A revolution is underway in parts of the region.

A Jesus revolution.

And reports say tens of thousands of mosques in Iran have closed with millions of people leaving Islam to follow Jesus.

Unprecedented number of Muslims are forsaking Islam.

I want to begin by sharing something from the Bible that changed my understanding of everything.

It is from the book of Isaiah 19:es 23-2.

The prophet Isaiah wrote these words over 2,700 years ago.

In that day, there will be a highway from Egypt to Assyria.

The Assyrians will go to Egypt and the Egyptians to Assyria.

The Egyptians and Assyrians will worship together.

In that day, Israel will be the third.

along with Egypt and Assyria, a blessing on the earth.

The Lord Almighty will bless them, saying, “Blessed be Egypt, my people, Assyria, my handiwork, and Israel, my inheritance.

” When I was a cleric, I read these words in my studies, of other religious texts.

I dismissed them.

I thought they were corrupted words, impossible words, foolish words.

Assyria is ancient Iraq.

ancient Syria, the lands where I come from.

How could we ever worship the God of Israel? How could we ever be called his handiwork? It seemed like a dream that could never be real.

But today, as I speak to you, I am watching these words come alive before my eyes.

I am watching millions of my Muslim brothers and sisters across the Middle East turn to Jesus Christ.

I am one of them.

And what I once thought was impossible, I now know is the most real thing I have ever experienced.

My name is not important.

Many people still want to kill me for what I am about to tell you.

So I must protect my identity.

But my story is important.

Not because I am special, but because I am one of millions.

What happened to me is happening to countless others across Iraq, Iran, Syria, Egypt, Saudi Arabia, Afghanistan, and every corner of the Islamic world.

We are finding Jesus, or perhaps I should say Jesus is finding us.

Let me take you back to the beginning.

I was born in Baghdad in 1979.

My father was a religious man, deeply devoted to Islam.

He worked during the day as a government clerk, but his true passion was his faith.

He spent his evenings at the mosque and he wanted nothing more than for his sons to become religious leaders.

My mother wore the full black abaya and nikab from the time she was a teenager.

She never questioned, never doubted, never wavered.

In our home, Islam was not just a religion.

It was the air we breathe.

the foundation of every decision, the lens through which he we saw everything.

I was the eldest of five children.

From the time I could speak, I was reciting Quranic verses.

My father would wake me before dawn for faj prayer.

While other children played in the streets of Baghdad, I sat in our small living room memorizing surah after surah.

By the time I was 7 years old, I had memorized significant portions of the Quran.

My father would beam with pride when I recited in the mosque.

The other men would pat my head and tell my father he was blessed with a righteous son.

When I was nine, my father enrolled me in a special religious school attached to our mosque.

It was 1988 during the Iraq war.

The city was tense, frightening, filled with air raid sirens and checkpoints.

But inside our school, we lived in a different world.

We studied Arabic grammar so we could understand the Quran in its original language.

We studied hadith, the sayings and actions of the prophet Muhammad.

We studied fick, Islamic Jewish prudence.

We learned the intricate details of prayer possessions, ritual cleanliness, and proper conduct.

I loved it.

I truly did.

This is important for you to understand.

I was not a hypocrite then.

I was not pretending.

I believed with all my heart that Islam was the truth, the final revelation, the perfect way of life.

When I prayed, I felt I was communicating with Allah.

When I read the Quran, I felt I was reading the direct words of God.

My faith was sincere, deep, and unquestioning.

The years of study were rigorous and demanding.

We would start before sunrise and often continue late into the evening.

Our teachers were strict, sometimes harsh, believing that discipline produced righteousness.

We memorized not just the Quran, but also countless hadith.

learning the chain of transmission for each one.

Studying which were authentic and which were weak.

We learned Islamic history from the life of Muhammad through the caliphates and conquests that spread Islam across the known world.

I excelled in my studies.

While other boys struggled with the complex Arabic grammar or grew bored with endless memorization, I thrived.

I had a gift for languages and for remembering texts.

By the time I was 15, I had memorized the entire Quran.

My father held a celebration inviting relatives and neighbors.

I recited long passages from memory while the guests ate and praised Allah for blessing our family with such a devoted son.

During my teenage years, Iraq was suffering under international sanctions.

The country was poor, resources were scarce, and people struggled to find basic necessities.

But our religious school was supported by the community, and we always had enough.

The mosque was a place of stability in an unstable world, a refuge from the chaos outside.

This reinforced my belief that Islam was the answer to all problems.

That if people would just submit fully to Allah’s will, everything would be better.

By the time I was 22 years old, I had completed my religious education.

The year was 2001.

The world was changing in ways we did not fully understand yet.

The Americans had just been attacked and soon they would invade Afghanistan.

Within two years they would invade my own country.

But in that moment in 2001 I was simply a young man who had achieved his dream.

I became a cleric, an imam, a religious teacher.

I was given a position at a mosque in a neighborhood in Baghdad.

I was given the honor of leading prayers, of teaching the youth, of counseling families.

My father cried with joy the first time I led Friday prayers.

I can still see his face in the crowd, tears streaming down his weathered cheeks, his lips moving in quiet.

Thanks to Allah for giving him such a son.

My mother prepared a feast that day.

Extended family came.

Neighbors congratulated my parents.

I was someone now.

I had status, respect, purpose.

I married a year later.

Her name was Zahra.

She was 18, quiet, obedient, devout.

Our marriage was arranged by our families as was customary.

I will be honest with you, I did not love her at first, but I respected her.

She was a good Muslim woman.

She kept our home clean.

She prayed faithfully.

She obeyed without question.

Over time, affection grew between us.

We had our first child, a son.

Within a year, then another son, then a daughter.

My life felt complete, blessed, ordained by God.

My days followed a pattern that rarely changed.

I would wake for fajger prayer at the mosque, leading the small group of devoted men who came in the darkness before dawn.

After prayer, I would return home for breakfast with my family, then back to the mosque for morning Quran classes with the children.

Lunch at home, afternoon prayer at the mosque, then teaching sessions for the teenage boys, evening prayer, night prayer, home to sleep.

Then the cycle would begin again.

On Fridays, I would prepare my kudba, my sermon with great care.

I would speak about obedience to Allah, about following the sunnah, the way of the prophet.

I would remind the congregation of the importance of prayer, of giving charity, of fasting during Ramadan.

Sometimes I would speak about current events, the American invasion in 2003, the chaos that followed, the violence between Sunni and Shia, the need for Muslims to remain faithful during trials.

I remember standing on that minbar, that pulpit, looking out at the faces of my community.

Men I had known my whole life.

Young boys who reminded me of myself at their age.

Old men whose fathers I had known.

I felt the weight of responsibility.

These people trusted me to guide them.

They believed I knew the truth, and I believed I did.

The American invasion of 2003 brought tremendous upheaval to Baghdad and all of Iraq.

The government fell within weeks.

The stable order we had known, oppressive as it was, collapsed into chaos, looting, violence, sectarian conflict.

Our city became a war zone.

Many of my congregation looked to me for spiritual guidance during this dark time.

I told them to remain faithful, to trust in Allah’s plan, to believe that the trial we faced were a tests of our faith.

But inside, in a place I barely acknowledged, even to myself, small questions had begun to form.

They started innocently enough.

I was studying a collection of hadith one afternoon in my small office at the mosque.

The book was open to a section about warfare, about how to treat captives and conquered peoples.

I read descriptions of violence that made me pause.

I read about the treatment of women taken in battle.

I read about executions and punishments that seemed harsh beyond reason.

I pushed the thoughts away.

I told myself that I was not learned enough to question these things.

I told myself that there was wisdom I did not understand, context I was missing.

I told myself that Allah knows best and who was I to question, but the questions kept coming like water seeping through small cracks in a dam.

I noticed things in my community that troubled me.

I saw how women were treated, how they lived in fear, how their testimonies were worth half that of a man’s in disputes.

I saw young girls married to much older men, their childhoods stolen in the name of religious tradition.

I saw the way we spoke about Christians and Jews, about kafir, about unbelievers.

We said they were destined for hell, that they were less than us, that their lives had less value.

I had Christian neighbors.

Before 2003, Baghdad had a significant Christian population.

They had lived in our country for nearly 2,000 years, long before Islam came.

They were Assyrian Christians, Calaldian Christians, ancient communities.

I knew some of them.

They owned shops in our neighborhood.

They were kind people, generous people, peaceful people.

I remember one family in particular.

The father’s name was Yousef.

He had a small shop where he repaired electronics.

My television had broken once and I brought it to him.

While he worked, we talked.

He was respectful, gentle in his manner.

He asked about my family.

He refused to take full payment for the repair, insisting on giving me a discount because we were neighbors.

What struck me was the peace in his eyes.

Despite everything happening around us, the bombings, the kidnappings, the violence, he had this quality of peace that I could not explain.

His children were polite and well- behaved.

His wife, who sometimes helped in the shop, smiled often despite wearing a cross around her neck that marked her as a target.

The violence against Christians in Baghdad intensified as the years passed.

Churches were bombed.

Christians were kidnapped for ransom or killed simply for their faith.

Many fled Iraq entirely, leaving behind homes and businesses.

Their families had owned for generations.

Those who remained lived in constant fear.

Then one day in 2006 during the worst of the sectarian violence, someone bombed their church.

It was a Sunday morning.

Yousef’s eldest son was killed.

He was 16 years old, preparing to finish his secondary education.

A bright boy with a ready smile, who had helped his father in the shop since he was small.

I heard about it that afternoon.

I felt I should go to offer condolences.

Though it was not common for Muslims to visit Christian homes in mourning, but something pulled me to go.

When I arrived at their home, I found Yousef sitting with family members.

His eyes were red from crying, but when he saw me, he stood.

He thanked me for coming.

He offered me tea.

I sat with them for perhaps 30 minutes, unsure what to say.

As I was leaving, Yousef walked me to the door.

I expected to see hatred in his eyes, rage, a desire for revenge.

Any father would feel this way.

Instead, he put his hand on my shoulder and said simply that he forgave whoever did this.

He said his son was with Jesus now.

And that thought gave him peace even in his grief.

He said he prayed that God would open the eyes of those who did this terrible thing, that they would find the love of Christ and turn from violence.

I left his home shaken.

How could a man forgive the murder of his son? Where did such strength come from? What kind of faith produced this response instead of the rage and vengeance I knew so well? That night I could not sleep.

I lay on my mat, staring at the ceiling, listening to my wife’s gentle breathing beside me, hearing my children shifting in their sleep in the next room.

I thought about Yousef.

I thought about his peace.

I thought about his forgiveness.

I thought about the light in his eyes, even in the darkest moment of his life.

For the first time, a dangerous thought entered my mind.

What if they have something we do not? I pushed it away immediately.

I asked Allah to forgive me for such thoughts.

I did extra prayers that night, reciting the Quran for hours, trying to cleanse my mind of doubt.

But the seed had been planted.

The dreams started about 3 months later.

The first one came on an ordinary night.

I had gone to bed after a prayer, exhausted from a long day.

I fell asleep quickly.

Then I found myself in a dream that felt more real than any dream I had ever experienced.

I was standing in a place filled with light, not harsh light, but gentle warm light that seemed to come from everywhere and nowhere.

In front of me stood a man dressed in white.

His face was kind, his eyes full of a love I had never encountered.

He did not speak in this first dream.

He simply looked at me, and that look went through me like water through cloth, seeing everything, knowing everything, yet not condemning.

I woke up with my heart pounding.

I was sweating despite the cool night air.

I looked around our bedroom, disoriented, trying to understand what had just happened.

Zahara stirred beside me, but did not wake.

I got up and went to our small bathroom, splashed water on my face, tried to shake off the feeling.

It was just a dream, I told myself.

Perhaps something I ate, perhaps stress.

The violence in Baghdad was getting worse every month.

Perhaps my mind was simply processing fear and trauma.

I had counseledled several families who had lost loved ones in the previous weeks.

Perhaps that the weight of their grief was affecting my sleep.

But the dream came again a week later, then 3 days after that, then again and again with increasing frequency.

Always the same man, always the same overwhelming sense of love and peace radiating from him.

Sometimes he would gesture for me to come closer.

Sometimes he would smile, and that smile was like sunlight breaking through clouds.

But he never spoke in those early dreams.

I began to dread sleep.

I would lie awake on my mat, fighting exhaustion, afraid of what I would see when I closed my eyes.

Because these dreams were doing something to me.

They were opening a door in my heart that I had kept locked my entire life.

They were asking questions I was terrified to answer.

They were showing me a love that Islam had never taught me about.

A love that was not based on my performance or obedience or righteousness.

During the day, I continued my duties.

I led prayers.

I taught classes.

I counseledled community members who came with their problems and questions.

But I felt like I was living a double life.

In public, I was the faithful cleric, the religious teacher, the example of Islamic devotion.

In private, I was a man being haunted by dreams of a figure in white who looked at me with a love that made my heart ache with longing.

I finally went to speak with an older, more learned cleric in our city.

His name was Shik Abdul Rahman.

He was in his 70s, highly respected, known for his knowledge and wisdom.

I went to his home one evening and told him about the dreams.

I did not tell him about my questions or doubts.

I simply described the recurring dream of the man in white.

His face grew serious as I spoke.

When I finished, he was quiet for a long moment, stroking his gray beard, his eyes narrowed in thought.

Then he began to speak about jin, about spiritual warfare, about how Satan appears as an angel of light to deceive the faithful.

He told me to increase my prayers to recite specific verses of the Quran before sleep to seek Allah’s protection from evil spirits.

He gave me a paper with prayers written on it, told me to recite them seven times before sleeping each night.

I followed his advice faithfully.

I prayed more than ever before.

I recited the prescribed verses with careful attention.

I fasted extra days seeking spiritual strength and clarity.

I even went to a shake who was known for performing rukia, Islamic exorcism, thinking perhaps I was being afflicted by evil spirits.

But the dreams did not stop.

If anything, they intensified.

Then came the night that changed everything.

It was late in 2008, winter in Baghdad, cold and dark, the kind of night where you could see your breath in the air inside our unheated home.

I had fallen asleep exhausted after a particularly difficult day.

One of the young men from our mosque had been killed in a bombing.

I had spent the day with his family, trying to offer comfort, trying to make sense of senseless death, trying to maintain my own faith while watching others suffer.

In the dream, I was again in that place of light.

The man in white was there, but this time he was closer than ever before.

He reached out his hands toward me, and I could see scars on his wrists.

Scars like wounds that had healed.

circular marks that looked like they had been caused by nails or spikes driven through flesh.

And then for the first time he spoke.

His voice was gentle but clear, carrying authority but filled with tenderness.

He said words I will never forget.

Words that I can quote exactly because they burned into my soul like a brand.

I am the way, the truth, and the life.

I woke up gasping, tears streaming down my face, my whole body trembling uncontrollably.

I knew in that instant I knew who this was.

I knew who had been visiting me in dreams for months.

I knew and the knowledge terrified me more than anything I had ever experienced.

It was Jesus, Isa al-Masi, Jesus the Messiah.

The figure that Islam taught was only a prophet, not the son of God, not divine, certainly not someone who would appear to a Muslim cleric in dreams.

I got up from bed, stumbling to the bathroom, gripping the sink, looking at my face in the small mirror by the light of the moon through the window.

My face was pale, my eyes wild.

Who was I? What was happening to me? Everything I had built my life on suddenly felt like it was crumbling beneath my feet.

I could not tell anyone.

I could not speak about this to my wife, to my family, to my fellow clerics.

What would I say? that Jesus was appearing to me in dreams.

That I was being called by the very person Islam taught us to respect but never to worship, to honor, but never to follow as anything more than a prophet.

I spent the rest of that night sitting in our small courtyard, wrapped in a blanket against the cold, staring at the stars, praying in confusion and desperation.

I did not know who I was praying to anymore.

Was I praying to Allah, the distant God of Islam, who might or might not accept me based on my deeds? Or was I praying to this Jesus who appeared in my dreams with love in his eyes and scars on his wrists? I begged for clarity.

I begged for understanding.

I begged for this cup to be taken from me because I knew I already knew deep in my heart where this was leading and I knew what it would cost me.

The next day I went through my duties like a man in a fog.

I led prayers but the words felt hollow in my mouth.

I taught the Quran to the children but I found myself wondering about the verses, questioning, doubting.

I went home to my family, kissed my children, ate the meal my wife prepared, and felt like a stranger in my own life.

That night, after everyone was asleep, I made a decision that would set me on a path I could never return from.

I decided I needed to find a Bible.

In Iraq, especially in my position, this was dangerous beyond measure.

To be seen with a Bible as a Muslim cleric would be suspicious at best, deadly at worst.

But I had to know.

I had to read for myself about this Jesus who was appearing in my dreams.

I had to understand why he said he was the way, the truth, and the life.

I had to know if what Islam taught about him was true or if there was more to his story than I had been told.

I had a friend, another cleric, who I thought might help me.

We had studied together years before.

He was more open-minded than most, more willing to discuss difficult questions, less rigid in his thinking.

His name was Hassan.

I went to him and told him I needed to read Christian texts for the purpose of understanding how to better refute Christianity when speaking to my community.

It was a lie.

my first real lie as a religious teacher.

It tasted bitter in my mouth, but I pushed forward.

I told Hassan that we were seeing more Christian missionary activity, more attempts to convert Muslims, and I wanted to be prepared to defend Islam effectively.

I needed to understand what Christians believed so I could show my community why it was wrong.

Hassan believed me.

He said it was wise to know your enemy’s arguments.

A week later, he brought me a small Arabic Bible.

He had gotten it from somewhere.

I never asked where.

Perhaps from a Christian who had fled and left belongings behind.

Perhaps from a bookstore that sold such things quietly to religious scholars.

He handed it to me wrapped in newspaper, warning me to be careful with it, to not let anyone see it, to return it when I was finished with my research.

I took it home and hid it under my mattress.

For 3 days, I could not bring myself to open it.

It sat there like a bomb waiting to explode, like a forbidden thing that would destroy me if I touched it.

I was afraid.

afraid of what I would find, afraid of what it would mean, afraid of the line I was about to cross.

But on the fourth night, after everyone was asleep, I took the Bible and a small lamp to our bathroom, the only place I could read without being seen.

I locked the door.

I sat on the cold tile floor, and with shaking hands, I opened to the beginning of the New Testament.

I started reading the Gospel of Matthew.

By the time dawn prayer arrived, I had read through most of it.

I had wept.

I had argued with the text.

I had felt my heart burn within me.

I had encountered a Jesus that Islam had never shown me.

Not just a prophet who performed miracles and preached monotheism, but the son of God, the savior, the one who loved humanity so much that he willingly died for our sins, the one who rose from the dead to conquer death itself.

The sermon on the mount especially destroyed me.

these words about loving your enemies, about blessing those who curse you, about turning the other cheek, about the kingdom of heaven, belonging to the poor in spirit.

This was a teaching unlike anything I had ever encountered.

This was not about rules and rituals and external righteousness.

This was about the transformation of the heart, about a righteousness that came from within, about a relationship with God.

based on grace rather than law.

I thought of Yousef, my Christian neighbor, forgiving his son’s murderers.

Now I understood where that supernatural grace came from.

It came from following a savior who forgave his own murderers from the cross who said, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.

” This was the source of that peace I had seen in Christian eyes.

That ability to love in the face of hatred, that strength to forgive the unforgivable.

As I heard the call to prayer echoing across Baghdad, in the pre-dawn darkness, I realized I was at a crossroads.

I could close this book, returned it to Hassan, forget what I had read, continue my life as I had always lived it, or I could step forward into the unknown, following this Jesus who had invaded my dreams and was now invading my mind and heart through his words.

I was not ready to decide yet.

I wasn’t ready to give up everything, but I knew even then that it was already too late.

Something had been awakened in me that would not go back to sleep.

A hunger had been created that nothing else would satisfy.

A door had been opened that could not be closed.

Jesus had found me.

And even though I did not yet have the courage to fully surrender, even though the road ahead looked dark and dangerous and full of loss, the process of transformation had begun.

In the coming weeks and months, I would learn just how costly this transformation would be.

I would learn that the narrow road is spoke of was even narrower than I imagined.

I would learn that losing your life to find it was not just a metaphor, but a literal reality.

But I would also learn that Jesus was worth it.

Every tear, every loss, every moment of suffering, he was worth it all.

The Bible stayed hidden under my mattress for weeks.

A secret burning in my heart, a truth I carried alone.

Every night after my wife and children were asleep, I would take it and that small lamp to the bathroom and read sometimes for an hour, sometimes until just before dawn prayer.

I read through all four gospels, comparing them, seeing how they presented Jesus from different angles, but with the same core message.

I read the book of Acts, watching how the first followers of Jesus spread this message even under persecution and threat of death.

I read the letters of Paul, this man who had been a religious zealot like myself, who had opposed Christians violently, who had been transformed by an encounter with the risen Jesus on the road to Damascus.

Every word felt like it was written directly to me, but I was living in agony.

During the day, I continued my work as a cleric.

I stood before my community and taught Islam.

I led prayers five times a day, my forehead touching the prayer mat, my lips reciting words I was beginning to question.

I counseledled people in their problems, always pointing them back to the Quran and hadith.

I was maintaining my external life while internally everything was changing, crumbling, being rebuilt from the foundation up.

The hypocrisy was eating me alive.

Every time I proclaimed the shahada, there is no god but Allah and Muhammad is his messenger.

I felt like I was denying the truth.

I had discovered every time I told that Jesus was only a prophet.

I felt like I was betraying the one who was revealing himself to me.

I was becoming two people split down the middle unable to fully be either one.

the external me that everyone saw and the internal me that was secretly falling in love with Jesus.

My wife noticed something was wrong.

I was distracted, distant, troubled.

I would forget things she told me.

I would stare off into space during meals.

I would wake in the night and she would find me gone from our bed.

She would ask if I was sick, if something had happened at the mosque, if someone had offended me or threatened me.

I would tell her I was simply tired, stressed by the deteriorating security situation in Baghdad, worried about the future.

The lie was becoming easier, which made me feel even worse.

The dreams continued.

Sometimes they were the same.

Jesus in white radiating love and peace, inviting me closer with his scarred hands.

But other times they were different, showing me things I did not understand at first, but that began to make sense as I read the Bible.

In one dream, I saw a great harvest field, golden wheat, swaying in the wind as far as I could see.

Jesus was walking through it with a basket gathering wheat.

He looked at me and gestured to the field as if showing me there was work to be done.

Workers needed.

I woke up thinking of his words in the gospels.

The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few.

In another dream, I was in darkness, lost and afraid, stumbling through what felt like a cave or tunnel with no light.

Suddenly, a light appeared ahead of me.

Jesus was holding a lamp and he said that he was the light of the world that whoever follows him will never walk in darkness but will have the light of life.

These were his exact words from the Gospel of John.

In yet another dream I saw myself drowning in deep water, unable to swim, going under.

Then a hand reached down and pulled me up.

It was Jesus.

and he said what he had said to Peter [clears throat] when Peter tried to walk on water and began to sink.

He said one word, believe.

Every dream left me more convinced, more troubled, more torn between two worlds.

I began to pray in secret, not the ritual prayers of Islam with their prescribed words and movements, but simple prayers to Jesus.

I felt foolish at first.

I felt like I was betraying everything I had ever known, everything my father had taught me, everything I had built my life upon.

But when I prayed to Jesus, something happened that had never happened in all my years of Islamic prayer.

I felt heard.

I felt like someone was actually listening, actually caring, actually responding in my spirit.

There was a presence, a comfort, a peace that would settle over me when I said the name of Jesus.

In Islam, we had 99 names for Allah, the merciful, the compassionate, the all powerful.

But he always felt distant, unreachable, a master who must be obeyed but could never truly be known.

But Jesus felt near, present, personal.

This terrified me almost as much as it drew me in.

About 2 months after I had first gotten the Bible, I was reading late one night in my usual spot in the bathroom, sitting on the cold tile floor with my back against the wall.

I had reached the Gospel of John chapter 14.

I came to verse 6 where Jesus said to Thomas, “I am the way and the truth and the life.

No one comes to the father except through me.

These were the exact words from my dream months before.

The words that had started everything, the words that had shattered my Islamic worldview and opened the door to this journey.

I sat there on that cold bathroom floor, the Bible in my trembling hands, tears running down my face.

And I knew I could not continue living this double life.

I knew I had to make a choice.

I could not serve two masters.

I could not worship Allah while believing in Jesus.

I could not continue pretending to be a faithful Muslim while my heart was being drawn irresistibly to Christ.

But I was paralyzed by fear.

Fear of losing my family, my wife, my three beautiful children who trusted me and looked up to me.

Fear of losing my position, my income, my respect in the community.

Fear of violence because I knew what happened to Muslims who converted to Christianity.

I had heard the stories, beatings, torture, honor killings, families completely cutting off converts as if they had died.

Fear of being wrong, of being deceived by Satan, of throwing away my entire life for a mistake.

I closed the Bible and prayed with desperate honesty.

I said to God, whoever God really was, that I needed to know the truth.

I needed to be certain.

I could not base my entire life.

Could not risk everything I held dear on dreams and feelings alone.

I needed something more, something concrete, something that could not be explained away.

I said that if Jesus was truly the son of God, truly the savior, truly the way as he claimed, then I needed him to show me beyond any doubt.

I needed a confirmation that could not be attributed to my imagination or stress or anything else.

I need a sign.

Then I waited, hardly daring to breathe, wondering if I was being presumptuous to ask God for a sign, wondering if anything would happen at all.

The answer came 3 days later in a way I never expected.

It was a Saturday afternoon.

I was in the market buying vegetables for my family.

The market was crowded and noisy.

Vendors shouting prices, people arguing over goods, children running between the stalls, the normal chaos of Baghdad street commerce.

The air smelled of fresh bread and spices and vehicle exhaust.

I was standing at a stall, examining tomatoes, testing their firmness, negotiating with the vendor over price.

Then I heard someone call out a Christian greeting behind me.

This was unusual.

Christians in Baghdad had become very quiet, very careful about identifying themselves publicly.

To announce yourself as a Christian in a crowded market was to invite trouble, harassment, or worse.

I turned and saw a man about my age, perhaps slightly older, maybe in his mid-30s.

He was standing a few feet away, looking directly at me, with an expression I could not read, neither hostile nor friendly, but intense, purposeful.

He wore simple clothes, nothing that marked him as Christian, but there was something about his bearing that suggested strength, confidence.

Without thinking about the risk, without caring who might overhehere in that crowded market, he spoke to me in a low voice.

He said he had seen me before, knew I was a cleric from the local mosque.

He said he had been praying and God had told him to speak to me, to approach me specifically.

My heart began pounding.

How could this be? Who was this man? What did he want? He told me his name was Daud, which is the Arabic form of David.

He said he was a Christian, that he was part of a small house church in Baghdad that met in secret.

Then he said something that made my blood run cold and hot at the same time.

He said, and I remember his exact words because they struck me like lightning from heaven that the spirit had shown him.

There was a Muslim religious leader who was seeking Jesus, who was having dreams, who was reading the Bible in secret, who was afraid and needed help.

I could not speak.

I could not breathe.

I stood there in that crowded market with the noise swirling around me, and I felt like time had stopped.

No one knew these things.

I had told no one.

I had been completely careful, completely secret.

There was no natural way.

This man could know any of this.

No human way.

He must have seen the shock on my face because he smiled gently and told me not to be afraid.

He said, “If I wanted to talk, to learn more, to meet others who had walked the path I was on, I should come to a certain address on Thursday night after dark.

” He gave me the address, made me repeat it back to him to be sure I had it right.

Then he turned and walked away into the crowd, disappearing among the people before I could respond, before I could ask any of the hundred questions flooding my mind.

I stood there among the vegetables and the shouting vendors, my whole body shaking, knowing I had just received my answer.

God had heard my desperate prayer.

Jesus had sent someone to find me, to help me at the exact moment I needed it most.

This was not coincidence.

This was not my imagination.

This was a miracle.

But going to that address would be the most dangerous thing I had ever done.

For 4 days, I debated with myself.

I would decide to go, then change my mind.

Within an hour, I would decide to forget the whole thing, to continue my life as it was, then find myself unable to think of anything else.

I barely slept.

I barely ate.

I was constantly distracted, jumpy, nervous.

My wife asked me several times if I was ill, if I needed to see a doctor.

I told her I was fine, just dealing with some difficult situations at the mosque.

Thursday came.

The day dragged on like a year.

I led prayers mechanically, taught classes without really being present, counted the hours until darkness.

I told my wife I had an evening meeting with other religious leaders to discuss community issues.

Another lie.

I was becoming someone I did not recognize, and I hated it.

But I felt I had no choice.

The truth would destroy everything, and I was not ready for that yet.

The address Daud had given me was in a neighborhood about 30 minutes away by foot.

As darkness fell and evening prayer time passed, I left my house and walked through the streets of Baghdad.

It was 2009.

And though the worst of the violence had passed, the city was still dangerous, especially at night.

checkpoints manned by nervous soldiers, militia patrols watching for targets, the constant possibility of kidnapping or random violence.

I passed burned out buildings, walls pokemarked with bullet holes, trash piled in the streets, but I was more afraid of what I was about to do than of any physical danger.

I found the address.

It was an ordinary house indistinguishable from the others on the street.

A singlestory structure with a small courtyard, a metal gate, yellowed walls.

I stood outside for several minutes, my heart hammering in my chest, giving myself one last chance to turn back.

I thought of my family.

I thought of my position.

I thought of everything I risked.

Then I thought of Jesus in my dreams looking at me with love, calling me to follow.

I thought of Yousef forgiving his son’s murderers.

I thought of the words I had read in the Bible about losing your life to find it.

I knocked on the gate.

The wood opened it almost immediately as if he had been waiting by it.

He smiled when he saw me, as if he had known I would come, as if there had never been any doubt.

He welcomed me inside quickly and quietly, looking up and down the street before closing the gate behind us.

The house was dark from the outside, but inside one room was lit by oil lamps and candles.

The electricity was out, as it often was in Baghdad.

There were about 15 people sitting on the floor in a circle, men and women together, which was unusual in our culture, young and old, all looking at me as I entered.

Their faces showed no suspicion, no judgment, only warmth and welcome.

They would introduced me simply as a friend who was seeking to know more about Jesus.

No one asked my name, no one asked my background or what I did for a living.

They simply welcomed me with smiles and nods, making space in the circle for me to sit.

Someone brought me tea.

A woman smiled at me with kind eyes and told me she was glad I had come.

What happened that night changed my life forever.

They began by singing songs of worship to Jesus.

quiet songs, beautiful songs in Arabic, songs about his love and sacrifice and resurrection.

I had never heard anything like it.

There was joy in their voices despite their circumstances, despite living in constant danger as Christians in an Islamic country, despite the persecution and loss many of them had experienced.

They sang about Jesus as if he was their dearest friend, their beloved savior, the reason for living.

Then they prayed.

Not ritual prayers repeated from memory with prescribed words and movements, but personal prayers spoken from the heart.

People talking to Jesus like he was right there in the room with them.

They thanked him for his blessings, for protection, for strength.

They asked him for courage and wisdom.

They prayed for family members who did not yet know him.

They prayed for Muslims to find the truth.

They prayed for me by name.

Though they did not know my name, they simply called me our new brother and asked Jesus to guide me and protect me and reveal himself to me fully.

I sat there with tears running down my face, overwhelmed by the intimacy and authenticity of their prayers.

This was nothing like the formal distant prayers of Islam.

This was relationship.

This was family.

This was real.

After prayer, they opened Bibles.

Most of them had small worn Bibles that looked well read.

And began discussing a passage from the book of Romans.

They read about how all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God and how we are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Jesus Christ.

They talked about what this meant, how it applied to their lives, how it was different from earning righteousness through works and deeds.

I sat there silent, listening, absorbing, feeling like I was hearing the truth explained with clarity for the first time in my life.

Everything in Islam had been about doing enough good deeds to hopefully outweigh your bad deeds, about following enough rules to hopefully please Allah, about living in constant uncertainty about whether you would be accepted or rejected on judgment day.

But these people were talking about assurance, about knowing they were saved, about being confident in God’s love, not because of what they had done, but because of what Jesus had done for them.

The discussion went on for perhaps an hour.

Different people shared insights, asked questions, encouraged one another.

There was no hierarchy, no one person dominating the conversation.

It was a fellowship of equals, brothers and sisters in Christ, learning together.

When the discussion ended, Dwood asked if I had any questions.

I had a thousand questions, but I started with the one that troubled me most.

The biggest obstacle between Islam and Christianity in my mind, the Trinity.

How could Christians claim to worship one God while saying God is father, son, and holy spirit? This seemed like clear polytheism.

Sherk, the worst sin in Islam, the one unforgivable sin.

An older man in the group whose face bore scars from some past violence, burn marks on one side of his neck and jaw, answered me.

He did not give me complicated theology or philosophical arguments.

Instead, he asked me to think about water.

Water can be liquid, ice or steam.

Three different forms, three different states, but all H2O, all the same substance, one essence, three expressions.

God, he said, is one being who exists in three persons beyond our full understanding.

Yes, but not illogical or contradictory.

The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are all fully God, distinct in person, but unified in essence, unified in will, unified in purpose.

He said to think of it like the sun, the sun itself, the light it gives, and the heat it produces.

Three distinct things, but all one sun.

You cannot have the sun without its light and heat.

You cannot separate them.

It was not a complete answer to all my questions.

But it was enough to show me that what I had been taught about Christian belief was a caricature, not the reality.

Christians were not worshiping three gods.

They were worshiping one God who had revealed himself in three persons.

I asked about the crucifixion.

Islam taught that Jesus was not really crucified.

that God would not allow his prophet to be killed in such a humiliating way that someone else was made to look like him and crucified in his place.

How could Christians believe God would let his son die like that? A young woman spoke up.

She could not have been more than 25, but she spoke with wisdom beyond her years.

She said that was exactly the point.

God did not send Jesus to be a political leader or military conqueror or protected prophet.

He sent him to be a sacrifice to pay the price for humanity’s sin to die the death we deserved so we could have life.

The cross, she said, was not a defeat.

It was the victory.

It was the moment when Jesus conquered sin and death and Satan.

It looked like weakness, but it was the greatest demonstration of power in history.

It looked like the end, but it was the beginning of our salvation.

And the resurrection 3 days later proved it.

Jesus rose from the dead, appeared to hundreds of witnesses, and ascended to heaven.

Death could not hold him because he was God.

We talked for hours that night.

The candles burned low and were replaced.

More tea was brought.

They answered my questions with patience and clarity, never making me feel foolish for asking, never treating me with anything but respect and love.

Several of them shared their own stories of coming to faith, of leaving Islam, of the cost they had paid.

The old man with the scarred face told how he had been a imam, how he had converted after studying the Bible to refute it, how his own mosque congregation had beaten him and set him on fire.

His wife had stayed Muslim and divorced him.

His children refused to speak to him, but he said with tears of joy in his eyes that knowing Jesus was worth all of it.

A young man in his early 20s told how he had been engaged to be married when he converted.

His fiance’s family called off the wedding.

His own father ordered him to leave the house and never return.

He lived on the streets for months before finding this church family.

One woman had been divorced by her husband the day he found out she was a Christian.

She lost custody of her children.

She had not seen them in 3 years.

But she said Jesus had given her a peace that surpassed understanding, that he was enough even when everything else was taken away.

Yet they all spoke of Jesus with such love, such devotion, such joy that it was clear they considered the cost worth paying.

They had found something more valuable than family, than reputation, than physical safety, than life itself.

They had found Jesus, and he was enough.

As the night grew late, and the gathering came to an end, Daud pulled me aside.

He said they met every Thursday night in different locations for safety, rotating between several homes.

He said, “If I wanted to continue learning, continue seeking.

I would be welcome to join them.

He also said they would understand if I never came back.

If the risk was too great, if I decided to walk away from this path, there would be no judgment, no condemnation, no pressure.

But he also said something else, something I have never forgotten.

He put his hand on my shoulder, looked me in the eyes, and said that Jesus was knocking on the door of my heart, and only I could choose whether to open it.

He said Jesus would never force himself on anyone, never coersse or manipulate, but he would continue pursuing me with love until I either surrendered to him or finally hardened my heart completely against him.

He said the choice was mine, but he prayed I would choose life.

I walked home through the dark street of Baghdad that night, feeling like I was floating.

Everything looked different.

The stars seemed brighter.

The night air seemed sweeter.

Despite all my fear and confusion, despite all the questions still unanswered, I felt something I hadn’t felt in years, maybe ever, I felt hope.

real hope.

Not the uncertain hope of Islam that was always tinged with fear, but a hope anchored in something solid, someone reliable.

When I got home, my family was asleep.

I sat in our small courtyard under the stars and looked up at the sky.

And for the first time in my life, I prayed to Jesus, not with fear or doubt, but with gratitude.

I thanked him for sending Dwood to find me in that market.

I thanked him for the believers who had welcomed me and taught me with such love.

I thanked him for being patient with my questions and fears, for pursuing me even when I was running away.

I still hadn’t fully surrendered.

I still had not made the final commitment.

But I was closer than I had ever been.

The walls around my heart were crumbling.

The resistance was weakening.

Jesus was winning.

And part of me was glad.

I went back the next Thursday and the Thursday after that and the one after that.

Each time I learned more.

Each time my certainty grew.

Each time the contrast between the fear-based submission of Islam and the lovebased relationship of Christianity became clearer and more undeniable.

The group began to teach me more systematically.

They explained the entire story of the Bible.

creation, humanity made in God’s image, the fall into sin, God’s covenant with Abraham and Moses, the prophecies about a coming Messiah who would save humanity, Jesus fulfilling those prophecies in precise detail, his death and resurrection, the church spreading the gospel despite persecution, and the promise of his return to make all things new.

They showed me how the Old Testament pointed to Jesus on every page.

The Passover lamb whose blood protected from death Jesus, the lamb of God.

The bronze serpent Moses lifted up in the wilderness to heal those who looked at it.

Jesus lifted up on the cross to save those who believe.

The suffering servant in Isaiah 53 who bore our sins and was wounded for our transgressions.

Jesus on the cross.

They taught me about grace, the unmmerited favor of God given freely to all who believe, not earned by works or deeds.

This concept was revolutionary to me.

In Islam, everything was about scales, about weighing good deeds against bad, about hoping you had done enough.

But in Christianity, it was about accepting the gift that Jesus had already purchased with his blood.

Salvation was not about my effort but about his finished work.

When Jesus died on the cross, his last words were, “It is finished.

” The price was paid in full.

They taught me about the Holy Spirit, the presence of God living inside believers, guiding them, empowering them, transforming them from the inside out.

This explained the peace I had seen in Christians like Yousef.

This explained the joy in this persecuted house church.

They had God himself dwelling in them, closer than their own breath.

After about 2 months of meeting with the group, Dwood sat with me privately one Thursday evening before the others arrived.

We sat in the courtyard of the house where we were meeting under a fig tree, drinking tea.

He asked me where I stood in my journey.

Was I still seeking, still questioning? Or had I reached a point of belief? I told him honestly that I believed Jesus was the son of God, that he had died for my sins and risen from the dead, that he was the only way to the father.

I believed it all.

The evidence was overwhelming.

the testimony of scripture, the witness of the Holy Spirit in my heart, the supernatural dreams, the changed lives I saw in the believers around me.

Everything pointed to the truth of Christianity.

But I also told him I was terrified of what confession would mean.

I had a wife and three children who knew nothing of what I was doing.

I had a position as a cleric that I would lose instantly.

I had a community that would view me as an apostate, a traitor worthy of death.

I believed, but I did not know if I had the courage to openly follow Jesus, to take up my cross as he commanded.

Dood listened with understanding in his eyes.

He did not pressure me or judge me.

He did not quote scripture at me or make me feel guilty.

He simply asked if he could pray for me.

He put his hand on my shoulder, bowed his head, and prayed that Jesus would give me the courage and strength for whatever lay ahead that the Holy Spirit would guide me in timing and wisdom.

That I would know with certainty when the time came to fully commit.

That I would trust Jesus to carry me through whatever suffering might come.

That night alone in my bathroom with my hidden Bible, I made my decision.

I had been reading through the Gospel of John again and I came to chapter 10 where Jesus said, “He was the good shepherd who lays down his life for the sheep.

” He said, “His sheep hear his voice and follow him and he gives them eternal life.

” He said, “No one can snatch them out of his hand.

” I realized I had been hearing his voice for months in dreams, in scripture, through the believers.

He had been calling me, and I had been following slowly, fearfully, but following nonetheless.

The time had come to stop hesitating and fully surrender.

I knelt on that cold tile floor and prayed the most important prayer I have ever prayed.

I told Jesus that I believed in him, that I accepted him as my Lord and Savior, that I surrendered my life to him completely and without reservation.

I confessed my sins, all of them.

every failure, every act of hypocrisy, every moment of cruelty or pride or lust or anger, I asked him to forgive me and cleanse me and make me new, to wash me in his blood and give me his righteousness.

And in that moment, in that small bathroom, in the middle of the night, I felt a presence more real than anything physical.

I felt love wash over me like a wave, like I was being immersed in an ocean of unconditional love.

I felt peace settle into my soul like an anchor, a peace that went deeper than circumstances or feelings.

I felt joy bubble up from somewhere deep inside.

A joy that had nothing to do with my external situation and everything to do with being reconciled to God.

I felt for the first time in my life truly alive, truly free, truly home.

I was born again just as Jesus had told Nicodemus, “A person must be born again to see the kingdom of God.

” The old me, the cleric who served Allah in fear and uncertainty, was gone.

The new me, a child of God, saved by grace through faith in Christ, was born in that moment.

I did not hear an audible voice.

I did not see a vision, but I knew with absolute certainty that something fundamental had changed in me.

The old was gone.

The new had come.

I was no longer just a Muslim man who was curious about Christianity.

I was a follower of Jesus Christ.

I was a Christian.

I belonged to him.

I wept there on the bathroom floor for a long time.

Overwhelmed by gratitude, overwhelmed by the weight of what had just happened.

Overwhelmed by love, overwhelmed by the journey that still lay ahead.

I knew this was just the beginning.

I knew the hard part was coming.

But I also knew I would never be alone again.

Jesus was with me.

The Holy Spirit lived in me.

I was part of God’s family now.

part of a kingdom that would never end.

The next Thursday, I asked to be baptized.

The group arranged it carefully with all the security precautions necessary.

We met at a safe location, a believer’s home that had a small courtyard with a large water tank used for storing water when the city supply was unreliable.

Late at night with lookouts posted at the gate to watch for danger.

I stood in that water with the wood.

The moon was nearly full giving enough light to see.

The small group of believers stood around the tank singing softly.

The wood asked me the questions of faith before the witnesses.

He asked if I believed Jesus Christ was the son of God.

I said yes.

He asked if I believed Jesus died for my sins and rose from the dead.

I said yes.

He asked if I was committing to follow him no matter the cost even unto death if necessary.

I said yes.

Then he lowered me into the water saying he baptized me in the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit.

When I came up out of that water, gasping, wiping water from my eyes, the small group around me was singing quietly in celebration.

They embraced me one by one, welcoming me as their brother in Christ, rejoicing that another soul had been saved, that the kingdom of God had grown by one more person.

I had crossed the line.

There was no going back now.

I was a follower of Jesus, publicly declared before witnesses, baptized into his death and resurrection, but I was still living a double life.

I was still going to the mosque every day, still leading prayers, still teaching Islam to children and adults.

Every time I did these things now, I felt physically ill.

I was lying to everyone I knew.

I was betraying the trust of my community.

I was living in constant fear of discovery, constantly watching what I said, constantly hiding who I really was.

The house church counseledled me to be patient, to wait for the right time, to reveal my faith, to pray for wisdom about when and how to tell my family.

They said there was no shame in being cautious when your life was at stake.

that even Jesus sometimes moved quietly to avoid confrontation before the appointed time.

But they also said I could not live this way indefinitely, that eventually the truth would have to come out, that a light cannot remain hidden forever.

I knew they were right.

I knew I could not continue like this.

Eventually, a choice would have to be made.

Eventually, I would have to openly confess Christ or deny him.

And I knew which choice I would make.

I knew, even knowing the cost, even knowing what I would lose, that I could never deny Jesus.

He was too real.

His love was too overwhelming.

My faith was too certain.

That choice came sooner than I expected, and in a way I never imagined.

About 3 weeks after my baptism, I was careless.

I had been reading my Bible late at night as usual, and when I finished, I was so tired, my eyes burning with exhaustion, that I simply left it on a shelf in our small storage closet instead of hiding it back under the mattress.

I went to sleep, thinking I would move it in the morning before anyone was awake.

But the next day, while I was at the mosque leading midday prayer, my wife was cleaning the house.

She found it.

When I came home that evening, I knew immediately something was wrong.

Zara’s eyes were red from crying, swollen, her face pale.

My children were unusually quiet, sitting together in a corner, afraid.

The atmosphere in our home was thick with tension, like the air before a thunderstorm.

As I entered our home, I saw the Bible sitting on our small table, opened to the Gospel of John, where I had been reading the night before.

My heart dropped into my stomach.

Everything slowed down.

I felt cold and hot at the same time.

My wife looked at me with a mixture of confusion, fear, and hurt.

Her hands were shaking.

She asked me, her voice breaking, why I had a Christian book in our house.

She asked me if I was using it to study how to refute Christians, as some clerics did.

She asked me, her voice dropping to barely a whisper, if there was some other reason.

Her eyes pleaded with me to give her the answer she wanted to hear, the safe answer, the answer that would make everything normal again.

I stood there frozen, my mind racing, my heart pounding so hard I could hear it in my ears.

This was the moment I had been dreading.

This was the choice I could no longer avoid.

This was the crossroads where two paths diverged and I had to choose.

I could lie.

The lie was right there, easy, available.

I could tell her it was for research, for study, for better understanding the enemy so I could refute Christian missionaries.

She would believe me.

She wanted to believe me.

I could take the Bible to the mosque tomorrow, make a show of burning it or disposing of it and continue my double life for a while longer.

Or I could tell her the truth, the whole truth, and lose everything.

I looked at my wife, at the mother of my children, at this woman who had trusted me and followed me and built her life around mine.

I looked at my children watching with wide frightened eyes.

My oldest son was nine, my second son, my daughter only five.

I thought about what the truth would do to them, how it would destroy our family, how it would mark them in our community.

I thought about the courage of the believers in the house church, the ones who had chosen Jesus even when it cost them everything.

I thought about Jesus himself who could have saved his life by denying his identity but chose the cross instead.

I thought about his words.

Whoever denies me before men, I will also deny before my father who is in heaven.

And I made my choice.

I told her the truth.

I told her about the dreams that had started over a year ago.

I told her about reading the Bible in secret for months.

I told her about finding the house church and meeting other believers.

I told her about my baptism.

I told her that I had become a follower of Jesus Christ, that I believed he was the son of God, that I believed he died for my sins and rose from the dead, that I could no longer pretend to be a Muslim because it would be denying the truth I had discovered.

The moment I finished speaking, my wife began to wail.

It was a sound I will never forget.

A sound of grief and horror and betrayal all mixed together.

She fell to her knees crying out to Allah, rocking back and forth, asking why this had happened to her, what she had done to deserve this.

My children started crying, frightened by their mother’s reaction, not understanding what was happening.

My oldest son who was abounding then asked me with fear in his voice if I had become a kafir an unbeliever.

The way he said that word with such fear and disgust like I had become something inhuman broke my heart into pieces.

I tried to explain to them, tried to tell them that I still loved them, that I was still their husband and father, that I had not abandoned them, that I had found the truth and wanted them to know it, too.

But my wife would not listen.

Through her tears, she screamed at me that I had destroyed our family, that I had brought shame upon her, that she could never look at her relatives or neighbors again.

She said I was not the man she married, that the man she married would never do such a thing, that she did not know who I was anymore.

I reached out to touch her shoulder to comfort her.

But she pulled away from me like I was unclean, like I was contaminated with something infectious.

She gathered our children, still crying, and told them to get their things.

She said they were going to her mother’s house, that they could not stay with me, that I was dangerous, corrupted, lost.

I begged her to stay, to listen, to give me a chance to explain more.

But she would not hear me.

Within an hour, she and the children were gone, leaving me alone in our home with only the Bible on the table and the echo of their crying in my ears.

I sat in the empty silence.

listening to my own breathing, feeling the weight of what had just happened crushing down on me like a physical force.

I had known there would be a cost.

I had known my family might reject me, but knowing something intellectually and experiencing it emotionally are completely different things.

The pain was beyond anything I had imagined.

I had just lost everything.

my wife, my children, my family.

And soon I would lose everything else too.

My position, my income, my community, my safety, maybe even my life.

That night, I went to my knees and prayed to Jesus through tears.

I told him I needed his strength because I did not have any of my own.

I told him I was afraid of what would come next.

I told him that despite the pain, despite the loss, despite everything, I did not regret my choice.

I would rather have Jesus and nothing else than have everything else without Jesus.

And in my desperation, in the darkest moment of my life, I felt his presence more strongly than ever before.

I felt his peace that surpasses understanding filling my heart.

I felt him whispering to my spirit that he would never leave me, never forsake me, that he was with me in this darkness, that he understood my pain because he too had been rejected by his own people.

I had stepped fully into the light, even though it meant walking through the darkest valley of my life.

The persecution was about to begin.

But so was the greatest adventure of my life.

Learning what it truly meant to follow Jesus, to take up my cross daily, to lose my life in order to find it.

And I would discover that Jesus was not just sufficient for my suffering.

He was glorious in it.

His presence in my pain would be more precious than anything prosperity could offer.

His companionship in persecution would be sweeter than any earthly comfort.

The cost was high.

But Jesus was worth it.

He was worth everything.

The news of my conversion spread through our neighborhood like fire through dry grass faster than I could have imagined.

My wife told her mother that very night.

Her mother, shocked and horrified, told relatives.

Relatives told friends.

friends told their families.

Within two days, everyone in our community knew that the young cleric from the local mosque had become a Christian.

Within 3 days, it had spread to other mosques in Baghdad.

Within a week, I was infamous.

The mosque leadership called an emergency meeting.

Five senior clerics sat across from me in a small office at the mosque.

Their faces ranging from confusion to disgust to what looked like genuine concern.

The oldest among them, Shik Abdul Rahman, the same man I had consulted about my dreams many months before, sat in the center.

He was 73 years old, white beard to his chest, deep lines in his face, eyes that had seen wars and revolutions.

He looked at me like I was a stranger, not the boy he had known since childhood, not the young cleric he had mentored and praised.

He asked me to explain myself.

He asked if I had lost my mind, if I was under some kind of spiritual attack or jin possession, if someone had deceived me or bribed me or threatened me.

His voice carried a note of desperate hope, as if he wanted me to give him an explanation that would make sense, that would allow them to fix this problem and restore me.

I told them calmly with as much respect as I could manage that I had encountered Jesus Christ that he had revealed himself to me as the son of God and the savior of the world that I had studied the Bible and found truth there that I could not deny.

I told them I had not lost my mind or been deceived or been bribed.

I had simply found the truth and I could not pretend otherwise.

Shik Abdul Rahman, this man who had known me since I was a boy, who had celebrated when I became a cleric, looked at me with tears in his eyes.

He said I was throwing away my life, my family, my place in paradise.

He begged me to reconsider, to repent, to return to Islam.

He said if I publicly recanted within 3 days before Friday prayers, they would forgive this episode and restore me to my position.

He said no one would have to know the full details.

I could say I had been confused, tested by Satan, but had returned to the straight path.

They would welcome me back.

For a moment I was tempted it would be so easy.

Three days of pretending, one statement of recantation, and I could have my life back.

I could see my children again.

I could avoid the persecution I knew was coming.

I could live in peace instead of danger.

But then I remembered Jesus in my dreams, the love in his eyes, the scars on his wrists.

I remembered the words I had read.

What good is it for someone to gain the whole world yet forfeit their soul? I remembered my baptism, my brothers and sisters in the house church, the truth that had set me free.

And I knew I could not deny him.

I would rather die than deny Jesus.

I told Shik Abdul Rahman with all the respect I could muster that I could not do that.

I told him I had found the right path and it was Jesus.

I said I was sorry to disappoint him, sorry for the pain this caused, but I could not deny what I knew to be true.

The kindness left his face like a lamp being extinguished.

The other clerics began to speak, their voices rising in anger.

They called me a mertad, an apostate.

They called me a traitor to Islam, to Iraq, to my people.

They said my blood was now halal, permitted to be shed according to Islamic law.

They formally removed me from my position.

They said I was no longer welcome in the mosque, that I should not show my face in that place again.

They said they would inform the community that I was to be shunned, that no Muslim should do business with me, speak with me, or help me in any way.

As I left that meeting, one of the younger clerics, someone who had been friendly to me before, someone I had considered almost a friend, spat at my feet.

The spittle landed on my shoes, and he looked at me with such hatred that I barely recognized him.

I walked home through streets where I had lived my entire life, and people who had known me for years turned their backs when they saw me coming.

Shop owners who had greeted me warmly before looked away.

Neighbors crossed the street to avoid passing near me.

I was being erased from my community while still walking through it.

The next day, a group of men came to my house.

They were not from the mosque leadership.

They were young men from the neighborhood, zealous, angry, looking for righteous violence to prove their devotion to Islam.

They pounded on my door, shouting insults, calling me a traitor and a caffier.

When I did not answer, they began throwing rocks at my windows, breaking several.

I hid inside, praying, asking Jesus for protection, feeling fear grip my chest like a physical hand.

I could hear them outside, perhaps eight or 10 of them.

Their voices raised in rage.

They shouted that they would burn my house with me inside it.

They shouted that I deserved to die for turning away from Islam.

They shouted that they would find me eventually, that I could not hide forever, that they would make an example of me so that no one else would be tempted to follow my path.

After about 30 minutes, they left, but they promised to return.

They said I could not hide forever, that they would be watching, waiting for an opportunity.

I sat in my damaged house, glass scattered across the floor, my hands shaking, my heart pounding, and I understood for the first time what it meant to be persecuted for Christ’s name.

That night, I contacted Dwood through a secret number he had given me for emergencies.

He said I needed to leave my house immediately, that it was not safe for me to stay there any longer.

He said the house church had a safe location where I could stay temporarily a believer who was willing to hide me despite the enormous risk it posed to herself and her family.

I gathered a few belongings, some clothes, my Bible, a picture of my children that I could not bear to leave behind.

I left the house where I had lived with my family, where my children had been born, where I had shared meals and prayers and ordinary life.

I left it behind and fled into the night like a criminal, though I had committed no crime except believing in Jesus.

The safe house was in a different neighborhood across Baghdad, the home of a widow named Miriam.

She was an older Christian woman perhaps in her 60s whose husband had been killed during the sectarian violence years before.

He had been a deacon in their church, a gentle man who ran a small grocery store.

One day militants came and shot him in his store simply because he was Christian.

Despite her own suffering, despite the danger, despite having every reason to be afraid, Miriam opened her home to me without hesitation.

She gave me a small room, barely more than a closet, really, with just enough space for a mat to sleep on.

She shared her food with me, though she had little.

She treated me like a son, with kindness and care.

She would knock gently on my door in the morning with tea and bread.

She would sit with me in the evenings and tell me stories of the old days when Christians and Muslims lived together more peacefully in Baghdad.

When her husband’s store had customers from both faiths, when neighbors helped each other regardless of religion.

I stayed there for 3 weeks, barely leaving the house, living in constant fear of discovery.

I stayed in my room during the day, reading my Bible, praying, sometimes crying from the pain of separation from my children.

At night, I would sit with Miriam in her small living room, and she would teach me about faith, about trusting God in the midst of suffering, about the long history of Christian persecution.

During this time, I tried repeatedly to contact my wife to see my children.

I sent messages through intermediaries.

I tried calling, though she never answered.

Finally, her family sent word through someone that if I truly loved my children, I would stay away from them.

They said I was a corrupted man, a bad influence, dangerous to their spiritual well-being.

They said my children were being told that I had lost my mind, that I was sick, that I might never recover.

They were not being told I had become a Christian.

That would be too shameful to admit.

But they were being told I was no longer the father they knew.

The pain of this rejection was worse than any physical persecution I faced.

I would lie awake at night thinking of my children wondering what they were being told about me, whether they missed me, whether they thought I had abandoned them, whether I would ever see them again.

I mourned like someone had died because in a sense they had the life I had known the family I had built was dead and could never be resurrected.

My oldest son would be learning the Quran now just as I had at his age.

My second son would be following his brother’s path.

My daughter would be taught to cover herself to be obedient to prepare for marriage to a good Muslim man.

They would grow up being taught that Christianity was false, that their father had been led astray by Satan, that he had broken their family through his selfishness and weakness.

This thought caused me more pain than anything else.

Not just that I had lost them, but that they would be taught to see me as the villain, as the one who destroyed our family when all I had done was find the truth and refused to deny it.

But in that darkness, Jesus was so present.

When I prayed, I felt him near, felt his understanding, felt his comfort.

When I read the Bible, his words brought strength and hope.

I read in Matthew where Jesus said that anyone who loves father or mother or son or daughter more than him is not worthy of him.

I read where he said that whoever loses his life for his sake will find it.

I read where he promised that anyone who leaves house or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children for his name’s sake will receive a hundfold and inherit eternal life.

These were not just words on a page.

They were promises, and I clung to them like a drowning man clings to a rope.

The house church became my new family during this time.

They visited me regularly at Miriam’s house, always careful, always watching to make sure they were not followed.

They brought me food and supplies.

They brought me fellowship and encouragement.

They prayed with me and over me, laying hands on me and asking God to strengthen me, protect me, fill me with the Holy Spirit.

They shared their own stories of suffering and loss, showing me I was not alone in this experience.

One evening, a brother named Karim shared his story with me.

He was about 40 years old with sad eyes and a gentle voice.

He had been a successful businessman married with four children.

When he converted to Christianity 5 years earlier, his wife divorced him, took the children, and moved to another city.

He was not allowed to contact them, was not given any information about where they were.

His parents held a funeral for him while he was still alive, declaring him dead to the family.

He lost his business because no one would work with a Christian convert.

For a time he lived on the street, homeless and hungry.

But he said with tears streaming down his face, but with joy in his voice that he would not trade his relationship with Jesus for anything in the world.

He said the suffering was light and momentary compared to the eternal glory that awaited.

He said Jesus had given him a new family in the church, a new purpose in serving other converts, a new life that was more abundant than the old one ever was.

He said he had never been happier, never been more at peace, never been more certain of God’s love than he was now.

Hearing his story and many others like it from the brothers and sisters in the house church gave me courage.

If they could endure such suffering and still follow Jesus with joy, so could I.

If Jesus was enough for them in their darkest valleys, he would be enough for me.

If they could testify that Jesus was worth the cost, then I could trust that my own suffering would prove the same.

After about a month of hiding at Miriam’s house, reality set in.

I could not live in her small room forever.

I had no income, no prospects for work in Baghdad, where I was now infamous, and no way to safely move about the city.

I was effectively trapped, unable to work, unable to worship openly, unable to live a normal life.

The little money I had saved from my time as a cleric was running out.

Dood and the church leaders met with me to discuss options.

They said there were organizations that helped persecuted Christians escape from Iraq to safer countries.

They said many converts had fled to Jordan, Lebanon, Turkey, even to Europe and America.

They said I should seriously consider leaving Iraq entirely, starting a new life, somewhere I could live openly as a Christian, where I could worship freely and work to support myself.

The thought of leaving my country, my culture, my language, everything familiar filled me with grief that felt like a physical weight.

Iraq was my home.

Baghdad was the city where I was born, where I had grown up, where every street held memories.

Arabic was the language of my heart, the language in which I thought and dreamed.

Iraqi culture, despite its problems, was my culture.

The food, the music, the customs, these were part of who I was.

And leaving would mean accepting that I would probably never see my children again.

If I left Iraq, the distance would become permanent.

They would grow up without me.

They would forget what I looked like.

They would know me only as the father who abandoned them, who chose a foreign religion over his own family.

I prayed about this decision for several days.

I asked Jesus to show me what to do to give me clear direction.

And in prayer, I felt a sense, not a voice, but a clear impression on my spirit that I needed to stay in Iraq.

Not in Baghdad, which was too dangerous, but somewhere in Iraq.

I felt that God had a purpose for me here among my own people, that my story could be used to reach other Muslims who were searching for truth.

I shared this with Dwood and he nodded slowly as if he had expected this response.

He said he had felt the same thing from the Lord when he prayed for me.

He said there was a possibility in the northern region of Iraq in an area with more Kurdish influence and a larger Christian population where I might be able to live more safely and even minister to other converts.

It would still be dangerous.

Nowhere in Iraq was truly safe for a Muslim convert, but less so than Baghdad.

There were house churches in that region that were growing that needed teachers and leaders who understood Islam and could disciple new believers from Muslim backgrounds.

We made plans for my journey north.

It would have to be done carefully secretly to avoid being tracked by family members or religious authorities who might want to silence me permanently.

The church helped arrange transportation, gave me a new identity documents they had obtained through connections, provided money for travel and initial living expenses.

But before I could leave, something happened that I had not expected.

My father came to see me.

One afternoon, Miriam knocked on my door and said there was a man outside asking for me.

My heart jumped into my throat.

Was it someone coming to attack me? She said the man said he was my father, that he had been searching for me, that he needed to speak with me.

I was shocked.

How had he found me, and why would he come? I went to the door cautiously, ready to run if this was a trap.

But there stood my father, alone, looking older than I remembered.

He had aged years in just weeks.

His face was lined with stress and sorrow.

His shoulders, once strong and straight, were slumped.

He looked at me with an expression I could not read.

Pain certainly, but also something else.

For a long moment we just looked at each other, father and son.

The man who had raised me in Islam, who had taught me to pray, who had been so proud when I became a cleric, and the son who had shattered all his hopes and dreams.

Then he spoke.

He said, “My mother was sick with grief over what I had done, that she cried every day, that she barely ate or spoke.

” He said my wife and children were staying with them and the children asked about me constantly, especially at night when they could not sleep.

He said I had brought shame on our entire family that relatives would not visit anymore, that neighbors whispered behind their backs, that our family name was now associated with apostasy.

But then his voice broke, his eyes filled with tears.

He said he came because despite everything, I was still his son.

He said he wanted to understand what had happened to me.

He said he needed to hear from my own mouth.

Why I had done this terrible thing, why I had thrown away everything he had taught me, everything he had hoped to for me.

We sat in Miriam’s courtyard, just the two of us, and I told him everything.

I told him about the dreams that had started over a year ago.

Dreams so vivid and real that I could not dismiss them.

I told him about Yousef and the peace I had seen in him after his son’s murder.

A piece that came from something I did not have.

I told him about secretly reading the Bible and encountering Jesus in those pages.

Not just a prophet as Islam taught, but the son of God who died for humanity’s sins.

I told him about the house church and the believers who had welcomed me and taught me.

I told him about my baptism, about the moment I surrendered to Jesus and felt his love and peace fill me completely.

I told him that Jesus had given me a peace and joy and certainty that Islam never had.

That I finally understood what it meant to have a relationship with God rather than just following religious rules.

I told him that for the first time in my life, I knew with absolute certainty that I was forgiven, that I was loved unconditionally, that I had eternal life, not because of what I had done, but because of what Jesus had done for me.

My father listened without interrupting.

When I finished, he sat in silence for a long time, staring at his hands, his brow furrowed in thought.

Then he said something I will never forget.

He said that when I was a small boy, before I started religious school, I had been joyful and playful and full of life.

He said he remembered me laughing, running, playing with other children, curious about everything.

He said, “As I grew older and more devoted to Islam, I had become serious, rigid, burdened.

The joy had slowly drained out of me, replaced by duty and obligation and fear of falling short.

He said he had thought this was maturity, the necessary soberness of a religious man.

But just now talking about this Jesus, he had seen glimpses of that joyful child again in my face.

He said, “My eyes had light in them.

” When I spoke of Jesus, light that had been missing for years.

Then he stood up to leave.

I asked him if he was angry with me.

He said he did not know what he felt, that he was confused and hurt and disappointed, that everything he believed was being challenged, that he needed time to think.

He said he could not accept what I had done, that he still believed Islam was the truth.

He said he would continue to pray to Allah for my return, for my healing from this madness.

But he also said something else.

He said that despite everything, I was still his son.

He said he could not stop loving me even though what I had done broke his heart.

He said our relationship could never be the same.

That there was now a wall between us that he did not know how to cross.

But he was glad he had come, glad he had heard my story in my own words.

He left without embracing me, without giving me his blessing, but without cursing me either.

It was not reconciliation, but it was not complete rejection.

It was something in between, painful, complicated, unresolved, but for that moment of connection.

For those words acknowledging I was still his son, I was grateful.

It was more than I had expected, more than most converts ever received.

That conversation with my father was the last time I saw anyone from my family before I left Baghdad.

A week later, under cover of darkness, I left the city where I had spent my entire life.

Dwood and another brother drove me north in an old car, traveling through the night, passing through checkpoints where I hid under blankets in the back seat, my heart pounding every time the car stopped, praying we would not be discovered.

The journey took nearly 12 hours.

By the time we reached our destination, a small city in northern Iraq with a larger Kurdish and Christian population, dawn was breaking.

They dropped me at a safe house where other believers were waiting to welcome me, to help me start this new phase of my life.

As I watched the car drive away, taking my brothers back to Baghdad, I felt utterly alone.

Everything familiar was behind me.

Everything ahead was unknown.

I had no family, no friends, no job, no home of my own.

I was a refugee in my own country, a stranger in a strange land.

But I was free.

Free to follow Jesus openly in this new place.

Free to worship without hiding.

Free to grow in faith.

Free from the burden of hypocrisy and lies.

free to be who I truly was, a child of God, a follower of Christ, saved by grace.

The cost had been enormous, but Jesus was proving himself sufficient.

His presence filled the void left by everything I had lost.

His love was more precious than family approval.

His peace was deeper than any comfort this world could offer.

And my story, my suffering was just beginning to bear fruit in ways I could not yet imagine.

3 years passed in my new life in northern Iraq.

3 years of learning what it meant to follow Jesus in a hostile environment, of growing in faith through trials, of discovering that suffering can produce perseverance, perseverance character, and character hope.

I was now 35 years old and I had become a different person from the young cleric who once led prayers at the mosque in Baghdad.

That old life felt like it belonged to someone else, a character in a story I had once read but could barely remember.

In those three years, I witnessed something that I can only describe as miraculous.

The movement of Muslims to Christianity grew at a pace that seemed impossible by any human measure.

What had been whispered about in secret was becoming harder to hide, even though Islamic authorities tried desperately to suppress any information about it.

The house churches were multiplying so rapidly that leaders could barely keep track of them all.

I found work doing simple labor, construction, loading trucks, whatever I could find.

It was hard physical work, exhausting work, a huge step down from my position as a cleric.

I went from being respected and honored to being just another poor laborer, anonymous, and insignificant in the eyes of the world.

My hands, which had only held books and prayer beads, became calloused and rough from hauling bricks and mixing cement.

My back achd from lifting and carrying.

I lived in a tiny room barely big enough for a mat to sleep on, with a single window in the door that did not lock properly.

But I was free.

Free to attend church services openly, even if we still had to be cautious about when and where we met.

Free to worship Jesus without hiding.

To pray with other believers without fear, to study the Bible together without meeting in basement like criminals, free to be who I truly was.

In this new place, I found a small community of believers that included several other former Muslims like myself.

For the first time since my conversion, I could fellowship with people who understood exactly what I had been through, who had paid the same price, who carried the same scars.

We became family to each other in the deepest sense, bonded not just by shared faith, but by shared suffering.

The pastor of our church was himself a former Imam who had converted years before my own journey.

His name was Ibraim, though he had taken a Christian name, Peter, when he was baptized.

He was in his 50s with gray streaking his black beard, deep lines around his eyes that spoke of both sorrow and joy.

He had been leading this church for 8 years.

And he told me that in that time he had seen the underground Christian movement in Iraq grow from a few scattered believers to thousands, possibly tens of thousands.

He said the same thing was happening all across the Middle East.

In Iran, the growth was even more dramatic.

Conservative estimates suggested over a million secret believers, though the real number might be much higher.

In Algeria, tens of thousands of Berbers were converting.

In Egypt, alongside the ancient Coptic Christian community, thousands of Muslims were secretly coming to faith.

in Saudi Arabia where the penalty for conversion was death, where Bibles were strictly forbidden, where Christian symbols could not be displayed even by foreign workers, even their underground house churches were forming.

He said that some mission organizations were estimating that millions of Muslims across the Middle East and North Africa had come to Christ in the last decade.

The exact number was impossible to know because most conversions happened quietly secretly known only to God and a few trusted believers.

But the trend was undeniable.

The movement real and growing something unprecedented in 1400 years of Islamic history was happening in our generation.

What struck me most as I ministered alongside Ibraim was the age of the converts.

The majority were young people, teenagers, university students, young professionals in their 20s and 30s.

This was the generation that had grown up with internet access, with satellite television, with smartphones and social media.

They had the ability to question, to search, to find information that previous generations never had access to.

They were not content with the answers their imams and parents gave them.

They were hungry for truth and they were finding Jesus.

One evening at our weekly gathering which had grown to over 40 people, a young woman named Leila stood up to share her testimony.

She was 23 years old, a university student studying engineering.

She wore a headscarf, still not from religious conviction, but from practical necessity to show up at university without it would invite harassment and questions from her family.

She told us that she had been a devout Muslim, praying five times a day, fasting during Ramadan, following all the rules carefully, but she had questions that troubled her deeply.

She wanted to know why the Quran spoke so violently about unbelievers, calling for them to be killed or subdued.

She wanted to know why women were treated as lesser than men in Islamic law.

Why a woman’s testimony was worth only half a man’s, why women were told they were deficient in intelligence and religion.

She wanted to know why there was so much division and violence between different Muslim groups if Islam was truly the religion of peace.

She wanted to know why Allah seemed so distant, so unknowable, so focused on punishment rather than love.

Her imam told her these were not appropriate questions for a woman to ask.

Her father told her to stop thinking so much and focus on being a good Muslim wife when she married.

But she could not stop the questions.

So she began searching online secretly late at night on her phone after her family was asleep.

She found websites that explained Islam’s history, including things that were not taught in mosques, the violence, the conquests, the treatment of conquered peoples.

She found debates between Muslims and Christians that showed her Christianity was not what she had been told it was.

She found testimonies of former Muslims who had become Christians and their stories resonated with her own questions and doubts.

Then she found a website that offered a free New Testament in Arabic.

She downloaded it to her phone and began reading it in secret.

The sermon on the mount shocked her.

She had never heard anything like it.

This teaching about loving your enemies, about blessing those who curse you, about the kingdom of heaven belonging to the poor in spirit.

This was not about rules and external righteousness.

This was about transformation from the inside out.

The parables of Jesus about God’s love and grace moved her deeply.

The story of the prodigal son where the father runs to embrace his weward child and throws a celebration.

This was a picture of God she had never seen in Islam.

The story of the woman caught in adultery where Jesus refused to condemn her but told her to sin no more.

This showed a balance of truth and grace that Islam never offered.

And then, like so many others, she had a dream.

Jesus appeared to her dressed in white, radiating love and peace.

He told her not to be afraid, that she was seeking the truth and would find it.

He told her he loved her and had died for her.

When she woke up, she was weeping, overwhelmed by a love she had never experienced.

She eventually found our network through Christian websites, through encrypted messages and secret contacts designed to protect both the seeker and the believers.

When she came to our meeting for the first time, she was terrified, looking over her shoulder, constantly convinced someone had followed her.

By the end of the night, after hearing the gospel explained clearly, after having her questions answered with patience and biblical truth, she had prayed to receive Jesus as her Lord and Savior.

Two weeks later, we baptized her in secret late at night in a believer’s home.

She still had not told her family.

She was still pretending to be a faithful Muslim.

She still faced the possibility of honor killing if her conversion was discovered.

But she said with tears of joy streaming down her face that she had never been happier, never known such peace, never felt so loved.

Jesus was worth the risk.

Jesus was worth everything.

Her story was being repeated thousands of times across the Islamic world.

Young Muslims were questioning, searching, finding Jesus and being transformed.

The internet had broken the monopoly that Islam had on information in these countries.

Satellite TV channels were broadcasting Christian programming in Arabic and Farsy and other languages, reaching into homes where Christian presence had been forbidden.

Bible apps on smartphones meant anyone could secretly read scripture without the risk of being caught with a physical Bible.

But perhaps the most powerful factor in this awakening was the dreams and visions.

This phenomenon had become so widespread that even Islamic leaders could not ignore it or explain it away.

I personally met dozens of people, maybe over a hundred in those three years, whose journey to faith started with a dream of Jesus.

The dreams were remarkably similar across different countries, cultures, and backgrounds.

Jesus appeared in white, radiating love and peace.

He called people by name.

He told them he loved them and died for them.

He identified himself clearly not as just a prophet but as the son of God as the way, the truth and the life.

He invited people to follow him to come to him for rest and peace.

A young man named Hassan told us he had seen Jesus in a dream before he knew anything about Christianity, before he had ever read the Bible, before he had even met a Christian.

In the dream, Jesus showed him the scars on his hands and side and told him these were proof of his love.

Hassan woke up confused, not understanding what the dream meant.

He eventually found believers who explained that Jesus died on the cross, that he was pierced for our transgressions, that his wounds purchased our healing.

An older man who had been a soldier who had fought in wars and killed people told us he was haunted by guilt and nightmares of the men he had killed.

Then Jesus appeared to him in a dream and said the words from Matthew’s gospel, “Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.

” The man had never read those words, had never heard them before, but they burned into his heart.

He searched for months to find Christians who could tell him how to know this Jesus from his dream.

How to find the rest he promised.

A teenage girl from a strict religious family saw Jesus standing in her room one night.

She was not asleep.

This was not a dream but a vision.

She saw him with her physical eyes as real as any person.

He spoke to her in Arabic and told her she was precious to him, that he had plans for her life, that she should not be afraid to follow him.

She thought she was losing her mind.

But when she secretly searched online and found hundreds of testimonies of other Muslims who had seen Jesus, she realized God was calling her.

These were not isolated incidents.

These were happening all across the Muslim world with such frequency that it had become impossible to dismiss as coincidence or imagination or mass hysteria.

Islamic scholars tried to explain it away as tricks of Satan as jin masquerading as Jesus as wishful thinking or western propaganda somehow invading people’s subconscious.

But the reality could not be denied.

Jesus was supernaturally revealing himself to Muslims in their dreams and visions.

Why was this happening now after 1400 years of Islamic dominance in these regions? I believe it is the fulfillment of prophecy, the work of the Holy Spirit in the last days, the harvest that Jesus spoke about when he said, “The fields are white for harvest.

” I believe God is calling the descendants of Ishmael back to himself.

That he is showing his love for Arabs and Persians and Turks.

That he is reclaiming the lands where Christianity was born.

But there were also practical reasons why the movement was accelerating.

Muslims were becoming disillusioned with Islam.

They saw the violence committed in the name of Allah, the terrorism, the beheadings, the treatment of women as property, the oppression of minorities, the endless sectarian conflicts between Sunni and Shia.

Many young Muslims were asking themselves, “Is this really what God wants? Is this really the religion of peace? Is this really the straight path?” They saw the empty ritualism of Islamic practice.

the focus on external conformity while hearts remained unchanged.

They saw religious leaders who were corrupt, who used Islam for political power and personal gain, who lived in luxury while preaching simplicity.

They saw the fearbased nature of Islamic faith, fear of punishment, fear of hell, fear of God’s wrath, fear of community judgment for any deviation.

and they were hungry for something different, something real, something that actually transformed lives.

When the searching Muslims encountered Christianity, they found a stark contrast.

They found a God who loves unconditionally, who offers grace freely, who calls people into relationship rather than mere obedience.

They found Jesus who said, “Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.

” Such a different message from the heavy burdened of Islamic law with its countless rules and regulations.

They found assurance of salvation rather than uncertainty.

In Islam, you can never know if you have done enough to earn paradise.

Even Muhammad himself said he did not know if he would go to paradise.

Even the most devout Muslim lives in doubt, hoping their good deeds outweigh their bad.

Never certain, always anxious.

But in Christianity, you can know with certainty that you are saved, that your sins are forgiven, that your name is written in the Lamb’s book of life, that nothing can separate you from the love of God in Christ Jesus.

They found the value and dignity of women.

Jesus treated women with respect that was radical for his time and remains radical in Islamic cultures today.

He taught women, allowed them to be his disciples, appeared first to women after his resurrection.

The early church included women as ministers, as teachers, as leaders.

Christianity offers women freedom and equality and value that Islam denies.

They found answers to their intellectual questions.

Christianity has a rich tradition of philosophy and theology, of engaging with hard questions, of welcoming honest doubt and struggle.

Islam often responds to questions with assertions of authority and demands for blind submission.

But Christianity invites investigation, encourages seeking, promises that those who seek will find.

Most powerfully they found the person of Jesus himself.

Not just a prophet among many prophets, not just a teacher among many teachers, but God made flesh, who loved humanity enough to die for us, who conquered death and [snorts] offers us eternal life.

The character of Jesus as revealed in the Gospels is so compelling, so beautiful, so unlike any other religious figure that Muslims who honestly study his life often find themselves falling in love with him despite themselves.

I saw this transformation happen again and again in those three years.

Muslims who came to faith did not just change their religious label.

Their entire countenance changed.

The fear left their eyes.

Joy entered their hearts.

Hardness softened.

Anger turned to peace.

They experienced the freedom that comes from knowing Christ.

And it was visible to everyone around them.

It was like watching people come alive, like watching prisoners being released from chains they had worn so long.

They had forgotten what freedom felt like.

But this awakening was not happening without fierce opposition.

As the number of converts grew, as the phenomenon became harder to hide, Islamic authorities across the Muslim world began to take more aggressive action.

Governments implemented harsher laws against apostasy.

In some countries, the penalty for converting from Islam was officially death.

In others, it was long imprisonment, torture, forced psychiatric treatment based on the claim that anyone who left Islam must be insane.

Imams preached increasingly aggressive sermons warning about the danger of Christianity, about Western conspiracies to destroy Islam, about the eternal punishment awaiting those who left the faith.

Families became more vigilant about monitoring, their children’s internet usage and social contacts.

Young people found their phones being searched, their computers being monitored, their movements being tracked, honor killings of converts became more common.

I heard stories that broke my heart and filled me with rage at the same time.

Adept young woman in Iran poisoned by her own father for becoming a Christian.

He put poison in her food at dinner and she died in agony while he watched believing he was defending family honor and Islamic faith.

A teenage boy in Afghanistan beaten to death by his uncles for refusing to recant his faith in Jesus.

A university student in Egypt who simply disappeared one day.

Her body was later found in the Nile River, her hands and feet bound, drowned by family members who could not bear the shame of having an apostate in their midst.

Islamic leaders and governments tried to stem the tide of conversions through various methods.

They organized massive da’wa campaigns, sending Muslim missionaries to reIslamize Muslims who were drifting or doubting.

They flooded social media with anti-Christian propaganda with videos and articles designed to refute Christianity and keep Muslims from questioning their faith.

They created sophisticated websites with arguments against Christianity with explanations for why Islam was superior with warnings about the dangers of leaving Islam.

Some countries blocked Christian websites and banned Christian apps.

Others invested heavily in monitoring internet activity using advanced technology to track who was visiting Christian sites, who was downloading Bibles, who was watching Christian videos.

Saudi Arabia and Iran especially became experts at cyber surveillance, catching secret believers through their digital footprints and arresting them.

But all these efforts were failing to stop the movement.

You cannot stop the wind with your hands.

You cannot hold back the tide with a wall of sand.

The Holy Spirit’s work cannot be hindered by human opposition.

The more Islamic authorities tried to suppress Christianity, the more Muslims became curious about what they were so desperate to hide.

The blood of martyrs became the seed of the church just as it had in the first centuries of Christianity when Rome tried to stamp out this new faith through persecution.

I met a man whose brother had been executed for converting to Christianity in Iran.

The execution was public, meant to intimidate others, to send a clear message that apostasy would not be tolerated, that anyone who left Islam would face the ultimate penalty.

But instead of intimidating people, the brothers courage and peace in the face of death caused several members of the extended family to start questioning Islam.

How could a dead religion produce such courage? How could a false faith give such peace at the moment of death? Within a year, three family members had secretly converted.

The authorities attempt at intimidation had backfired completely.

The martyr’s death had planted seeds of faith in his own family.

This pattern repeated across the Muslim world.

Persecution was intended to stop the spread of Christianity.

But instead, it was fueling curiosity and confirming to many Muslims that Islam was a religion of violence and fear, while Christianity was a faith worth dying for.

People noticed that Christians died with peace and forgiveness, while Muslims died with curses and rage.

They noticed that Christian martyrs prayed for their executioners while Muslim martyrs cursed their enemies.

Islamic leaders knew they were fighting a losing battle.

In private conversations that leaked out through various channels, some admitted that the situation was out of control, that they did not know how to stop what they called the hemorraing of believers from Islam.

Some predicted that if current trends continued, significant portions of the Middle East could be Christian majority within a generation or two.

This prospect terrified them.

Islam’s power was built on geographic dominance, controlling the Arabian Peninsula, controlling the holy cities of Mecca and Medina, controlling the lands of ancient Islamic empires.

If these regions became Christian, the entire foundation of Islamic authority would collapse.

The psychological impact would be devastating.

How could Islam claim to be the final superior religion if its heartland returned to Christianity? So, they increased their efforts to hide the reality from the rest of the world.

International media rarely reported on the conversion phenomenon because Islamic countries controlled the information and Western media was often reluctant to tell stories that might be seen as Islamophobic.

Islamic countries certainly did not publish statistics on how many Muslims were leaving Islam.

They presented a facade of Islamic unity and strength to the outside world while secretly panicking about the mass exodus happening within their borders.

But those of us within the underground church knew the truth.

We lived it every day.

We saw lives transformed.

We saw families slowly turning to Christ, sometimes one member at a time over years.

We saw entire villages in some regions where Christianity was spreading through kinship networks where cousins would convert and then share with other cousins who would share with their siblings until extended families had multiple secret believers.

We saw that ancient prophecies were being fulfilled before our eyes.

Isaiah’s vision of a highway from Egypt to Assyria, of Egyptians and Assyrians worshiping together, of God calling Egypt my people and Assyria my handiwork.

This was coming to pass in our generation.

The Psalms that spoke of Arabia and Khedar and the desert tribes praising the Lord were being literally fulfilled.

The Middle East, which had been the birthplace of Christianity before Islam swept through and suppressed it for 14 centuries, was experiencing a resurrection of faith.

And I knew with absolute certainty that comes from seeing God’s hand at work, that this was only the beginning.

The awakening was accelerating, not slowing down.

The rate of conversions was increasing, not decreasing.

The future of the Middle East was Christian.

Not because of political or military power, not because of Western influence or colonialism, but because Jesus himself was calling his sheep and they were hearing his voice.

I began to understand during this time that my role in this movement was to tell the story to testify to what God was doing to encourage both the secret believers in the Middle East who felt alone and isolated and Christians around the world who needed to know that God was moving powerfully in the Muslim world.

My suffering, my loss of family and position, the price I had paid, all of it had meaning and purpose.

I was a witness to the greatest move of God in the Islamic world in over a thousand years.

And I knew that eventually I would need to speak more publicly, to share my testimony more widely, to let the world know what was happening behind the closed doors of Islamic countries.

The truth could not remain hidden forever.

The light of Christ was shining in the darkness and the darkness could not overcome it.

It is now early 2025 and I am sitting in a place where I can finally tell my story openly to the world.

I am no longer in Iraq.

After years of prayer, careful consideration and counsel from church leaders who became like family to me, I made the difficult decision to leave my homeland so I could speak publicly about what is happening without putting other believers at risk.

The specific details of how I left and where I am now must remain private for security reasons.

There are still people who would kill me if they could find me.

And I must protect the network of believers who helped me escape.

But I am safe.

I am free.

And I have a platform to share what God is doing.

Looking back on my journey from cleric to convert, from respected religious leader to persecuted refugee, from servant of Islam to follower of Christ, I am overwhelmed with gratitude that fills my chest until I can barely breathe.

Yes, I have lost much.

I have lost my family, my homeland, my career, my reputation, my comfort, my security.

Everything that defined my identity in the eyes of the world has been stripped away.

But I have gained infinitely more than I lost.

I have gained Jesus.

I have gained eternal life.

I have gained peace and joy and purpose beyond anything I ever knew in Islam.

I have gained brothers and sisters in Christ from every nation.

I have gained freedom from the fear that dominated my life as a Muslim.

Every morning I wake up and thank God for rescuing me from darkness and bringing me into his marvelous light.

Every day I am amazed that he would love me enough to pursue me relentlessly, to send dreams and visions when I was lost, to orchestrate circumstances and bring people across my path to lead me to himself.

I was his enemy, a servant of a false religion, actively teaching others to reject the true Savior.

Yet he loved me anyway.

He died for me on the cross when I was still his enemy.

He called me by name when I did not even know his name.

He never gave up on me.

This is the gospel, the good news that has transformed my life and is transforming millions of lives across the Muslim world at this very moment.

It is not about religion or rules or ritual.

It is not about being good enough or doing enough good deeds.

It is about a relationship with the living God through Jesus Christ.

It is about grace instead of law.

Love instead of fear.

Knowing with certainty that you are a child of God rather than living in constant uncertainty about your eternal fate.

It is about forgiveness and freedom and new life.

I need to speak directly now to different groups of people who might be hearing my story.

First to my Muslim brothers and sisters who are watching or listening, especially those who are questioning, doubting, searching for truth in the darkness.

I understand you completely.

I was you.

I walked in your shoes.

I know the fears that keep you awake at night.

The questions you are afraid to ask out loud.

The doubts you push down because acknowledging them feels like betrayal.

I know the weight of family expectations pressing down on you like a physical burden.

I know the terror of even considering that Islam might not be the truth.

Because considering that possibility means your entire world view could collapse.

But I am telling you from experience from the other side of that terrifying journey that Jesus is worth it.

Every question you have burning in your heart, he can answer.

Every doubt you feel eating at your faith, he can resolve.

Every fear you carry like stones in your pockets, he can remove.

He is not asking you to change your culture or betray your people or become western.

He is simply asking you to know him personally, to let him love you with an unconditional love you have never experienced.

to accept the free gift of salvation he offers with open hands.

If you are having dreams about a man in white, about someone who radiates love and peace, about Jesus calling you by name, do not dismiss them as coincidence or stress or your imagination.

God is speaking to you directly.

The creator of the universe is pursuing you personally.

If you are curious about the Bible, about what it really says instead of what you have been told it says, then read it for yourself.

You can download it secretly on your phone where no one else can see.

You can read it late at night when everyone is asleep.

You can search for truth without anyone knowing.

And I encourage you to pray a simple, honest prayer.

Jesus, if you are real, if you are truly the son of God, show me the truth.

I want to know what is real.

I want to know the way to heaven.

I promise you from my own experience and from the testimonies of millions of others, he will answer that prayer.

He is seeking you even more than you are seeking him.

He loves you with an everlasting love.

He is the good shepherd who leaves the 99 to find the one lost sheep.

And when you find him, when you surrender your life to him, you will discover the peace and joy and purpose you have been searching for your entire life.

I know the cost.

I am not standing here telling you it will be easy or painless or without sacrifice.

You might lose your family like I did.

You might face persecution, rejection, violence.

You might have to flee your home and live as a refugee.

I am not minimizing the price or pretending the road is smooth.

But I am telling you with complete honesty, with tears in my eyes as I speak these words, Jesus is worth it a thousand times over, 10,000 times over.

He is worth everything you might lose.

I would rather have Jesus and nothing else than have the whole world without him.

Do not wait for the perfect time because it will never come.

Do not wait until circumstances are easier because they might never be easier.

Tomorrow is not promised to any of us.

Today is the day of salvation.

Right now, wherever you are sitting or standing, whatever time of day it is, you can pray and ask Jesus to be your Lord and Savior.

You can confess your sins and receive his forgiveness.

You can be born again and become a child of God.

It is that simple.

Not easy, but simple.

Jesus has done all the work.

You just need to receive the gift.

Second, to Christians around the world who are hearing my story, I need you to know what is happening in the Muslim world right now.

I need you to understand that God is moving in ways that are difficult to believe unless you see them with your own eyes.

Millions of Muslims, not thousands, not hundreds of thousands, but millions are coming to Christ across the Middle East, North Africa, Central Asia, and beyond.

The Middle East is experiencing a spiritual awakening unprecedented in modern history, perhaps unprecedented since the first centuries of Christianity.

But we desperately need your help.

We need your prayers more than anything else.

Pray for the secret believers who are living under threat every single day, who worship in whispers, who carry their Bibles hidden, who face death if their faith is discovered.

Pray for those who are considering following Christ but are paralyzed by fear of what they will lose.

Pray for families being torn apart by conversions.

Pray for children separated from their parents.

Pray for the persecuted church throughout the Muslim world that we would have courage and strength and wisdom.

We need your financial support.

There are organizations working to reach Muslims with the gospel to provide Bibles and Christian resources in Arabic and Pharisee and other languages to support new believers and help them grow in faith to provide safe houses and escape routes for those fleeing persecution.

Support these ministries.

Your money can literally save lives and change eternity for people you will never meet.

this side of heaven.

We need you to spread the word about what God is doing.

The mainstream media will not tell this story because it does not fit their narrative about religion.

Islamic countries certainly will not tell it because they are desperate to hide it.

But you can tell it.

You can share testimonies like mine on social media.

You can talk about it in your churches.

You can make other Christians aware.

You can inspire people to get involved in reaching Muslims for Christ.

Most importantly, we need you to see Muslims differently than you might have before.

We are not your enemies.

We are not all terrorists or fundamentalists or dangerous people.

We are human beings made in the image of God, loved by him, desperately, pursued by him, relentlessly.

Many of us are searching for truth.

Even if we do not yet know we are searching, many of us are one divine encounter away from surrendering to Jesus.

We need you to love us, to reach out to us, to share Jesus with us in ways that are respectful and compassionate and wise.

The Muslim world is the greatest mission field of our generation.

The harvest is ripe like grain, ready to be cut.

But the workers are few.

God is preparing hearts supernaturally through dreams and visions and circumstances.

But he uses human agents to make disciples and build his church.

Will you be part of what God is doing? Will you pray? Will you give? Will you go if he calls you? Will you befriend Muslims in your own community and share the love of Christ with them? Third, to the Islamic leaders and government officials who are working so hard to stop this movement.

I say this with respect and love, not with arrogance or hatred.

You cannot succeed.

You can pass stricter laws against apostasy.

You can increase surveillance and monitoring.

You can imprison and torture and execute converts.

You can block websites and ban apps and confiscate Bibles.

You can do everything in your power to suppress Christianity.

But you cannot stop the Holy Spirit.

You cannot chain the wind.

You cannot lock up the truth.

I say this not to mock you, but to plead with you.

You are fighting against God himself.

The prophet Isaiah saw this day coming 27 centuries ago when he prophesied that Egypt and Assyria would worship the God of Israel together.

It is written in scripture.

It is ordained by God before the foundation of the world.

The Middle East will be reclaimed for Christ.

And all your efforts to prevent it will fail, just as Pharaoh’s efforts to hold the Israelites failed.

Just as Rome’s efforts to destroy Christianity failed, just as every attempt throughout history to stop God’s purposes has failed.

I pray that many of you who are reading these words, who are religious leaders and government officials yourselves, will have the same encounter with Jesus that I did.

I pray you will have the courage to follow the truth wherever it leads, even if it costs you everything you have built.

I pray that one day we will be brothers in Christ, worshiping together, serving together, building God’s kingdom together.

Finally, I want to share my vision for the future.

The hope that sustains me and millions of other believers throughout the Muslim world, the dream that keeps us going through persecution.

I believe with every fiber of my being that we are witnessing the beginning of the end of Islamic dominance in the Middle East.

Not through political change or military conflict or western intervention, but through spiritual transformation, one heart at a time.

Within my lifetime, I am only 37 years old now.

I believe we will see countries that are currently 99% Muslim become countries with significant Christian populations, perhaps even Christian majorities in some regions.

I believe we will see mosques converted into churches just as churches were once converted into mosques.

I believe we will see Christian leaders in government positions, in universities, in media, in every sphere of society throughout the Middle East.

I believe the Bible will be freely available where it is now banned.

I believe the gospel will be proclaimed openly where it is now suppressed.

I believe the house churches that now meet in secret, in fear will one day meet in freedom and in public buildings.

The believers who now whisper the name of Jesus will one day shout it from rooftops without fear.

The children who are now being raised Muslim will one day raise their own children as Christians.

I believe ancient Christian communities that were nearly wiped out.

The Assyrians who are my people by blood, the cops in Egypt, the Calaldanss in Iraq will be strengthened and will grow.

And they will be joined by millions of Arab Christians, Persian Christians, Turkish Christians, Kurdish Christians, people from every tribe and nation in the Middle East, worshiping Jesus together in unity.

I believe this not because I am an optimist by nature or because I am naive about the difficulties ahead.

I believe this because it is prophesied clearly in scripture.

I believe this because I see it beginning to happen with my own eyes every single day.

I believe this because I know the power of God cannot be stopped by human opposition.

No matter how fierce or well organized, the road ahead will not be easy or quick.

More believers will be persecuted.

More will be imprisoned.

More will be killed for their faith.

More families will be torn apart.

The darkness will fight fiercely and violently against the light because Satan knows his time is short.

But the light will win.

It has already won at the cross of Calvary where Jesus conquered sin and death and hell.

We are just watching that victory unfold in human history.

One soul at a time, one family at a time, one city at a time.

Personally, my greatest remaining pain is my family.

I haven’t seen my children in over 5 years now.

My oldest son would be 14.

My second son 12.

My daughter 10.

I do not know if they are being told I am dead or that I am insane or that I am a traitor or simply that I am gone forever.

I pray for them every single day without fail.

I pray that somehow in ways I cannot imagine or orchestrate, they will one day understand why I made the choice I did.

I pray they will encounter Jesus themselves and find the truth that set me free.

I pray especially for my wife Zara.

I do not blame her for her reaction to my conversion.

She was acting according to everything she had been taught her entire life.

Everything her culture had programmed into her.

She believed she was protecting our children from a corrupted, dangerous father.

I pray that God will reveal himself to her as he revealed himself to me.

I pray that one day, whether in this life or the next, we might be reconciled not just as husband and wife, but as brother and sister in Christ.

I even pray for my parents, for my siblings, for the extended family that rejected me and declared me dead.

Some people tell me I am foolish to hope for this, that it is statistically unlikely they would ever convert.

But I serve a God who specializes in the impossible, who does what cannot be done.

If he could save me, a cleric who actively taught against Christianity and mocked those who follow Jesus, then he can save anyone.

Nothing is too hard for the Lord.

As I close this testimony, I want to invite one more time anyone who does not know Jesus to come to him today, right now, this very moment.

Not tomorrow, not next week, not when circumstances are better or easier or more convenient.

Today, because tomorrow is not promised, Jesus said in the book of Revelation, “Here I am.

I stand at the door and knock.

If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person and they with me.

He is knocking on the door of your heart right now as you hear these words.

He is inviting himself into your life.

Will you open the door? Will you let him in? If you want to receive Jesus as your Lord and Savior, you can pray a simple prayer like this, either out loud or silently in your heart.

Lord Jesus, I am a sinner.

I have lived my life without you in darkness and rebellion.

I have believed lies about who you are.

But today I acknowledge that you are the son of God, that you died on the cross to pay for my sins, and that you rose from the dead on the third day, conquering death.

I confess my sins to you, all of them.

Everything I have done wrong, and I ask for your forgiveness.

I surrender my life to you completely.

Come into my heart.

Be my Lord and my Savior.

Give me your Holy Spirit to live inside me.

Make me a new creation.

Transform me from the inside out.

I commit to following you from this day forward, no matter what it costs me.

Thank you for loving me.

Thank you for dying for me.

Thank you for saving me.

In your precious name, I pray.

Amen.

If you prayed that prayer sincerely, believing in your heart what you said with your mouth, then you are now a child of God.

Your sins are forgiven.

All of them wiped away completely as if they never happened.

You have eternal life that can never be taken away.

You have been born again by the spirit of God.

The old you has died.

A new you has been born.

Welcome to the family of God.

Welcome home.

Now, I encourage you to do several things.

First, find other believers.

Find a church or a fellowship or even one other Christian where you can grow in your faith.

You cannot follow Jesus alone.

We need the body of Christ.

Second, read the Bible every day.

Start with the Gospel of John.

Let God’s word transform your mind.

Third, pray constantly talking to Jesus throughout your day about everything.

Fourth, tell others what Jesus has done for you when it is safe to do so.

And fifth, be prepared.

Following Jesus will cost you something.

But I promise you from my own experience, he is worth it all.

To all the believers, all my brothers and sisters, the secret followers of Jesus throughout the Muslim world who might be hearing this, you are not alone.

There are millions of us.

We are your family.

We stand with you even if we never meet in this life.

We pray for you.

We share your suffering and we share your joy.

Jesus is with you right now, closer than your breath.

He will never leave you nor forsake you.

He will walk with you through the fire and you will not be burned.

Be strong and courageous.

Do not be afraid or discouraged.

The battle belongs to the Lord and victory is certain.

The darkness is fading like night before the rising sun.

The dawn is breaking across the Middle East.

The prophecies written thousands of years ago are being fulfilled before our eyes in our generation.

Egypt and Assyria and Israel will worship together.

The descendants of Ishmael and Isaac will be reconciled in Christ.

The Middle East will be blessed and will be a blessing to all the nations of the earth.

This is not wishful thinking.

This is not my personal hope or dream.

This is God’s promise revealed in his word and God does not lie.

What he has spoken will come to pass.

Heaven and earth will pass away but his words will never pass away.

I close with the words of the prophet Isaiah.

The words that began my testimony, the words that are coming to pass in our generation as we speak in that day.

There will be a highway from Egypt to Assyria.

The Assyrians will go to Egypt and the Egyptians to Assyria.

The Egyptians and Assyrians will worship together.

In that day, Israel will be the third along with Egypt and Assyria, a blessing on the earth.

The Lord Almighty will bless them, saying, “Blessed be Egypt, my people, Assyria, my handiwork, and Israel my inheritance.

” That day is coming.

That day is here.

That day is now.

And I praise God with everything in me that he allowed me to be part of this great work.

That he chose me despite my unworthiness.

That he saved me and is using my story to encourage others.

May Jesus Christ be glorified in the Middle East and throughout the entire world.

May his kingdom come and his will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

May every knee bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord to the glory of God the Father.

May the light of Christ shine in the darkness until the darkness is no more.

May the name of Jesus be lifted high in every nation, every tribe, every language.

This is my testimony.

This is my story.

This is the truth that changed my life and is changing the world.

This is the hope that anchors my soul.

This is the love that will never let me go.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and forever.

Amen.