I needed time to learn, to grow, to understand what it meant to be a Christian before the world found out, and my life exploded.

The first thing I did was increase my outward Islamic observance.

I know that sounds hypocritical, but it was a matter of survival.

If I suddenly became less religious, people would notice and ask questions.

So, I did the opposite.

I made sure I was seen at the mosque more often.

I led prayers at family gatherings.

I attended uh religious lectures.

I quoted the Quran in conversations.

I funded the construction of a new mosque in a poor neighborhood in Riyad and made sure it was publicized.

To everyone around me, I appeared to be becoming more devout, more committed to Islam.

But inside, my heart was somewhere completely different.

Every time I bowed in prayer toward the Mecca, I was secretly praying to Jesus.

Every time I recited Quran verses, I was thinking about Bible verses I had read.

Every time I performed the rituals, I felt like I was living a lie.

But I told myself it was temporary.

I told myself I was being wise, not cowardly.

Jesus himself had told his disciples to be shrewd as serpents and innocent as doves.

I was living in a surveillance state in a family that monitored everything I did.

I had to be smart.

But I also desperately needed to learn.

I needed to understand what it meant to follow Jesus.

I needed guidance, teaching, community.

I could not do this alone.

So I reached out to the one person I thought might be able to help.

Samir, the Lebanese businessman who had first told me about Jesus in Dubai.

I sent him a message through the same encrypted app we had used before.

I told him what had happened.

I told him about my prayer, about Jesus appearing to me in my garden, about giving my life to him.

I expected him to be skeptical, to think I was exaggerating or confused, but instead he responded with joy and caution.

He said he believed me that he had heard of other Muslims encountering Jesus in dreams and visions and that this was how God was reaching people in places where the gospel could not be preached openly.

But he also warned me that I was now in great danger.

He said I needed to connect with other believers, people who could help me grow in faith and navigate the impossible situation I was in.

Samir gave me the contact information for someone he called brother M.

He said this person was a Saudi believer, someone who had converted from Islam to Christianity several years ago and who was now part of a very small, very secretive network of Saudi Christians living in the kingdom.

Samir said, “Brother M would know how to help me, but I had to be extremely careful in how I approached him.

The network operated under strict security protocols because discovery meant death.

” I sent a message to the number Samir gave me using a new encrypted app and a fake name.

I simply said, “I am a Saudi.

I have given my life to Issa Al- Masi.

I need help.

” I waited for 3 days before I got a response.

The message said, “How do I know you are real and not intelligence?” I understood the suspicion.

Saudi intelligence services infiltrated dissident groups all the time.

So I replied, “I cannot prove it.

You will have to trust.

But I am not intelligent.

I am a follower of Jesus and I need guidance.

Please.

Another two days passed.

Then I received a message with instructions.

Meet me at King Fod National Library, second floor, Islamic history section.

Saturday at 4 p.

m.

Carry a red folder.

Sit at the table near the window.

Do not speak to me first.

I will approach you if it is safe.

I followed the instructions exactly.

On Saturday afternoon, I drove myself to the library, something I rarely did because I usually had a driver, but I needed to be alone for this.

I parked in the public lot, walked into the massive library building, went up to the second floor, found the Islamic history section, and sat at the table near the window with a red folder I had brought from my office.

I pretended to read a book about early Islamic conquests, but my heart was pounding.

I had no idea who I was meeting or if this was safe.

After about 20 minutes, a man approached.

He was Saudi, maybe in his early 40s, wearing a simple th and glasses, carrying a stack of books.

He sat down at my table without asking permission and opened one of his books.

Then without looking at me, he spoke quietly in Arabic.

He said, “Salam, my name is not important.

You can call me brother M.

Tell me why you are here.

” I kept my eyes on my book and spoke just as quietly.

I said, “I met Issa.

” He appeared to me.

I gave my life to him.

But I do not know what to do now.

I need help.

Brother M nodded slowly, still not looking at me.

He said, “How do I know you are telling the truth? How do I know you are not setting a trap?” I said, “I cannot prove it to you, but I am asking you to take the risk.

I am risking everything by being here.

If you are intelligence and you report me, I will be arrested and executed.

But I believe Jesus brought me to you.

Please.

He was silent for a moment.

Then he said, “What is your name?” Your real name.

I hesitated.

Giving him my real name meant giving him power to destroy me.

But I felt the Holy Spirit prompting me to trust.

So I said quietly, Faal bin Abdullah al- Rashid, brother M’s hand which had been turning a page in his book froze.

He looked at me for the first time, his eyes wide with shock.

He said, “You are a prince.

” I nodded.

He closed his book and said, “We cannot talk here.

Follow me in 15 minutes.

Do not leave at the same time as me.

” He stood up, gathered his books, and walked out.

I sat there sweating, praying, asking Jesus to protect me, to guide me, to let this be safe.

15 minutes later, I left the library and found brother M waiting in the parking lot beside a modest car.

He motioned for me to get in.

I did.

He drove in silence for about 10 minutes, taking random turns, checking his mirrors constantly, clearly making sure we were not being followed.

Finally, he pulled into an underground parking garage beneath a residential building in a middleclass neighborhood.

He parked, turned off the engine, and looked at me.

He said, “If you are lying to me, if you are working for the Mabahith, I will know eventually, and I will disappear before you can find the others.

But if you are telling the truth, then this is the most dangerous and most important moment of my life.

A Saudi prince following Jesus.

This changes everything.

I looked him in the eyes and said, “I am telling the truth.

I met Jesus face to face in my garden 8 days ago.

I am his follower now.

I will not deny him even if it costs me my life.

” Brother M studied my face for a long moment.

Then he reached out and shook my hand.

He said, “Then welcome, brother.

You are family now.

” He told me his story as we sat in that parking garage.

His real name was Naser.

He had been a doctor trained in London working at a hospital in Riyad.

10 years ago, he had a patient, a Filipino nurse who was dying of cancer.

She was a Christian and she talked to him about Jesus in her final days.

She had such peace, such confidence about where she was going that it shook him.

After she died, he could not stop thinking about her faith.

He started researching Christianity in secret, reading the Bible, and eventually he encountered Jesus in a dream.

Jesus told him, “I am the resurrection and the life.

Believe in me.

” dancers Nasar converted, was baptized by another secret believer, and had been living as an underground Christian in Saudi Arabia ever since.

He quit his job at the hospital because he could not ethically continue lying about his faith in such a public position.

Now he worked as a private medical consultant and used his freedom to quietly help other Saudi believers.

Nasser told me there was a network of Saudi Christians, but it was tiny, maybe 200 to 500 believers across the entire kingdom.

He estimated it was impossible to know for sure because many believers were too afraid to make contact with anyone living in complete isolation, fearing that any connection could lead to exposure.

The network did not function like a church.

There were no group meetings, no public gatherings, no organized services.

It was too dangerous.

Saudi intelligence monitored everything.

Instead, the network operated through scattered individuals who occasionally met one-on-one or in pairs, always in different locations, always with extreme caution.

Baptisms were done privately, usually in someone’s home with only one or two witnesses.

Bibles were kept hidden or stored digitally on unencrypted devices.

Prayer was done alone or with one trusted partner.

It was survival Christianity stripped of all the structures and traditions reduced to the essentials.

Faith, scripture, prayer, and the presence of the Holy Spirit.

Naser said he could help me grow, but it would have to be slow and careful.

We could not meet regularly.

We could not be seen together often.

We would communicate mostly through encrypted messages and meet only when absolutely necessary.

He would send me resources, books, teachings, Bible studies all digitally.

He would answer my questions.

He would pray for me.

But he could not be my constant companion.

The risk was too great, especially because I was so highprofile.

He said, “Faisal, you are the most prominent convert I have ever heard of in Saudi Arabia.

If you are discovered, it will not just be your life that ends.

It will trigger a massive crackdown.

They will hunt for everyone connected to you.

Uh the whole network could be exposed.

So, you must be extraordinarily careful.

You must tell no one.

You must live as if you are still Muslim.

And you must trust Jesus to guide you because I cannot be with you every step of the way.

I understood.

I was not going to have the community, the fellowship, the support that Christians in free countries took for granted.

I was going to walk this path mostly alone.

But Naser said there was one thing we could do together.

He said, “You need to be baptized.

” Baptism is the public declaration of faith, the symbol of dying to your old life and rising to new life in Christ.

I know it is dangerous but it is important.

Are you willing? I said yes without hesitation.

Nasser said, “Then we will do it at your home.

It is the safest place.

No one can enter your villa without your permission.

We will do it late at night.

Just you and me.

No one else needs to know.

We arranged it for the following Thursday.

Nasar came to my villa at 2:00 in the morning.

Entering through a side gate that I left unlocked, I led him to my private swimming pool in the back courtyard, a pool that was never used because I rarely swam.

The water was cold and still under the night sky.

We stood at the edge and Naser asked me, “Faisal bin Abdullah, do you believe that Jesus Christ is the son of God? That he died for your sins and rose from the dead?” I said, “Yes, I believe.

” He said, “Do you renounce your old life and commit to follow Jesus no matter the cost?” I said, “Yes, I renounce and I commit.

” We walked down the steps into the pool together.

The water was shockingly cold, but I did not care.

Nasser placed one hand on my back and raised the other towards heaven.

He said, “I baptize you in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.

” Then he gently lowered me backward into the water until I was completely submerged.

For a moment, I was under the surface, surrounded by cold and silence.

And I thought about my old life, the emptiness, the searching, the pretending.

And then Naser lifted me up out of the water and I gasped for air.

And I felt it again.

That overwhelming sense of being made new.

I was baptized.

I was publicly even if only before one witness and God himself declaring that I belong to Jesus.

Naser and I stood there in the pool, water dripping from our clothes.

And he hugged me.

He said, “Welcome to the family, brother.

You are a son of God now.

Nothing can change that.

” We climbed out, dried off, and Naser left as quietly as he had come.

I went back to my bedroom, changed into dry clothes, and sat on my bed, staring out the window at the Riyad skyline.

I was a baptized Christian.

a follower of Jesus, living in secret in the heart of the Islamic world.

And I had no idea how long I could keep this hidden.

For the next 18 months, I lived the most carefully controlled double life imaginable.

Every morning, I woke up, performed the Islamic prayers that were expected of me, attended family gatherings where we discussed politics and religion, and fulfilled my ceremonial duties as a prince.

I smiled at the right moments, said the right things, and played the role I had been playing my entire life.

But inside, everything was different.

My heart belonged to Jesus.

Every moment I was alone.

I was reading the Bible on encrypted apps, praying to Jesus in my own words, learning what it meant to follow him.

Nasser would send me digital books, sermon recordings, and Bible study materials through secure channels.

I devoured them.

I read the entire New Testament three times in those 18 months.

I studied the Old Testament, learning about the history of Israel, the prophecies about the Messiah, and how Jesus fulfilled every single one of them.

I learned about grace, about the Holy Spirit, about prayer, about spiritual warfare.

I grew in my um faith in secret and the more I learned the more I loved Jesus.

But living this double life was exhausting and painful.

Every time I led prayers at family events, I felt like I was betraying Jesus.

Every time I quoted the Quran in public, I felt sick inside.

Every time I attended a mosque and listened to sermons that denied the divinity of Christ, I wanted to stand up and shout the truth.

But I could not.

I had to stay silent.

I had to survive.

Nasser kept reminding me that wisdom was not the same as cowardice.

He said Jesus himself had told his disciples not to throw their pearls before swine, not to give what is sacred to dogs.

Meaning there were times when sharing the truth would only bring destruction without any benefit.

He said I was living in a spiritual war zone and in war soldiers had to be strategic.

There would come a time to speak but that time had not come yet.

So I waited, I prayed and I trusted that Jesus would tell me when the moment was right.

During those months, I met with Naser only four times.

Always in different locations, always with extreme caution.

Once we met in a shopping mall, sitting in a crowded food court where our conversation could not be overheard.

Once we met in a public park, walking along a jogging path while pretending to exercise.

Once we met in the parking lot of a hospital where Naser still did occasional consulting work and once he came to my villa again late at night so we could pray together and take communion.

A simple ceremony with bread and juice but one of the most meaningful moments of my Christian life.

Those brief meetings were my lifeline.

Um, they reminded me I was not alone, that there were others who believed that the church existed even in Saudi Arabia, even if it was hidden and scattered and small.

But I also made a mistake.

A small mistake that I did not think much of at the time, but one that would unravel everything.

It happened on a Tuesday afternoon.

I was in my office at the King Abdulaziz historical center, a government building where I had a ceremonial position overseeing cultural heritage projects.

I was working with my personal assistant, a Pakistani man and named Rashid who had been with me for 5 years.

Rashid was efficient, loyal and quiet.

He handled my schedule, my correspondence, and my travel arrangements without asking unnecessary questions.

I trusted him.

That afternoon, I sneezed while reviewing some documents.

It was a sudden loud sneeze.

And without thinking, I said under my breath in English, in Jesus’ name, it was a reflex.

I had been reading about Christians who ended their prayers with that phrase and it had become so natural in my private prayer life that it slipped out in a moment when I was not paying attention.

I froze.

I looked up at Rashid who was standing across the desk from me and I saw that he had heard.

His eyes were fixed on me, his expression unreadable.

For a moment neither of us said anything.

Then he looked down at the papers he was holding and said quietly, “Bless you, sir.

” And that was it.

He did not ask any questions.

He did not react.

We went back to work as if nothing had happened.

But I knew he had heard.

And I knew that phrase in Jesus’ name was not something a Muslim would say.

A Muslim would say, “Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah.

” I had just revealed something even if accidentally and I did not know what Rashid would do with that information.

I spent the next few days watching him carefully trying to see if he was acting differently, if he was reporting me to anyone, if he suspected what I really was.

But he seemed completely normal.

So I tried to convince myself it was nothing.

Maybe he had not understood.

Maybe he thought I was just saying a random English phrase.

Maybe I was overreacting.

3 weeks later, Rashid asked to speak with me privately.

It was late in the afternoon and everyone else had left the office.

He closed the door to my office and stood in front of my desk with his hands folded, looking nervous.

He said, “Sir, I need to ask you something and I need you to be honest with me.

” I felt my heart drop.

I said, “What is it, Rashid?” He hesitated then said, “Three weeks ago, you said something after you sneezed.

You said in Jesus’ name, I have been thinking about it ever since.

And I need to know, are you a follower of Isa? Are you a Christian?” I could have lied.

I could have laughed it off, made up an excuse, said I had been watching too many English movies and picked up the phrase without thinking.

But something stopped me.

I felt the Holy Spirit prompting me, telling me to trust, telling me to be honest.

So I looked Rashid in the eyes and said, “Why are you asking?” He took a deep breath and said, “Because if you are, then I need to tell you something.

” I am too.

I stared at him in shock.

Rashid, my assistant for 5 years, was a Christian.

He saw the disbelief on my face and said, “I was born into a Christian family in Lahore, Pakistan.

My parents were believers.

I grew up going to church.

But when I came to work in Saudi Arabia 12 years ago, I had to hide my faith completely.

It is illegal for Christians to evangelize or even practice openly here.

So I have been living in secret, pretending to be Muslim when necessary, attending mosque occasionally to avoid suspicion, but praying to Jesus in my heart every single day.

I never imagined that you, a Saudi prince, could be a believer.

But when you said that phrase, I started watching you more closely and I saw small things.

The way you looked uncomfortable during Islamic prayers.

The way you seemed distracted during religious discussions.

The peace in your eyes that was not there before.

I did not want to assume but I had to know.

Are you truly a follower of Jesus? I felt tears forming in my eyes.

I said yes.

Yes, I am.

Jesus appeared to me in my garden a year and a half ago.

I gave my life to him.

I have been living in secret ever since.

Rashid smiled and his eyes filled with tears too.

He said, “Praise God.

Praise Jesus.

I have been praying for you for years, not knowing why, just feeling led to pray for your soul.

And now I know why.

God has saved you.

This is a miracle.

” We stood there in my office.

Two men from completely different backgrounds.

one a Saudi prince and one a Pakistani assistant and we hugged.

For the first time since my conversion, I had someone I could talk to regularly, someone who worked with me every day, someone who understood.

Rashid and I started praying together in my office after hours.

We would lock the door, turn off the security cameras that I had access to control, and we would pray out loud to Jesus, worship him, read the Bible together on my phone.

It was a risky, but it was also life-giving.

I was no longer completely alone, but our comfort made us careless.

We started talking more freely, trusting that the office was safe because I controlled the security.

What we did not know was that the Royal Intelligence Services, the Mabah, had been monitoring me for months.

Not because they suspected I was a Christian, but because of changes in my behavior.

I had become quieter, more withdrawn from family discussions.

I had stopped pursuing marriage which was expected of me.

I had started traveling less and spending more time alone.

These small changes had triggered a low-level investigation.

They had been tracking my internet activity even through my encrypted apps.

They had been watching who I met with, where I went, what I purchased, and they had flagged several things as suspicious.

Books on Christianity shipped to my London office.

Meetings with Nasser that could not be explained.

Communications with Samir in Lebanon.

Digital purchases of Bible study materials.

The evidence was circumstantial, but it was enough to warrant a deeper look.

One day, while I was out of my villa attending a family event, royal security conducted a routine sweep of my home.

This was not unusual.

They did it periodically for all members of the royal family to check for security threats, bugs, or anything dangerous.

But this time, they were looking for something specific.

And they found it hidden in my private study behind a false panel in my bookshelf that I thought was secure.

They found my Arabic Bible, the physical copy that Samir had sent me, the one I kept as a backup in case all my digital access was ever cut off.

The security team immediately reported the discovery to the head of the Mabah.

Within hours, I received a message on my phone.

It was from my oldest brother, Prince Sultan.

The message said, “Father wants to see you immediately.

Come to the palace.

Do not delay.

I knew instantly that something was wrong.

The tone was cold, formal, urgent.

This was not a normal family meeting.

I drove to the main palace, my hands shaking on the steering wheel, praying desperately to Jesus.

I said, “Lord, I do not know what is happening, but I trust you.

If this is the moment, give me strength.

Do not let me deny you.

Please.

” I arrived at the palace and was escorted not to the family living quarters but to a formal conference room that was used for serious governmental and family business.

Inside I found my father the king, my three oldest brothers including Sultan, two senior religious adviserss from the council of senior scholars and the head of the Mabah.

They were all seated around a larger table and their faces were grim.

I was told to sit at the opposite end of the table facing them.

It felt like a trial and in a way it was.

The king did not waste time.

He looked at me with an expression I had never seen before.

A mixture of grief, anger, and disbelief.

He said, “Faisal, they found a Bible in your house, a Christian Bible in Arabic, hidden in your study.

Explain this to me.

” I could feel every eye in the room on me.

I could lie.

I could say it was planted, that I was researching Christianity to understand the enemy, that it meant nothing.

But I remembered Jesus in my garden.

I remembered his words, “Do not deny me before men.

” I looked at my father and I said, “It is mine.

I have been reading it.

” The king’s face darkened.

He said, “Why? Why would you read the book of the Christians? Have you lost your mind? Are you trying to embarrass this family?” I took a deep breath and said, “Father, I read it because I was searching for truth and I found it.

” The religious advisors immediately erupted.

One of them shouted, “This is apostasy.

This is leaving Islam.

” The other said he must be corrected immediately before this spreads.

The head of the said we have evidence of more than just the Bible.

We have tracked his communications, his purchases, his meetings.

He has been in contact with known Christians.

He has been studying Christianity for over a year.

This is not curiosity.

This is conversion.

The king raised his hand and the room fell silent.

He looked at me and said, “Faisal, answer me directly.

Have you left Islam? Have you become a Christian?” This was the moment, the moment I had been dreading and somehow also expecting since the day Jesus appeared to me.

I looked at my father, the man who had saved me from the orphanage, who had given me a name and a family and a life, and I said, “Yes, I have.

I am a follower of Jesus Christ.

I believe he is the son of God.

I believe he died for my sins and rose from the dead.

I cannot deny him.

I will not deny him even if it costs me everything.

The room exploded.

My brothers shouted.

The religious advisors called me a cafir, an infidel, a disgrace.

The mabah chief demanded my immediate arrest.

But my father just sat there staring at me.

His face pale, his eyes filled with something I had never seen in him before.

Tears.

He said quietly, “I saved you.

I took you from nothing and made you a prince.

I gave you everything.

And this is how you repay me? By betraying your family, your faith, your country.

” I felt my own tears falling.

I said, “Father, I love you.

I am grateful for everything you gave me.

But I cannot lie about this.

I met Jesus.

He’s real.

He loves me and I must follow him.

My father stood up.

He said, “You have 72 hours.

You will be confined to your villa.

Religious scholars will come to speak with you to correct your thinking.

If after 72 hours you renounce this insanity and return to Islam, you will be forgiven and sent for treatment.

If you refuse, you will be stripped of your title, your wealth, your citizenship.

You will be expelled from Saudi Arabia.

You will never be allowed to return and your name will be erased from this family.

You will be dead to us.

Do you understand? I nodded.

I said, “I understand.

” He turned and walked out of the room.

My brothers followed, none of them looking at me.

The guards escorted me back to my villa and posted themselves outside.

I was under house arrest, and the clock had started ticking.

The 72 hours I spent under house arrest in my villa were the longest of my life.

Religious scholars came every day sitting in my living room trying to convince me that I had been deceived by Satan, that Christianity was a corrupted religion, that Jesus was only a prophet and nothing more.

They quoted Quran verses.

They presented Islamic arguments against the Trinity, against the divinity of Christ, against the crucifixion.

They were not cruel.

They were actually trying to save me, genuinely, believing that I had been led astray and that they could bring me back to the truth.

I listened respectfully, but I answered every argument.

I told them about Jesus appearing to me in my garden.

I told them about the scars on his hands and feet.

I told them about the peace I had found, the forgiveness, the love.

I told them I had studied Islam my entire life and Christianity for 2 years and I was convinced Christianity was true.

They shook their heads in frustration and sadness.

One of them said, “Prince Faal, you are choosing hell over paradise.

You are choosing shame over honor.

Please, for your soul, recent.

” On the third day, my father came alone.

He sat across from me in the same living room where the scholars had been.

He looked older than I had ever seen him, exhausted and heartbroken.

He said, “Faisal, this is your last chance.

I am begging you as your father.

Forget this foolishness.

Say the words.

Say you are confused that you were going through a mental crisis that you returned to Islam.

You do not even have to mean it.

Just say it.

We will send you abroad for a while, get you help, and this will all be forgotten.

No one outside this room needs to know.

Please.

I looked at the man who had saved my life as a baby, who had given me everything and my heart broke for him.

I said, “Father, I cannot.

I wish I could make this easier for you.

I wish I could take away your pain, but I cannot deny Jesus.

He is the truth.

He saved me.

I belong to him.

I would rather lose everything in this world than lose him.

My father stood up slowly.

He said, “Then you have made your choice.

You are no longer my son.

You are no longer a prince of Saudi Arabia.

You have 72 hours to leave the country.

Your passport will remain valid for travel, but once you leave, you will never be allowed to return.

All your assets in Saudi Arabia are frozen.

You may take one suitcase.

That is all.

He walked to the door, paused without turning around, and said, “I loved you, Faal.

I truly did.

” Then he left.

I sat there alone in the silence, tears streaming down my face, feeling the weight of what I had just lost.

My family, my country, my identity, everything I had known for 31 years was gone.

But even in the grief, I felt Jesus with me.

I felt his presence, his peace, his promise that he would never leave me.

And I knew I had made the right choice.

I contacted Nasser through our encrypted app.

I told him what had happened.

He responded immediately saying he would help arrange my exit and my next steps.

He connected me with a Christian organization that helped religious refugees from the Middle East.

They told me to fly to Aman, Jordan, where I would be met by people who could help me apply for asylum in a western country.

I packed one suitcase with clothes and a few personal items.

I left behind my designer watches, my expensive suits, my luxury cars, my wealth.

None of it mattered anymore.

The only thing I took that had value was my phone with the Bible app and my messages from Nasser and Rashid.

On my last morning in Saudi Arabia, Rashid came to my villa.

He hugged me and prayed for me asking Jesus to protect me and guide me.

He said, “You are the bravest man I have ever known.

Your testimony will inspire thousands.

Go and tell the world what Jesus has done.

” I drove myself to King Khaled International Airport in Riyad.

I had never driven myself to the airport before.

I had always had drivers, security, royal protocol.

But now I was alone, just another man with a suitcase.

I checked him for my flight to Aman, went through security without incident and boarded the plane.

As the plane took off and Riyad disappeared below me, I looked out the window at the city where I had lived my entire life and I whispered, “Goodbye.

I will probably never see you again, but I do not regret my choice.

Jesus is worth more than all of this.

The flight was short.

When I landed in Aman, I was met by two men from a Christian ministry that worked with refugees.

They took me to a small apartment they had arranged, helped me register with the United Nations Refugee Agency, and began the process of applying for asylum.

I spent two months in Jordan, living quietly, attending a small Arabic speakaking church for the first time in my life, experiencing what it was like to worship Jesus openly with other believers.

It was overwhelming and beautiful.

I cried the first time I took communion in public.

The first time I sang worship songs out loud, the first time I prayed without fear.

During those months, I was contacted by uh several Christian media ministries asking if I would be willing to share my testimony publicly.

They said my story could uh encourage other Muslims who were searching, could give hope to secret believers living in fear, could show the world that Jesus was moving in Saudi Arabia.

I wrestled with the decision going public would mean I could never reconcile with my family.

It would mean permanent exile, possible threats on my life, bringing even more shame to the royal family.

But I prayed and I felt Jesus telling me clearly, “I did not save you to stay silent.

Speak.

Tell them what I have done.

” So I agreed.

I sat in front of a camera in a small studio in Aman and I told my story.

I said my name.

I explained that I was the adopted son of the Saudi king.

That some still called me crown prince even though I would never rule.

I told them about my emptiness, my search, my discovery of the Bible.

And most importantly, I told them about Jesus appearing to me in my garden in Riyad in broad daylight.

I described his scars, his words, his love.

I told them about the underground network of Saudi believers, about Naser and Rashid, about living in secret for 18 months.

I told them about being discovered, about refusing to recant, about being expelled.

And then I made the declaration that I knew would shock people.

I said, “Jesus Christ is appearing in Saudi Arabia right now.

Not just to me, but to others in dreams, in visions, in moments of desperation.

He is revealing himself to Saudis who have never read the Bible, who have been taught to reject him.

He is building his church in the hardest place on earth.

and no government, no religious police, no threat of death can stop him.

The video was posted online and within days my worst fears and my greatest hopes were realized.

The Saudi government issued a statement denying I was who I claimed to be, calling the video Western propaganda.

My family publicly disowned me, erasing my name from all official records.

But I also started receiving messages, hundreds of them from Saudis inside the kingdom saying, “I had a dream of Jesus too.

” I thought I was going crazy.

Thank you for speaking.

From secret believers saying, “You gave me courage.

I am not alone.

” From seekers saying, “How can I know this Jesus?” Today I live in an undisclosed location in Europe.

I cannot say where for security reasons.

I work with ministries that produce media content for Arabic speaking Muslims, sharing the gospel through videos, podcasts, and online resources.

I mentor new Saudi converts through encrypted messaging.

I pray every day for my family, for the king, for my brothers, for Saudi Arabia.

I pray that they will encounter Jesus the way I did.

I have lost everything by the world’s standards.

I have no title, no wealth, no family, no country.

But I have Jesus and he is enough.

He is more than enough.

He is everything.

I was called crown prince.

But I found the true king and his kingdom will never end.

If you are watching this and you are Saudi, if you are Muslim, if you have had dreams of a man in white, that is Jesus.

He is real.

He loves you.

Call out to him.

He will answer.

Write in the comments, “Your light shines even in the kingdom.

” Let it be a declaration that no place is too dark for Jesus to reach.

Your light cannot be chained.