Julian Lennon Finally Reveals the Painful Truth About Yoko Ono and His Father’s Legacy

Julian Lennon, the eldest son of legendary Beatle John Lennon, has lived his entire life in the shadow of fame, love, and loss.

At 61, the musician and philanthropist finally opened up about the complex emotions that have haunted him for decades — including his shocking admission, “I despise her,” a phrase that has since sparked worldwide curiosity and compassion.

The “her” in question, many believe, refers to Yoko Ono — the avant-garde artist and John Lennon’s second wife — whose presence in the Beatles’ story has long been surrounded by controversy.

For Julian, she represented both the destruction of his family and the emotional distance that would define much of his relationship with his father.

 

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In a candid interview filmed earlier this year, Julian reflected on the pain of growing up as the son of one of the most famous men on Earth.

“My childhood was far from what people imagine,” he said quietly.

“While the world saw my dad as a symbol of peace and love, I rarely saw him at all.

He was gone — emotionally and physically.”

Born in 1963 to John Lennon and his first wife, Cynthia Powell, Julian spent his early years watching his father rise from a struggling musician in Liverpool to a global icon.

But fame came at a cost.

“When Dad met Yoko, everything changed overnight,” Julian said.

“Suddenly, my mother and I were erased from the picture.

It felt like we didn’t exist anymore.”

Friends close to the Lennon family have often described Julian’s early relationship with Yoko Ono as “frosty at best.

” While Yoko publicly maintained that she wished peace between all members of the family, Julian felt otherwise.

“I tried to forgive her,” he admitted, “but when you grow up feeling like you’ve been pushed aside, it’s hard not to carry some resentment.”

Julian’s complicated feelings only deepened after John Lennon’s tragic death in 1980.

“I was seventeen,” he recalled.

“I hadn’t spoken to my dad in a while.

Then suddenly, he was gone.

There was no closure, no goodbye.”

The aftermath was painful.

John’s will reportedly left the majority of his estate to Yoko and their son, Sean, leaving Julian to fight a long and bitter legal battle just to receive what he believed was rightfully his.

“It wasn’t about money,” he clarified.

“It was about acknowledgment — about being seen as part of his life.”

Over the years, Julian worked tirelessly to carve his own path.

He released several albums, including Valotte and The Secret Value of Daydreaming, both of which showcased his distinct voice and musical talent.

“I didn’t want to live in my father’s shadow,” he explained.

“I wanted to be recognized for who I am — not just as John Lennon’s son.”

Despite his painful past, Julian has also shown remarkable growth and forgiveness.

“I don’t hate Yoko anymore,” he admitted in the same interview.

“Hate eats you alive.

But I can’t pretend it didn’t hurt.

 

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There were years of silence, and that silence leaves scars.”

Julian has since devoted much of his energy to humanitarian work and environmental causes through his White Feather Foundation, named after a spiritual message he associates with his late father.

“The white feather represents peace, hope, and connection,” he said.

“It’s my way of continuing what my father preached — even if I never fully got to live it with him.”

In recent years, Julian and his half-brother Sean Lennon have built a closer relationship, occasionally appearing together at music events and tributes.

“Sean and I have an understanding,” Julian shared.

“We both lost our dad in different ways.

We’re just trying to keep his spirit alive without letting the past destroy us.”

As for Yoko Ono, now in her 90s and living quietly in New York City, Julian has expressed a reluctant kind of peace.

“Time changes everything,” he said.

“Maybe she did what she thought was right for her and Dad.

I just wish things had been different.

I wish we could have all been part of his life — together.”

Fans around the world have responded with overwhelming empathy, praising Julian for his honesty and strength.

Many see his story not as one of bitterness, but of survival and redemption.

“He’s been through more than most,” one fan wrote online.

“But he never let it break him.

He turned pain into art.”

Julian Lennon’s confession — “I despise her” — may sound harsh, but behind those words lies decades of heartbreak, misunderstanding, and longing for the father he never truly had.

Today, Julian stands not as a victim of the Beatles’ history, but as a man who has learned to make peace with it.

“I’ll always love my dad,” he said softly, his voice breaking with emotion.

“But love is complicated.

Sometimes, it’s full of beauty.

Other times, it leaves you with questions that never get answered.”

Through it all, Julian Lennon continues to live by the very message his father made famous: peace and love — not as inherited slogans, but as hard-earned truths forged through a lifetime of pain, forgiveness, and the courage to speak the truth.